Ouch! I hate people that do that, last years CXS show a girl missed the whole show cause someone slipped something in her drink. You'll never see me leave mine alone and I make people I've known long enough to trust hold it for me if I need a restroom run. That sucks, I'm sorry it happened to you!
We just have to make it until Feb. when all the planets in retrograde stop driving all the group to our insanity. 2006 promises to be prosperous for all that have worked hard for what they have. Right now, forcing myself to deal with things until then.....
You're going through one of the hardest life lessons. I think, in my lack of wisdom, that the confusion you are having about a purpose or some connecting thread to all humanity may be explainable. Everyone's sense of understanding and reality is different. As it varies, the world we see and perceive varies. There are similar circumstances that we all seem to have, but those "similiar" circumstances are actually profoundly different.
In terms of asking for help. I really feel for you, I'd rather die than ask for help, but it's a lesson I'm learning. You've got my number if you want to talk philosophy of understanding.
Good luck in your battle against the meds.
It was, yes, a sign of the apocalypse, my not attending city for over a month. But, alas, you must all put up with my premadonna issuse involving my love of cc fashion. Hmmmm..... gots a boyfriend now don't know if I can do lapdance themed weekends anymore, eh, he won't care.