Scales

Ah ha! *borat voice* Very nice.

Siouxie and the Banshees - Cities in the Dust (..and pretty much trance and 80's.)

Your continuing this drama in your life by giving into anger and going against your own moral judgment. Now that this text is legible so I can write a legible reply to it, I would say keep your distance from these people if necessary, judge their actions very sternly, but don't judge them lovelessly or you'll create more pain.

Tasers and related homicide are illegal in MI for civilians so I officially believe Stormknight to be an outlaw.

Summary: *Caffeine, Donkey Kong 2, and D.I.Y.*

I'm releasing a Literary Nonsense, Gothic, Humanist, Fantasy novel called 'Vibrant Night' which entirely takes place in Michigan. I've been working on this book since 2008 which after a lot of deliberation, I've decided to release for free on the internet before publishing. The book will remain free after publishing so buying a hard copy will be a voluntary thing. I plan on doing this method with all of my novels. However I do need to hype Vibrant Night up and get fans and comments since it gives me more inspiration to write and revise. So please send the page to anyone who is interested, and here's the link to what chapters are up: Vibrant Night Thanks for reading.

Alright I wasn't positive about everything that got played. It does suck that nobody has warmed up to them.

If I was to go to a goth club laws may force me to buy and try snus, back on topic, I'd want dark or strange music in general. I liked the Deadline and Something Cold playlists, though there's probably stuff there I would and wouldn't like-- and a ton there I haven't heard. Though I dislike a lot of Industrial I'm not against it and could probably find stuff I'd like. Some alternative 90's rock for its copy-cat post-punk sound and emotion. I wouldn't mind a tiny bit of horrorcore, something serious sounding, no ICP. I like a good amount of post-punk and 'post-punk revival.' I'd like to hear local and independent artists who are genre-relevant to the club. There are multitudes of hard to find musical outfits but I will give some local, independent artist track suggestions with links; only one, the last group, is not on DGN as far as I know of. (I was going to put in Servitor Sanctum 7 but they all said demos so I skipped out on 'em fer now, and I can't find any of Rev's new stuff online yet.) To those not in here I was going for loud, potentially danceable stuff of whatever I could find. Der Nister - Deadly Game http://www.myspace.com/der_nister AnuAmun - Earth http://www.myspace.com/anuamun Trioxic - You Are Nothing http://www.myspace.com/trioxic Cybertrybe - White Rabbit (I really like this cover.) http://www.myspace.com/cybertrybe D:konstruct - Calling Out Your name http://www.myspace.com/dkonstruct2009 Artificial and Lethal (my stuff) - Tragedy and Harmony http://www.archive.org/details/ArtificialAndLethalTracks Siegemachine - Going Home http://www.myspace.com/siegemachine Great Lakes Myth Society - Across The Bridge (Melancholic-happy lyrics like The Cure, halfway its too beautiful to pass up.) http://www.myspace.com/greatlakesmythsociety As for making independent music more competitive with professionally mastered music: There are non-dancy artists who, if it was okay with, could have their stuff remixed more percussively by other artists for dancing; some of them only have mp3's, so I have no idea if that could work out quality-wise, but I take music 'seriously' in a strange way and I'm not as picky about it. There were these one DJ's who put distortion on old disco, so if the music wasn't loud enough and it was OK'd by the artist, the distortion method could be done in place of mastering. Or if the artist was okay with it, the tracks could get a quick, loud re-master. I know there are a lot of patrons who would sometimes be against local artists despite punk and goth roots being local artists. I think its biased to not give local artists plays, especially the patrons who are musicians. A lot of music is not danceable to the traditional club beat, though that doesn't mean there aren't independent dance tracks or tracks worth playing that one could find there own way of dancing to.

I looked so hard to find that thread but couldn't.

The way things are now it could've been sobriety and a bad diet which is kind of scary.

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Just finished this weird, amazingly titled, thing.. reflecting recent listening tastes: Artificial and Lethal - Darkhau5

I feel.. This page is 420? But that was last night?

Ditto. I could be considered a bit over-medicated, but right now I kind of like it, so I'll taper down when necessary. I just have very little anxiety, am more feisty and ditzy, and have an almost super-human openness I have to make decisions on.

This is a sad situation. I somewhat like the phrase that a "true spiritual master teaches for free," though I could see myself charging people fair fees as far as helping them with meditation if I felt qualified to do it. I study free text or videos online and will probably never pay to go to any guru. I think there is enough free media online for anyone dedicated to do whatever spiritual it is they're trying to do even if I'm partial to believing in it. I hope more people work independently or in independent groups towards spirituality or self-improvement. Charity should be where the bulk of "spiritual" money is going, and charity to needs a really cautious anti-dogmatic balance for it to be an achievement.

The Names - Life by the Sea

My current religious views are pretty much fixed in most popular terminology as Spiritual Atheist though I go with Atheist Mystic. Many wonderful emotions are mixed in with dreams and the dreaming experience, and I've never been so concerned with religious books as I am with those who experienced what inspired books like them. While I'll debate religious dogma.. I now think the debate over whether god exists or not is a non-dualistic one, whatever its solution, the elegance of it is enough for me not to debate it. However I do have a skeletal idea as to the possibility of god. I formulated an offshoot of Deism (a god exists, but doesn't intervene) that I think of as a philosophical theory, where basically the idea is something along the lines of a sleeping god (I think a fellow Atheist sarcastically referred to it saying "So God is an Atheist"). Similarly, when we go into dreamless sleep there is still is an intelligence, it exists, we are conscious in what we've deemed a subconscious sense. Noteworthy from a naturalist perspective, we have three empirical states of consciousness. Waking, dreaming, and sleeping. If consciousness is not directly based on the physical human mind, then its more logical that these states could continue after death then any religious textbook's opinion-- of course dreams take any form including the personalization of religion and general culture. Since afterlife belief is related to god, I'm more prone to believe in the more scientific, dreamless sleep death and personally can even see the elegance and union of it as another side-note. The sleeping god idea doesn't solve what caused the universe, though to me it does give more say that nothingness is more than just the accepted norm of the word "nothingness." I think form and space everywhere is far beyond human comprehension even though this is not a new concept: you have dark matter in science and enlightenment in spirituality-- which I'd slimly define as loving fulfillment with the moment and an impartial consciousness towards everything (both within cognitive possibility). The idea of nothingness being 'no-thingness' as its been put before, is at least worth stating out of how much the idea can be appreciated, awed at, or experienced with suspension of judgment and thought. My 0.02.

I was taking an indefinite break from here and some other places but I still have the same email to access this account so I felt like posting this. If this seems different from prior posts its because I've raised my klonopin dosages from 1 to 2 milligrams along with caffeine which I'm always drinking and its significantly made me more sociable. I don't club because it would mainly be to see other people which defeats the point somewhat with loud music, sometimes there is too much distance, lack of money, ect. However I am not a non-party type, and don't mind loud, big parties or small social gatherings-- I almost made it to the second Manfast but got lost for an hour which caused me to lose the war to sleep deprivation where it was getting too dangerous to drive, cars starting to seem dreamlike.. and I basically didn't make it the next day. All my fault for not planning ahead and looking at times or thinking of driving there early and sleeping. Anyways, recently a Russian nightclub fire killed over hundred people injuring more, the owners are in big trouble. (History repeats itself.) http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20091205/ap_on_re_eu/eu_russia_nightclub_fire I've only been to the Leland once and it needs more than a good cleaning. From what I've read and heard about the Leland it seems like a dangerous place where a fire or a sudden structural problem could be a big problem to say the least. Paranoia or reality, I have no want to go to CC again in its current condition, and hope the building and everyone in it stays safe. On a note of musical improvement to clubs, I think dark independent artists and dark old-school music doesn't get enough DJ play in goth clubs. Though this is probably also on account of patrons not giving dark independent and dark old-school music a chance. I'm close to Necto but don't have much ambition to go there, its women with egos I don't want to keep up with, popular Ebm/Industrial music I'm not hugely into which drowns out the possibility of conversation, and alcohol/tobacco which I can get anywhere for cheaper. I'm straight, but like with most clubs, there is not much there for me. If I am to dress how I want to its for the sole purpose of myself because it is more 'me,' on another note this does not to me, constitute any great value of material in general. If slimmed way down, which is the usual, I'm dressing for my safety against dogmatic conservatism in culture, the prolonged mental effects of being hounded or abused for looking too different, and my not ending up or putting someone in a hospital out of trivial misunderstanding. We're a society of cultured fools, followed by human beings. Last off, I think the future of "warm season" nightlife should more easily, *legally* exist outside in designated streets and/or parking lots obviously with organizers, vendors, and enough security. I'm guessing there's unnecessary legalities or payments for large, outside celebrations which has stopped them from happening more frequently and which can hopefully be reformed someday. Those are just my thoughts on the subject, I don't post in threads like this more than once since I've made my full, sharpened point.

Mellow and melancholic.

I wasn't sure how to answer this so I guess with more of a summary. After being enculturated, I was a timid, Baptist Christian. Now I've partly become a dark-clad, anti-dogmatic, critical-thinking mystic: much more weathered and much more passionate. I would say I'm still just Charles though the name is detached from me. I also think of my identity in no difference from anyone else, as the unnameable moment itself, since I think nothing is excluded from being identified with the moment.

Moon Child by M83

Yeah I can't even 100% say that I'm a former cutter. If my coping mechanisms managed to fail its a better choice to me, done sterile, than anything worse. I haven't cut in months and the usual secrecy of it is something I deal with, but don't completely care about; I'm sure I think, some of my loved ones know or have seen scars on me. I feel for all the people who are stuck in that rut though too. That's good, not to cause any conflict about it. I didn't participate in it and totally forgot about it, but one of my coping mechanisms is purposefully forgetting. Like I've said before I can't deny that TWLOHA is basically good and has helped people. I hope that it gives him a greater sense of meaning.

Normally I keep close relationships with a handful of people and am extremely introverted towards the bulk of people; I think anxiety in general has negatively affect me. However I'm more sociable lately since I'm on medicine for it, its worth the immunity to panic attacks and having less anxiety. I think it is also an identity thing, if you take on an identity to become something more, then you can sometimes step into that and make it work. Though I also think ultimate identity is beyond words.