Troy Spiral

Might sound like an odd question but im just curious as to what people prefer on men.

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1. Sorry cant help ya there sir. Been a long long time since i've been to a Ren Fen. =( 2. Its a bizzare construction of one of the managers. Cell phones ARE allowed in other areas of the ramada inn and the labyrinth (a smaller club in the ramada) 3. Friday: http://www.detroitgothic.net/index.php?showtopic=3546 I actually think i might have seen you on friday, at least i remember a guy that looked somewhat like the guy in thoes pics talking to a friend of mine, that i didnt recongize. Thank you very much. =)

hehe :blushing =)

I assume you mean me SG? Yeah hehe damn longhairs. :laughing

Ok i guess im going to mephistos. Be nice to me guys please. Cant take to much drama , its been the roughest week in a long long time. FarrIL watch out you might get a hug you've been warned! hehe. Slight possibly i might not make it due to lack of energy but ill most likely make it. Hope to see you guys there. =) I might have to drink to get through the night, gotta figure out some sort of wing-man situation to drive home probably *Ponders* I've asked this like a 1000 times but what time does mephistos open?

I missed you =)

"Shut the hell up you crybaby." Basicly what i been telling myself every day all day. Not working, yet.

Wow that was a hard post to hit "add post" on. Thanks for being kind in your replies. Almost feel like i'd shrink down to about a half inch tall if i left that post up, did it anyway. *tries to keep chin up* Im supposed to be the strong one helping people with their issues. Not the one crying his heart out like a baby. GAH!!! Sad, Longing, Confused , how stereotypical can you get troy? =( I feel like a scared little rabbit. First time in a long long time old troy has actually been "scared" like this. Hard to come to grips with the fact that i have this major of a weakness in my personality. Very hard.

In recent years i was always very comfortable with "being single" and i enjoyed my freedom. Now, all the sudden im scared to death of it. Its , for lack of a better term "weakening". I felt in the past that i was generally very emotionally strong. Now, i feel as if im not in control of certain aspects of my emotions and that im vulnerable to all sorts of possible crazy trauma that i wasn't , at least in recent years afraid of. What the heck happened to me? Feel like i got in another car accident only this one there isn't really any medicine for. Wish i could go back to the old way of thinking. I used to make jokes about "being a sap" or "being a mush ball" whenever i was getting a bit overly passionate / romantic about someone or something. Now , its hard to even joke about it. I think im a permanent sap. Its a DRASTIC change. For years I've been trying to cultivate the idea that its "ok to be single" and was puzzled why so many people seem like they just cannot be happy no matter what if they are not with someone. Almost to the point were the seem to be taking just about anything that comes along. Now, im starting to understand this sort of thinking and its scaring me a bit. Its almost like if your single there's something "missing". Before i didn't think this way at all. I thought im fine by myself, if something great comes along, good! If not im still happy and having fun! Not sure how i lost that feeling , or even if i want it back for sure. Its amazingly painful. I've never been one to "chase after" a relationship, as soon as i thought it wasn't working out i'd usually start looking for an exit. Now i have almost the opposite opinion. Now i have this tremendous longing for someone that truly understands me and loves me in a romantic way, andi feel the same of them. This feeling just will not seem to leave, i swear to god i feel like im 15 seconds away from crying my eyes out , very regularly because if this really intense longing. How sad is that? Before my defense mechanism was to become sort of hard-shelled and insulate myself to the point where i can clearly remember several instances were some very sweet, attractive girls were pushed away by me because i was in my "defense" stage to avoid getting hurt. I dont think i want to do that anymore. But the alternative is to walk around with a gaping hole in your heart? Ouch. Not sure i like that alternative either.

The peer pressure to go to Luna is increasing haha. (checks PMs) Last night at necto i had like 4 people tell me to go to mephistos. The way i feel right now i might not go anywhere, but i'll probably drag my ass out somewhere wed night. =)

Had a good time. Probably am overdoing it health wise, but its better than moping around the house bitchin about my health / other problems. Gotta suck it up troy!! :laughing Was nice to see some of you. Everyone was very friendly thank god. =)

From paradox's sig. lol

I gotta go to mephistos at least once. I been telling scary guy i'd go check it out for ages and ages. =) I'll miss you guys.

Think i might drag myself down there this Wed anyone else plannning on going?

I think im going to drag my butt down there at the last minute. Need to get my mind off some things.

thanks Nienna

I'll probably have the DGN cards with me per usual. Can always use addtional help getting the word out about the board if anyone wants to help. The cards make it easy you can just stuff one in somones hand and they dont have to try and remember the site name the next day after the hangover wears off hah.

Thanks sir. =) Was nice to see you. =) Awesome ted. =) Get there earlier sir!! Hi Onyx. hope your doing ok. Was nice to see you.

The Xanax, i got MQ heh. Unfortuantely the crappy insurance i have doesnt cover prescpritons.... 100 bucks for 60 2mg pills (max dose that they can give ya)

Whoa the Brooks man is showing up? I'll most likely be there per usual. Going to be HARD to deal with this weekend for various reasons but im going to try to make it regardless. =)

a.... cant say it. :tear

What do you look for in a potential significant other? What are the key personality qualities you want? And the bonus question for people that care to share: Are you single/married/taken/looking/other ?

Nerdcore you didnt say anything wrong. =)

I sort of lurked around a bit (and danced alot) and probably came off as being stand-offish to a few people i hope i didnt offend anyone. Im just relaxing a bit at the club and making some changes. Or rather I need to start "being me" more and a bit less of the yes-man that i've been in recent months. Its a good thing for me. Per usual in the last couple months had a good time for the first 2/3rds of the night. =)