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DeVotchKa - How It Ends

I feel as long as I'm physically healthy, I am pretty much done with prescription drugs.. as well as more cautious of them than fire. I feel psychedelic-like dizzy shocks from Serotonin/SSRI withdrawal which will go on for as many days till my brain re-adapts. Overall though, calm and ecstatic.

Headbanging to: Editors - An End Has A Start

This is probably one of the most evil looking, badass insects in existence.. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paraponera_clavata Where the Bullet Ant's sting rates.. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schmidt_Sting_Pain_Index A National Geographic covered tribe initiation where people wear gloves covered in the backsides of Bullet Ants: --- Ow.

I've never been here before, may never walk into or see this place.. and I am mainly posting because I find this commercial hilarious.

A little bit. Thanks, I will look into those books.

Drink water/green tea/anything non-alcoholic and low sugar between shots-- in most cases you can completely eliminate hangovers this way by taking a break to do that, since hangovers are mostly caused by dehydration. There are no problems, only simple situations. Bummer. *** I feel joyous and slightly intrusive, like a crooked figure who wears a box on his head, slapping people with a broom and yelling about Pearl Harbor while eating cold Pillsbury biscuits with stale margarine. Tweedle dum, tweedle dee.

I'm sipping a beer, working on music, making arrangements, and.. *sips beer* Um.. I'm sipping a beer, working on music, making arrangements, and writing. No actually absolutely nothing, I'm procrastinating all the things I was previously doing a few seconds ago. RIGHT NOW, procrastinating. NOW, sipping the booze. ... I swear there's chocolate cake in the other room... WTF is a publisher marketin- NVM, this needs to all go into the Intoxicated Posting Thread, its getting off-hand.

Teh ol' This Is Sparta remix. WARNING: Listening to this song may cause brain damage.

I waited a few minutes to sign in..

I never met you. But I'm sure both of us could write a fictional story about how we did. And that's equally important. Ramble on!

EDIT: The img I posted in this post got relinked.

I would say I still prescribe to Atheism, because I'm more inclined to interpret "God" as a collective of everything becoming conscious of itself or hanging between consciousness and unconsciousness, if that makes sense; even though God might not be the best word to use. I think its much less likely that there is any super-being that cannot essentially be destroyed.. so I wouldn't consider that super-being a God, just more evolved than I am. I see Nihilism as paradoxical, stating that if values are falsely invented, than Nihilism is in itself a false value-- not that I'm against the supposedly paradoxical either, but that's how I see it. Interesting media.

On Zen & Enlightenment... Your thoughts? Or no thoughts? *** The basis of my opinion is based on Naturalism, works of Eckhart Toll, Zen teachings/Koans, and some Osho, Deepak Chopra, and Sadhguru. I would have to say that although I am an Atheist from the standpoint that I exist and there is no God-- I can also see at present the possibility that I do not exist and there is a "God," in the sense of God being an all-encompassing collective of everything. I am not detouring from the more scientific idea that death is non-existence or unconsciousness: I don't know, nor do I think death bothering. I believe value of wonderment and imagination in Science is a further indication that the mind can take on an inner level of consciousness to reform identity to an eternal and infinite state of enlightenment or non-comprehensive wholeness of oneself, one's identity, one's purpose. I believe that egotism is linked with duality and time. Though time has its importance, its not the source of any lasting identity, neither forms which I believe are egotistically empowered. And I believe that non-egotistical or "no-mind" awareness of presence is the key to enlightenment; though this can be further defined as awareness of awareness, as in the universe becoming aware of itself. I don't consider myself Buddhist, but I would call myself a practitioner of Zen, even if the statement is paradoxical. I would say I am enlightened in the sense that I understand I am not my thoughts, feelings, or the ego encompassing them-- even though I can still muse and enjoy form and identity. I would say from practicing Zen, though my meditation is unconventional to Buddhism, my world-view is more sublime and profound and my life is much more simple.

I think that little old girl has more balls than I do. But this doc is definitely messed up.

I feel like lying down and meditating.. after one more beer and some music and reading.

That blows. I wish you good luck in finding new job opportunities.

No reason to be sad or alone, dwell on the present and enjoy it! Too many people bring the past into the present, or obsess with the future, taking the simple situations drifting over the present peace they always have, and turning those situations into problems. This is all just regurgitation of things I've read and studied. Just my two cents. --- I feel calm.

I feel like feeling rather than not feeling, that I have the choice of what I feel.

1. I love defiant or dark theatricality and similar use of language. 2. My favorite color is violet, I find it feels like I am feeding off of it when I look at it. 3. I might be somewhat of a gentleman but that doesn't mean I'm not sexual, I think its quite the opposite. Sometimes when a person opens the door for you first, its so they can look at your ass. 4. I am completely heterosexual. 5. I think its cool that one of my great, great grandmothers was Pottawattamie. 6. I have social anxiety and major depressive disorder which I am on medications for long-term; the Klonopin has helped with anxiety, though the Zoloft is more of a muse. 7. I am self-educated in various suicide methods and I feel a fascination and connection with suicidal artists who've ended their lives. (I have no wish to end mine.) 8. Many of my teeth, mostly on the top row, are rotting. This is mostly from years of excessive soda drinking. I brush-- but I probably will not fix them. 9. I have dim blue eyes with dark circles under them, and slight blue lines accentuating the circles. 10. Between the days I wear all black, my eyes, and when I smile, I look hilariously crazy and evil. 11. I have short brown hair I usually dye blue black or black, than slick it back with water or leave it messy. 12. I wear black work boots on an almost constant basis. 13. I am peaceful and wouldn't harm anyone unless out of self-defense or defense of others in rare cases where peaceful, verbal resolution can't be reached. 14. I educate myself on the drugs I take. I will never touch hard drugs. 15. I am a caffeine-freak. Though I have not and will not take caffeine pills. I've gotten sick more times from caffeine than alcohol, and probably over twice as much. 16. I find the human mind fascinating. 17. I've cut multiple times in the past as a hidden coping mechanism using sterilized shaving razors. 18. I believe one should judge their art and themselves, but along with this, create content to their heart's content. 19. I'm a gamer and a geek. 20. I will not play any game I have to pay monthly to pay, just preference. I admit I have tried Final Fantasy Online. 21. Earlier this year I've made it an effort to be a warmer, more loving person. 22. I enjoy helping people. 23. I would rather work under-the-table than for a business. If unable to work under-the-table, I would rather work for a small business than a larger business. The only exception would be art and entertainment. 24. I love the idea of Market Anarchy. Where people handle their communities peacefully without government, and competition keeps the market fair. 25. I love the spontaneous order of nature. Flocks of birds in particular, inspire me. 26. I don't care much for amusement parks or rides. Most roller-coasters make me sick. 27. I dislike the notion that the Goth scene consists of people who think they are supreme individuals. There are prevailing patterns of fashion in every culture. Every person is an individual, a "snowflake." 28. I used to be ridiculously good at the second Donkey Konga from practicing it like crazy. I got gold medals on all songs on all difficulties in the second Donkey Konga except for the very last, most difficult song; I want them to make more. 29. I want to see ridiculously well-done F-Zero and Zelda games for the Wii. 30. I dropped out after the first semester of High School my senior year. I spent most of the year messing with FL Studio and I've made over twenty songs with that software, the rest are lost. 31. I now use Cakewalk Sonar. 32. My biggest music fascination right now is bent around folk. I feel it gives me a kind of union with the country surrounded by fields and woods I've grown up in. 33. I'm not a great singer, but a proud baritone. 34. I'm a virgin. 35. I have a G.E.D. but it means little to me. 36. I barely talk to my father. 37. I live with my parents and I'm not ashamed of it. 38. I used to be a Baptist Christian, now I am aligned between Atheist and General-Agnostic. 39. I'm single, maybe terminally, maybe not. 40. All of what I've written is true, but also laughable.

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