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still all fucked up and pissed off.. just itching for an excuse to beat the shit out of someone

"Evil in the Brain" by Blood for Blood people’s faces look so twisted to me now i'm older and my mind is set i'm moving like a guided missile haven't reached my target yet i'm loaded with anger and adrenaline get so raged and mad sometimes i forget where i've been my thoughts get cluttered i'm confused that causes a shortening of my already burning fuse been cheated on a chance to lead a normal life everything i've ever done has always ended in strife in the night, the night always brings the pain i feel so dirty, my hands, my hands are stained can't see eye to eye with anyone, my mind is set and done you can't argue with a loaded gun Sometimes, i feel i’m going insane with all these sick thoughts in my head i'm going evil in the brain i lack any type of common sense 'cause i always want to solve all my problems with my fists and violence i’m losing control evil in the brain kindness or hatred, i can't tell the difference evil in the brain i want to give fear to the world evil in the brain you can't reason with a lunatic of evil evil in the brain are the only words i can use to describe what i saw, how i grew and what i didn't want to know i see the world die and not last long enough to see the blood dry i'll die! smirking and laughing as long as i get my goals in sight that's right, it's end is what I wish for every night and the world is going to hell in a hand basket all I want to do is fill it's casket i think I’m going insane i'm losing the cancerous tumor in my head I call a brain i'm losing control evil in the brain kindness or hatred, i can't tell the difference evil in the brain i wanna give fear to the world evil in the brain you can't reason with a lunatic of evil evil in the brain sick ideas seem so normal inside my brewing hate but in everyday life i'm totally abnormal all i see is red i was misled i wish i was dead instead of having being bled and now it's me against the world right or wrong, i haven't changed this long because my madness is that strong but in the end the world will pay i won't be held responsible there's never been another way i think i’m going insane i'm losing the cancerous tumor in my head i call a brain i think i’m going insane i've lost it i'm going evil in the brain no pity for the suffering of the world 'cause my mind is fucked and my heart is cold look at my face, there's no grace and i'm laced with disgust for the entire human race my mind is a fury traumatized by all their shit and lies broken promises and endless hatred for the world, it dies! a recipe for madness in a sick cold world i can't go on with these cards I've been dealt i'll just fold evil in the brain evil in the brain

I feel the overwhelming apathy and depression going out of control inside me once again.. it hasn't been anywhere near this bad since 5 years ago... I know what's coming in this, I know what emotional path i face.. and I don't think i even have the stregnth to go through it this time, not out here, not like this. I feel starved, suffocated, desprate, and the pain is relentless in this slow twisted path back into insanity... i'm reminded yet again why i'm usually a dick to most people and rarely let anyone in.. because it always seems the ones that i so carefully choose to entrust with my heart, stab it in the coldest way possible.. I don't know if I can make it through this now.. or better worded, I don't know if i should even bother trying to make it through this...

right now, this song not only describes me trying to be strong and staying away from my ex instead of being weak and going back to her.. but it better explains just exactly how my soul is dying from all this. Chimaira - "Nothing Remains" I shout these words to those who never listened I pen this letter with the utmost conviction It's been dark in here, cold and relentless It's been too long, I can no longer fight this Too late to change my mind Nothing remains I've silenced the pain All these years passed No one heard true feelings You continued to act like you knew me Did you ever stop to think that I'd be able To look in your eyes and say that I'm stable? Too late to change my mind Nothing remains I've silenced the pain Don't tell me, that I am taking the easy way out Don't tell me, that I am taking the easy way out No No underlying message to figure out What you got from me is what I put out What you got from me is what I put out No one knew a thing about me Just longing to be accepted Wait till you see what I've become My lifelessness My lifelessness Too late to change my mind Nothing remains I've silenced the pain

Holy shit.. this WAS me and my girl's song before we broke up for her hooking back up with her ex behind my back. I'm stuck in iraq, and this is what happens... she just started dating him and wouldn't respond to my messages or answer her phone for a week. then i pick call last night, and it's her "boyfriend" who answered... so yeah.. this song still makes me cry.. but now for a whole new reason.

a better question is.. what WOULDN'T i do with the one above me... giggity giggity goo!!!!

heh.. i wonder the same thing.. also what seems to be an unreasonable requirement is honesty and faithfulness. It seems no one has this anymore. And if they do, they're already taken.

is turned on and nausiated at the same time by this...