Troy Spiral

:laughing =) thanks sir. I missed you too brenda. =) oh sheet the happydance guy is still here? hellz yeah. *waves* Nice to see many familiar faces. Nice to meet ya sir. As for the techy problems im trying to get some (if not all) of them fixed here: http://www.detroitgothic.net/index.php?showtopic=11266http://www.detroitgothic.net/index.php?showtopic=11266 anyhow *handshake*. Hopefully i wont mess up the place too much. =) Hiya brooke!

I think ill just merge the two different technical threads i have going together so everything is all in one place.

thanks for the heads up brenda. I added a list of "known problems" to my topic post. Still working on this particular one.

Fast reply seems to work for me now as well as marking all forums as read does seem to mark all forums as read and stay that way for me after repeated logins. (might have been related to the cookies problem i fixed earlier) I do have the problem of "remember me" not working , looking into that.

Hi mike good to be back. Do you mean using an AOL web browser? Like IE / Foxfire but just aol's version? Didnt even know they still used their own AOL browser. Unfortunately thats probably outside the realm of fixablity since 9999.9% of everyone nowadays uses IE or one of the mozilla browsers. =/

Hiya, For the people i dont know, or dont remember me im Troy. =) Currently i live in Westland , used to live at the various goth clubs around town (figuratively) and was on DGN 24/7. Could run my mouth about a million other things but just thought i'd say hello. =) I was in a car accident a few years ago that cut my "going out" quite drastically but i was still on DGN regularly helping run things. About 7 months ago or so my health took a turn for the worst and i just couldn't deal with the board at that time anymore. Luckily we had some great mods here to pick up the slack and keep the board running and im so glad about that. I'd long planned for the fact that maybe i wouldn't be around, and how could the board continue without me here? Recruit good moderators that's how =) Anyhow I'm going to try and be "back" at least somewhat now, although i cant promise to be online everyday like i used to be. *group hug* for the people that accept such things. =) Nice to meet you and/or nice to see you all again many thanks, Troy

I've seen several posts complaining about various dgn "glitches" what specificly the current problems? I'll try to get them fixed before the health issues kick my ass again. I personally noticed that there seemed to be a problem with logging in and then being booted afterwards, either right away or right after trying to post or some such. That was a problem with , for some reason the cookies were being sent to a different link structure than the board actually uses. I think i've got that problem fixed now. What other random glitches are happening on the board? Known Problems: - Fast Reply Not working (fixed, i think) - Cant Login (fixed) - Mark as read not working (fixed, i think) - Not staying logged in when changing websites or closing the browser (working on it) - Gallery Thumbnail displaing less than usual thumbnails (fixed) - AOL users having trouble logging in (?) - Gallery images displaying random ascii chrs instead of the actual images (?)

My status update: Thank you all for the kind words in this thread , and others. Unless you hear it from me, assume that it may or may not be "the real situation" Many people, being well meaning, may or may not be explaining my situation properly. Basicly i was in the hosptital for 5 days straight all last week and am pretty bad off. Worse than i've been in the 3 years since the car accident (but doing better now than i was last week) I was in the hospital for a massive withdrawl reaction (coupled with several other problems). I couldnt speak at all for awhile due to intense deydration and had trouble walking (couldnt walk at all to get to the hostpital they took me there in the ambulance) The only things i could say clearly to the paramedics were "food, water, hospital" and other very short phrases the only thing i could come up with to say to my mom at one point, out of total frustration , not being able to answer even simple questions like "whats your birhtdate?" My mom tried to get me to tell the doctors what was wrong and all i could say was "im sorry , thank you. I love you" and such. I felt , inside like i was thinking fairly coherently but i could not make my body function properly. (yes it was scary) I couldnt speak clearly enough to explain to the doctors what the problem was (to oversimilify it was intense medication withdrawl) so they pumped me full of lots of differnt things which , they tell me, triggerd a psychotic reaction that lasted for 2 days. Durring which time i was hallucinating and not seeing , thinking, or functioning properly (mentally or biologically, in just about any way you care to imagine) I was "better" on day 3 and well enough to be relased on day 5. Right now im on lots of meds and basicly just exausted and have lots of headaches/anxiety/ laundry list of other lesser problems. This was not meant as a "suicide note" but does have , to be honest, sucidal overtones, becasue dealing with the pain & frustration of being sick virtually 24/7 for nearly 3 years now had finally gotten to me and i think i was half thinking "i just want it to be over" , not that i was going to kill myself. But the pain was getting pretty bad, and i was starting to think , well , if this is it, lets just get it over with. (to sumarize) Im now, at home, recuperating. Thank you all for your kind comments. I do feel silly for posting this and airing my "problems" like some crybaby, but i thought i should explain a bit more. Im doing much better, but certainly not out of the woods yet. Im sorry i cant respond to all the PMs and other messages properly yet, im just too exausted. Please try to understand. Right now im at home (yes with the parents) and just trying to recover. For a long time i wasnt doing all that great but was trying to ignore it and just "press on" as well as "act healthy" as i know thats what people want to hear. Right now i just need to try and deal with reality and get better, but really get better, not just put on the face of "seeming to be better" which is fairly easy. You wont see me around much for awhile but your in my thoughts and i often get updates via various people when i have the energy to speak & converse about the goings on here. Sorry to be so vauge on some of the details , its hard , even now to really explain everything , and think totally clearly. Thanks for everything -Troy

"The doomsday post?" I think i tried but its hard to say for certian. Let me point some things out now that i wont be able to point out later. Please calm. Understanding. Its so un-goth. Its even un-goth to say its un-goth blah blah. Why is it so hard for people to say what they mean? We (the collective us) know the answer we just cant always say it. Its my fault i do it too. I try to be as honest as i can but still screw something up? You too? Hate that. Grrruf. Most want you to belive their version try not to do that. I'll focus for a minute longer but the years havent been kind. Im still in here , i know i am, i just cant say what i need to. The prescriptions I"ve Been reading these for years and trying to help fix them when i can (with endless amounts of help) which i can never repay. You thought you knew it all? So did I. We've even read the "you bet you thought you knew it all i did too sub-genre) In my heart at some point i was totally with logic (and the worse off for it) and now im (soon i fear, but maybe not) Sorry about the formatting. (why does everyone say that why dont they just fix the formatting a bit?) Its a logical problem it seems. I want to help im sorry i love u i owe you so much. I love i its to say. Conflict. I tried to keep it breif but unfortunately i failed. Theres enough logic left to tell the difference between logic and love , logic is slowly going. Damned my desire to not offend. I havent found the real "truth" yet. Im not sure its worth the bother, or if its the most important thing in the world. Its near impossilbe to make yourself understood after a certain point, remember that if you go down the same route. Dont be a burden unto others. Love. Hate. War. Thats the core. Its here. I fought and fought and fought and tried to help others fight and now i've failed it seems. Please try to stay calm. Be nice. Calm , understanding. Its a grave matter. Ignore that crap i put on myspace that was me telling the truth as i understood it then. I understand things now more clearly. I'ved tried for years never to do this and partially started DGN to try and help wayward darken-folk. I wanted to never see one of these again and i knew i would. And mine like everyones "is special" - Pfft. I have two warring sides in my life and they and the chemicals and the car accident are breaking them to peices. What do i need right now? Calm? I dont deserve it but thats what i want. Mea Culpa - pfft. I've read a bazzilliion of these things and initialy lothed them (before starting dgn years ago) and have tried never to quite go there, or never to quite tottally let it be known. I specificly started DGN for several reasons, but the main one was love. I tried never , ever to do this and have tried to talk people out of it time and time again, but i think i've finally failed. Not free, trapped. None you deserve this. I love you Thank You Say before i get started: Please understand this is written under extreeem durress. Please play nice with each other. Try to be understanding , try not to place blame. I just cant totally be sure which is which anymore. Food. Water. Calm. Understanding. Love. My fault. I need both sides of my life! PLease understand! Im left here. food water calm no pain love. Written on my last nerve, soon , all emotion. Wow , im totally feeling the rubber stamp post. Its my own damn fault, true enough. In the end, whos falt can it be other than myself if there must be one? Wimp. I've always tried to use logic, but logic is failing me. Ill try to be brief but ill probably fail. Sorry about the formatting, im not working fully. Ill try to be a clear as i can, but its very hard from this end. It wouldnt be one of my posts if it wasnt long winded. I dont deserve it, your right. You all right. I've been the one tellling this sermon for years yet i havent learned it myself? Selfish prick. I've never been able to say this 110% clearly. I still cant say please dont read this if this stuff offends you. Without feeling like im offending someone. Just leave it be and try to be happy. I cant understand it my logic is getting worse. Its ok if you stop reading dont feel you need to read. Just try to be understanding to each other. DGN moderators i owe you part of my soul. DGN posters i owe you too. Prescritpion chemicals i think have losend my grip on reality. Forgive the poor spelling. Dont be a burden unto others. There is more truth here than there will be in real life by the time you read this. Look here. Oh how overused, its even overused to say its overused. Im trying to sumarize but failing as things get worse. Im sorry its pathteic, i've become what i try to be understanding. i love DGN i love you I cant understand it my logic is getting worse. Love you all This is not about any one thing, please dont try to do that, its a web. Im sorry i cant be more clear. The brain isnt functiioning properly. 32(?) Male, Food, Water, understanding,Love. The rumors arent true. Im sorry. I still love you all and think about you every day constantly. "Im trapped. Im trapped. But dont help me!" I live in the middle. But reality seems to be on both ends. Not were i am. Im sorry , logic isnt functioning proplerly at this point i still grasp it but after 3 years of trying i cant seem to hold it long enough anymore. My damned "politness metter" even at this point wont let me point out names. My parents (whom i now live iwth due to ) and i've been leading a double life, trying not to offend either, but Logic is what everything is based on no? NO. I could easily be deluding myself. I sound a bit like child a bit due to massive problems that i oh-so cant say in real life anymore. Car Accident? Drugs for treatment? Both? Its not about any one thing i wish it was its not that simple. If you dont care about this kind of stuff please ignore and try to be happy, please thats all i think i have left. I've been wrong and hurt peoples feelings I have only myself to blame. Its down to the wire. Hell even that line is overused. Me and you ARE close you and I reading this. On a non-specific cosmic level we are one, or at least. Im trapped by my well-meaning , loving keepers, i dont need "resque" in need understanding, love, calm, food , water. Im sorry to YOU personally. In a very specific way i just cant say it in real life anymore. All DGNers Keep working. Keep playing. Life is for the living. Happness is painful? My logic is eluding me. I've based most of my life on logic and love and now the logic is failing. Its not about sybil, or just medication or just the car accident or just my very difficult to deal with living situation. its not about any one thing. Im sorry i wish it was. I dont want to name any names as i know it will cause friction and confusion to some and pleasure to others. Feel free to delete or reformat the text as you like. Delete it or keep it thats fine. Sorry about the spelling. Things not working fully. I cant say it privately anymore its to painful. I dont mean to be cryptic by nature the filter that im speaking through only allows me. Not anyones fault but my own. Too long to read. I dont deserve it or you specificly and you collectively both are intertwined i cant escape it. I love DGN, I hate making things i love feel pain. I push people away , because i hate to make them hurt. Its a selfish cycle that i think needs to end. And that about sums it up to this point. Please understand. Please be nice to each other. Love is, finally, in the end i hope, better for everyone. Specific people im hard pressed to name any its not fair it will cause burden, wich seems to be the problem. Logic is not functioning proplery here, i know this. Yet i do nothing about it? Its your own damn fault! Formatting horrible. Im sorry. Food. Water. Calm. Understading. I failed. Im so sorry. 32 years of trying to "fight" weakness and i finally failed, after trying to preach this sermon crap to others. "Understanding" "Love" its all so general and mushy. My myspace is meaningless rabble, i dont begrudge anyone it but its not true, its old crap. I cannot post on DGN because it hurts to much. Dont be a burden unto others, Dont be a burden unto others . I love you all i think about you everyday its pathetic love is better than pain i mean general love and specific love try to understand both im sorry i think love is better than logic now that im forced to pick between the two. try to understand I love you Thank You its selfish to say its selfish to say its selfish try to understand I love you Thank You try to understand I love you Thank You Love takes courage, i thought i had but im not sure now, chemicals are blurring things. The truth is here if its anywhere , i can tell things are slowly going south chemically. I had a "real life" once upon a time, now im reduced to the pathetic stuff. Make your own logic or copy someonelses if it suits you, but pick a side, dont go were i've gone, you wont like it. Despite all my efforts througut the years, i've finally realized that it may be unwinable. Whos to say? When the logical things are gone what is left? Its a long journey. try to understand and be understanding. Alone we all go? I tend to think so. But love wins in the end i wont pretend. I still have it but i cant totally let go even in he end, my fault i know. I love you Thank You Love you thank you. . Love you. I've now finally come what i've desipised before my mind totally goes. I know this is pathetic. Im sorry, im sorry, im sorry. I love you, thank you. No logic, or very little logic left, all emotion or as close to it as i can get. 32 years later i finally say it directly about my own person not some collective fanthom. But me, personally, on a personal level. Calm. Food Water. The world is about to end? Not any one thing, complex issues. Im trying to write properly secetly. Its stupid. Cant belive this would happen to me. Afraid. Lonely. Calm. Food. Water. No more pain People that ask for help are weak. Die you loser. I know its boring. But the cliche has hit me. Undersanding. Calm. Love. Food Water. I have love but dont deserve it. I dont recogize it anymore Car Accident & Drugs for treatment hard to tell apart. I love you all i think about you constantly. I've pushed away many. Im sorry. Im sorry. Understanding. Love. I've failed and dont deserve it. DGN Dont be a burden uto others Dont be a burden uto others Dont be a burden uto others Dont be a burden uto others Dont be a burden uto others Dont be a burden uto others Dont be a burden uto others Dont be a burden uto others Dont be a burden uto others Before my mind totally goes i want to everyone happy. Calm. Understaning. I Love you. Want make everyone happpy. Cant do it. Many layers of problems. Need Uderstanding. I dont deserve you Leslie, Ted, Don , Tina, please understand i cant do it for anyone. Calm and understanding. I dont deserve you Mom & Dad I dont deserve any of DGN DGN. We all need love need understanding need calm. Paradox? No logic for it. I think about DGN everyday its part of my soul but logic not working anymore. Complex Issues Not Simple in a box. Dont be a burden uto others Dont be a burden uto others Dont be a burden uto others Mom caring Dad caring Releatives Caring A few understand fully None Understanding Fully Trapped by well meanin keepers Need go hopsital. Food Water Calm I love you thank you Food Water Calm Understanding Il ove you Thank you. trapped food water calm Im trying but failing im sorry , i love you thank Learned late Only myself to blame. No pitty its my fault. calm , understanding, try please you know that flowery stuff. please try to understand i love you all I love you thank you calm please

Welcome to the place =) *drum roll*

Post your post-CC reports here. =)

DGN @ City Club, Saturday, September 24th Come. Join us. Meet us. Hang out. We're not that scary in person, really. Leland City Club 400 Bagley Street Downtown Detroit You enter by going through an unmarked door on the First Street side of the Ramada Hotel building, located at 400 Bagley Street in downtown Detroit. The club is at the top of the stairwell. (see picture in the link above in the DGN calendar entry) All are welcome. Come meet some of us weirdos. Saturday nights from 10:00 p.m. to 4:30 a.m. Alcoholic drinks until 2:00 a.m., pop and juices served all night. Admission is $4 18 and up, 21 to drink with proper ID (no exceptions). No drugs, weapons, chains, spikes or cell phones. Zoomable map to City Club. MDOT lane closures (The map isn't quite exact. The Ramada is located within the Bagley, 1st, Cass, Plaza Dr. block.) Hope to see you there =) Note: This thread is about who is going to CITY CLUB ON SATURDAY, if you want talk about some other club,going to LCC on some other night,some other place or some other subject? Make a new thread, don't post about it in this one.

Seems to have gotten mediocre reviews, but it looks like it gets an A for goth-style. =) At least the intro is neat and the minigame they have on the site is amusing. http://www.deathjr.com/ Hrmm and i dont even own a PS2 nor any modern gaming console. Guess im just posting this so you can waste 2 minutes of your life looking at that well done sales pitch for the game. Tim Burton-esque.

=) =) done. =)

Hehe, only phee. That Troy guys posts are spread out over 4 years. No prayer of me posting the rapid-speed posts at the phee/brenda rate. Done. Also changed you join date to the join date of the local account.

lots of people just had a very rapid post increase

The following accounts should be done (phew!) If there are any problems let me know. Troy Spiral Brenda Starr Onyx Torn Asunder Marblez Amerist Tomcat Fierce Critter Kiss The Midget (Chrstophsbite) Damagedangel The Dark Vater Araignee DisturbedMania Scary Guy - (join date a guess on my part due to ezboard problems) Gothicmom Manic Queen Mallochai Jarodakamister Darque Knight Holliwood Head Wreck If you still want your info transfered and dont see your name on this list, see this thread: http://p067.ezboard.com/ftroyspiralfrm1.sh...topicID=5.topic

If you check the date on the first post, this is the same topic. Its just such a pain that i wanted to do everyone all at the same time... which, im now doing. Up until just now (as of the last hour or so) no actual transfer of info had taken place. Also i doubt this will ever be "done" really as random olden-days people pop up now and again.

Working on this right now. Hurry up and post on the old board if you havent yet, and still want to. =)

Make that a double.

Bjork - It's Oh So Quiet basicly becasue some freak with the intials of GoC reminded me of it just now. :laughing

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Hiya, Tell us a bit about yourself. We are friendly, if a bit nosey. Welcome =) *drum roll*

Keith? Which keith? Tall thin, blonde keith? :devil

anyone you want to see on DGN, usually all you have to do is bug them enough and they'll eventually show up. =) Thats how 95% of the people on DGN got here.