Troy Spiral

DGN @ City Club, Saturday, July 16th Come. Join us. Meet us. Hang out. We're not that scary in person, really. Leland City Club 400 Bagley Street Downtown Detroit You enter by going through an unmarked door on the First Street side of the Ramada Hotel building, located at 400 Bagley Street in downtown Detroit. The club is at the top of the stairwell. (see picture in the link above in the DGN calendar entry) All are welcome. Come meet some of us weirdos. Saturday nights from 10:00 p.m. to 4:30 a.m. Alcoholic drinks until 2:00 a.m., pop and juices served all night. Admission is $4 18 and up, 21 to drink with proper ID (no exceptions). No drugs, weapons, chains, spikes or cell phones. Zoomable map to City Club. MDOT lane closures (The map isn't quite exact. The Ramada is located within the Bagley, 1st, Cass, Plaza Dr. block.) Hope to see you there =) Note: This thread is about who is going to CITY CLUB ON SATURDAY, if you want talk about some other club,going to LCC on some other night,some other place or some other subject? Make a new thread, don't post about it in this one.

lol ASAP =)

Thanks i'd apreciate it.

:confused :doh :erm =(

Thanks for the many, amazingly considerate responses and warm intentions. Im a bit reluctant to start replying as im not wanting to rip open partially healed wound at the moment, and , with so many wonderful posts , i feel if i respond to one i'll have to respond to all of them. I will , just taking me awhile to get my thoughts straight. Thank you all so much.

lol

Shes nice =) Be nice to her. =) *drum roll*

She hasnt been on the board in awhile, but she rocks. =) *waves hello* *drum roll*

Careful sometimes the writing between the lines is very , VERY blurry.

I guess i prefer "myself" shaved, but my skin is very sensitive and the process of shaving can be a bit painful, moreso than i guess it is for the average guy. the last girl i was with told me she prefered it not shaved so im just sort of in a state of flux. Doesnt really matter to me all that much either way, kind of like how i dont nessiarly always care were i go out to eat, if whoever im with wants to go there ill go hehe. Some things are "important" to me , this one isnt, more of a curiousity than anything.

I found about 4 different versions of this but they are all pretty similar: "Have you ever been in love? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one person, , enters into your stupid life...You offer them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain." - Neil Gaiman (Author of The Sandman and other works) Interesting. More due to the source than any "originality" doesnt make it any less true though.

Congratulations, i wish you the best, as always. =)

Might sound like an odd question but im just curious as to what people prefer on men.

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1. Sorry cant help ya there sir. Been a long long time since i've been to a Ren Fen. =( 2. Its a bizzare construction of one of the managers. Cell phones ARE allowed in other areas of the ramada inn and the labyrinth (a smaller club in the ramada) 3. Friday: http://www.detroitgothic.net/index.php?showtopic=3546 I actually think i might have seen you on friday, at least i remember a guy that looked somewhat like the guy in thoes pics talking to a friend of mine, that i didnt recongize. Thank you very much. =)

hehe :blushing =)

I assume you mean me SG? Yeah hehe damn longhairs. :laughing

Ok i guess im going to mephistos. Be nice to me guys please. Cant take to much drama , its been the roughest week in a long long time. FarrIL watch out you might get a hug you've been warned! hehe. Slight possibly i might not make it due to lack of energy but ill most likely make it. Hope to see you guys there. =) I might have to drink to get through the night, gotta figure out some sort of wing-man situation to drive home probably *Ponders* I've asked this like a 1000 times but what time does mephistos open?

I missed you =)

"Shut the hell up you crybaby." Basicly what i been telling myself every day all day. Not working, yet.

Wow that was a hard post to hit "add post" on. Thanks for being kind in your replies. Almost feel like i'd shrink down to about a half inch tall if i left that post up, did it anyway. *tries to keep chin up* Im supposed to be the strong one helping people with their issues. Not the one crying his heart out like a baby. GAH!!! Sad, Longing, Confused , how stereotypical can you get troy? =( I feel like a scared little rabbit. First time in a long long time old troy has actually been "scared" like this. Hard to come to grips with the fact that i have this major of a weakness in my personality. Very hard.

In recent years i was always very comfortable with "being single" and i enjoyed my freedom. Now, all the sudden im scared to death of it. Its , for lack of a better term "weakening". I felt in the past that i was generally very emotionally strong. Now, i feel as if im not in control of certain aspects of my emotions and that im vulnerable to all sorts of possible crazy trauma that i wasn't , at least in recent years afraid of. What the heck happened to me? Feel like i got in another car accident only this one there isn't really any medicine for. Wish i could go back to the old way of thinking. I used to make jokes about "being a sap" or "being a mush ball" whenever i was getting a bit overly passionate / romantic about someone or something. Now , its hard to even joke about it. I think im a permanent sap. Its a DRASTIC change. For years I've been trying to cultivate the idea that its "ok to be single" and was puzzled why so many people seem like they just cannot be happy no matter what if they are not with someone. Almost to the point were the seem to be taking just about anything that comes along. Now, im starting to understand this sort of thinking and its scaring me a bit. Its almost like if your single there's something "missing". Before i didn't think this way at all. I thought im fine by myself, if something great comes along, good! If not im still happy and having fun! Not sure how i lost that feeling , or even if i want it back for sure. Its amazingly painful. I've never been one to "chase after" a relationship, as soon as i thought it wasn't working out i'd usually start looking for an exit. Now i have almost the opposite opinion. Now i have this tremendous longing for someone that truly understands me and loves me in a romantic way, andi feel the same of them. This feeling just will not seem to leave, i swear to god i feel like im 15 seconds away from crying my eyes out , very regularly because if this really intense longing. How sad is that? Before my defense mechanism was to become sort of hard-shelled and insulate myself to the point where i can clearly remember several instances were some very sweet, attractive girls were pushed away by me because i was in my "defense" stage to avoid getting hurt. I dont think i want to do that anymore. But the alternative is to walk around with a gaping hole in your heart? Ouch. Not sure i like that alternative either.

The peer pressure to go to Luna is increasing haha. (checks PMs) Last night at necto i had like 4 people tell me to go to mephistos. The way i feel right now i might not go anywhere, but i'll probably drag my ass out somewhere wed night. =)

Had a good time. Probably am overdoing it health wise, but its better than moping around the house bitchin about my health / other problems. Gotta suck it up troy!! :laughing Was nice to see some of you. Everyone was very friendly thank god. =)

From paradox's sig. lol