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Its 5 o'clock. Do you know where your children are? Lol does anybody remember those public service announcements or whatever LOL. Well one day my kids will be old enough to drink and drive, uhhh.... Like when I'm in my 60's

Teenagers/preteens naturally kind of are my niche. I connect with that age group well, it's like I literally can put myself back to that age and mindset when they need me. I can be in bad shape mentally but if a kid needs me, I become a momma bear and want to protect them instantly. That's what I miss about Juvenile Justice work. I miss the kids alot. I miss seeing the little look of happiness they get when they know that I am listening to them and validate them. That's so important to just be heard. I miss my old self.

I sent her the national suicide crisis line for youth. She journaled on her computer and let some stuff out and than said she was going to go to bed. She's going to be ok, she has my number too and she has a handful of us on the app that she turns to. Tonight she had her app boyfriend Break up with her and that kinda triggered it. Than she said she was suicidal but had ice cream so was better..I been like the her online auntie for a few years now. She gets attached to us older women over there because we're like a mom figure for her. She has several Karaoke moms there. She checks in with me like daily. She's in bed now but she has a very traditional Mexican family so they're all pretty close. Her grandmother is the matriarch and is raising her very catholic. Strict from what I see. I think she's actually homeschooled even.

My ex boyfriend from when I was 14 years old, the dude I was going out with again a year or so ago, told me 25 + years later, " I broke in your house after you guys left it, I seen how you lived" The look on his face was shock, dread, he didn't even know what to say but for him to actually confess to b&e...you know that he shit messed him up seeing it. It was one of the only times that I felt validated except for when my uncle, about 8 years ago, went off on my mom because she started shit with me while we was drinking and stuff at the house I stayed with our family friend that my grandpa died in, my uncle told her you fucking treated her like fucking shit all her life, letting these kids live like that, in filth, and he just went off my mouth dropped, my mom's heart was broken but she knew it was true, she left...it took awhile for her to talk to him again and they aren't close at all. I remember feeling confused. Bad for her, kinda mad at him but not because noone ever called her out like that...that's the day she stopped treating me like shit though. That did something to her inside. She has been apologizing to me ever since..telling me I'm beautiful not ugly like she used to...my uncle kinda saved me.

I just checked, luckily my son's at work now..I sent his dad my spying ass evidence 🤣

In the grocery store this morning and there he is, turning down the cereal aisle and I bust out, every time I swear, he looks and start laughing ish with the casual oh hi, I'm I'd like how you been? He said you know, living the dream, I said, really? He laughed and goes, no." I said where's our son? He goes, I don't know I'm like what you mean you don't know? Well, him and a bunch of friends went to pride last night I'm like he doesn't drink and drive, right he said no, he doesn't drink..I'm like does he smoke weed and drive..he's like well I don't think he drives when he does, anyway he said he was probably still passed out at one of his friends and than I go why do I keep seeing you here? Am I stalking you? He's like, of course all logical, "because I grocery shop on Sunday's..I tried messing with him and said last time I seen you was Thursday! That really messed his mind up, he's like was it, really? Than I'm like is one of them steaks for me? He goes, no, I'm like oh your wife, he goes no my son....I said OUR son, he's like yea you can have him back now! I'm like oh you only wanted the cute years! Lol we're laughing because we always have had a very sarcastic banter with each other from the day I met him, he says something messed up, I counter him, we laugh. Even when he hates me we still can cut up. I said, alright guy I was married to for ten years, I'll stop harassing you...he goes, was it really 10 years..starts doing the math...and oh yea, it was yep, I'm like bye dude, he's like bye we're still being silly.

I cant have a drivers license because while i was away at work as foreman on an Ulta project years back, she took my Impala that I said was unsafe to drive unless in an absolute emergency. Well oldest missed the bus and instead of asking my maw for a ride cuz she was there too, my wife (never had a license in her life) and (broke down car, we're not paying to keep insurance on it. ) She mighta made it a mile and smashed it into some ladys car who was stopped in the road, then leaves the scene. I wont get my license back unless i pay her $10,000 lawsuit off in full all at once 😂🧐🤬 The only way there was ever a dog was she went and got a stupid mut husky pup without asking me. It was short lived since she has taught the girls to be as lazy as her. No one could take care of the dang dog 🙄🤯

But what about the dog and pickup truck?

Yeah thanks because there's those of us who really committed to the whole family unit thing, except their co-pilot only can speak in nothing but lies and will blame anything and everyone else for every single thing that remotely seems like it would portray herself in a bad light until, huh? Whats that? I've pierced straight thru the veil of reality. Now i gotta ask someone else discreetly cuz although i still feel like i know the right answer, I have too much doubt inside me. Hey whataya think a that un. Ol lady done left me a' drownin' in a sea of debt and doubt, No I'm left high and dry, loggin' on DGN to pout . (Thass mah country song lyrics, gonna go git on that there Grande Ol Opry show)

I refuse to fall down the YouTube Rabbit Hole, but this one caught me before I could close the site 🤣 ~~~~~ Steve Harvey on Firing White People Vs. Firing Black People Sep 6, 2018