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Making hot chocolate, for when Enishi comes back inside from shoveling. I wish he had worn a warmer coat and boots! I'm worried he'll get frostbitten! *clucks tongue*

GREAT. /facepalms Looks like we're about to get more, as well. I'm glad Enishi is on his way with a shovel.

Cold, hungry, broke, and bereft of all the people whom I usually spend the most time with. I feel like a heel-- for having to spell it out plainly to someone that I have begun to move on with my life (when the clues have all been there for a long time). I didn't realize he still carried such a fervent torch for me, because of his apparent lack of courtship behaviour. Unfortunately, he's one of those rare people who can completely cloak their emotions (this is a defense mechanism that he's not even aware of having), so I have never been able to "feel" him completely. He is one of my best friends, and was once my darling companion of four years. I still love him so! I wish I could make him understand-- I'm not trying to be callous with my actions; merely trying to go on, and get over the pain of losing him as my one and only. I cannot bear the idea of losing him as a friend-- he is such an integral part of me and my life. I can only hope he realizes he is being selfish, and that he will speak to me again. I also miss my absent Papa Joe, to the point of feeling sick. He's my rock, and my closest confidante. He is usually always there, to pull me out of harm's way (or at least make life seem a bit less grim). With him gone, I am SO lost, right now.. My car is broken down, I spend my last ten bucks to pay some kids to shovel my drive (and they totally hacked it, so it's not satisfactory), I have no food to eat, all of my weekend parties canceled due to snow, I have a way-overdue gas bill, my internet bill is coming up due soon, I need crickets for my spiders (and cat food) soon, all of my usual lifelines are gone, and I'm spiraling down the hole in the loo again. I feel like I'm going to die..

My Papa Joe, who's in Texas right now.

I'm beginning to feel like Carrie Bradshaw.. *sigh*

Like I want to cuddle a dude, and there are only cats around. I really wish there was another human being close by, for me to mash on.

OMG, that restaurant sounds AWESOME right now.. What I wouldn't give for a good dinner out!

Didn’t they tell you the way that it’s gonna be? You asked God for a woman, and ended up with me; Maybe I’ll love you, maybe I’ll pull you apart.. We live in darkness I’ve pulled you into, my friend-- There’s no escaping this hell that I’ve put you in; You must forgive me, but loving me is a sin.. Are you ready for me? Do you love me in black? I’ll push you away, Then make you come back. I can make you feel love, I can be so detached, Do you really want me? Do you love me in black? When I first met you, I thought there was a mistake; How could you want me? You made such easy prey. Didn’t they teach you-- loving is nothing but pain? What do you see, when you look in my eyes? A sea of blue, a place where your heart could lie; Where it could drown, where it will never survive? Are you ready for me? Do you love me in black? I’ll push you away, Then make you come back. I can make you feel love, I can be so detached, Do you really want me? Do you love me in black? I keep reliving the moment we said goodbye; You didn’t kiss me, you didn’t even try-- You said I made you feel like you were barely alive.. In another lifetime, maybe another place, Maybe I’ll find you; I could be tempted by fate-- And try to reach you, with too little kindness, too late.. Are you ready for me? Do you love me in black? I’ll push you away, Then make you come back. I can make you feel love, I can be so detached, Do you really want me? Do you love me in black?

LMAO at these pictures from last night!!! Also wondering why there are so many non-member hits on that "Weird red blotches on my legs" thread all the time..

I thought I was single, but I'm still getting accused of cheating by my long-gone ex.

Like I want to SCREAM. Why is it that whenever I have a really good day, something always happens the next day to totally cancel it out? People seem to love popping my big red balloon.

For my ex to stop acting like a bell-end.

OK, my mood is COMPLETELY ruined, now. I just got a text from my ex, asking me if I've been sleeping with others! WTF-ing F!!! What does it fucking matter to him, anyway??? He can't even be a good friend to me. He often disappears for three days at a time, without even returning my calls. Either HE'S fucking someone, or doing drugs, or something-- judging from such mysterious behaviour. I never put him through such an inquisition, because we aren't a couple, anymore. Why does he always have to act like he cares about what I do? This shit is getting SO old. Some days, I just want RID of him for good. If I sat around waiting for him to come down to earth, I'd be waiting forever. He needs to GROW UP.

The meal I mentioned many posts back still sounds good. I'd take that, right now.

I wanna go to Santarchy!

Not good.

Very very sad, and abandoned. My very best friend has gone to Texas, to be with his daughters and granddaughters for the holidays. He probably won't be back until the end of February. This person is the only human being in the entire world who ever comes through for me-- he's like the dad I never had, and my life is probably going to unravel at the seams, without him here. Without him as my rock, and without his guidance and perspective, I am so lost!! He probably doesn't even know.

target="_blank Sing it, sister. My life story..

Like there is something big and empty, folding into itself over and over, inside of me.

I absolutely wore this album out, when I had it! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OfSu_TGqn3g

Making a chicken and gravy pastie, from leftover pot pie stuff.

A slice of hot apple pie, with Edy's Slow Churned Caramel Swirl ice cream on top. MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!

I'm expecting to see Her Majesty come driving by in her sledge.. ..I wonder if she has any of that Turkish Delight left?