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Having to do advanced calculus to figure out how it's physically possible for feral kid to get a red onion from the pantry and clog the toilet with it in under 5 seconds.

Dug myself out of a mess finally. Back to being a dry boring asshole. Right in my comfort zone. Looking at my annual progress in a number of things. Mental health has been progressing quite nicely. Still have some ups, downs, and potato moments, but my head doesn't feel like a shaken can of pissed off wasps like it did at the start of the year. Financially? I exceeded my goals for investing, have next year's goals mapped out. And since I'm stupid close to my savings goal (I am $1,700 shy.. the literal dollar amount it cost to have my car fixed..) I'm going to let the majority of my tax money sit in my vanguard account and collect that 5.3% APY for shits and giggles. 2024's theme is going to be ALL about passive income.

Too late, ghost ball had the best oral of it's afterlife. I'm a paranormal whore now.

Just cut my hair, trimmed my hobo beard, etc. to look clean cut and professional. Attempted to take a professional pic for a LinkedIn profile, but started eating light orbs instead. I might need help with this.

At work and dealing with car troubles. Had to Uber to daycare and work. Will have to Uber back home. Got it towed and at the shop at least. Now we wait. Strongly considering trading this car in.

*grabs popcorn and 3D glasses* oooh a show is about to start and I'm not the main attraction for once!

That I've gotten myself into a fine mess of things. I've stumbled into having 3 unofficial girlfriends.. it all happened last night. All 3 started texting me going into detailed intent with me. And I was stoned so it all sounded hot as fuck so I went a long with it. Sigh. My dumbass has to sort this out now.

Feeling like instead of a crash landing every Friday, I feel like I can glide back into the runway this Friday. It was a HARD fucking week this week, but it's all but ended and zero damage, but the storm I had to pilot through this week. Holy Christ launching potatoes out of his ass... It was brutal.

Coffee and cigarettes. Yes, eating. Don't argue with me. Omnomnomnom!

Feeling dread and hope at the same time. Life has led me to making a few good friends in England. One is starting to unintentionally have my feelings crossing lines. She lives stupid close to where my wife's family lives no less. I feel these feelings, but don't know if I'm quite ready to feel them yet. I want to keep these bottles up for now and just enjoy her company as friends still. Why is it always England though... My god.

A lot to think about. Re-evaluating this ETF before I decide to start a position and build it up for 2024. Trying to be very cautious of a yield trap. It's a fairly new one so I don't have much chart analysis to go by. But despite what the market is doing, it seems to be holding pretty stable ground.

Doing research for skilled labor that can get me British Citizenship. I'm fairly certain my company is going belly up so unless something else bites, I'll be on unemployment making the most of that time taking classes for a preferred job. Just the waiting part until that happens...

I mean that's the most possible outcome. I think his name can't be on the ballot in Minnesota, or Montana, or one of them fucking states. It's starting to crumble before his very eyes. More states will probably follow suit. For today though, I found this image that seems to emulate his emotional stability during his testimony rather comically accurately.

Really uncertain about where my company is headed. Thinking it's time to brush up my resume and have it active on Indeed again. Also thinking unemployment might not be a bad idea. It will give me time to keep up with the house better, get things done that have been put on hold forever now, and seek any classes or training that could land me a better paying job. The thing life never seems to fucking learn about me is when it hits me, I get right the fuck back up and hit back harder. But this time, I'm staying on my feet and will have counter punches at the ready.

Taking advantage of a golden opportunity. Several fairly large crows were in the yard where my balcony overlooks. I made sure they noticed me before throwing some food down for them. I'm about to be a part of a murder if all goes well.

Feels just did a 180 today. My job just let go of 20 or so people today. I was not one of them, but instead of high motivation for 2024, I'm feeling anxiety. There's always unemployment, and maybe under the table type work, and my savings if things get really rough. But fuck man.. 2024 was the year my stocks were going to absolutely soar if I could keep throwing down every month. Still hoping, but fucking scared.

$20 says he'll have a heart attack before 2024 😏

Crunching numbers for this week's budget. Payday was horrid on account my trip wasn't a paid vacation. It's doable, but got a lot of sacrifices if I don't want to dip into my savings. It's gonna be a long week until next payday.

If his behaviour is any indicator, this is very telling he is boxed in, cornered, and fucked harder than a Detroit hooker. It *might* have something to do with his kids having to testify this week (one has to testify today even) Grab your popcorn.

About to head to work. Last night didn't phase the kids much (snow during trick or treating) but it's kicked my ass and I'm feeling it this morning. I would normally call off, but the last of my Motrin is at work so... Yeah.. gotta get to work lol.

I haven't carved one since I was a young teen. A quick glance on Google images for ideas, and a lot of indica gave me the patience to get meticulously detailed. I don't know if I can do something like this next year. Who all has carved this year? Show em!

Renewed and rejuvenated. That trip to England really brought in some unknown closure for everyone. My wife's family, and my own emotional wells have been refilled. Kids immediately bonded as if they have always known them. Dark clouds that couldn't be shaken off no matter what length I went through are finally gone. Not saying everything is happy now. Her absence is still missed by all of us. But this trip really did set things right for all of us.

My wife's family hasn't just made this day, but this whole trip has been absolutely amazing. Like I get an actual sense of what a family is supposed to be like and I'm an actual part of one, same with my kids. The bonding has been unreal. I'm so thankful all over again for the time I did have with my wife, and the impact and influence she had on all of us, even after her passing, I still get senses her hand is guiding me in life.

It's past politics and more about basic human rights/decency, which at every turn Trump (and his followers) has shown he has zero consideration for any of that. Taking away human rights and freedoms based on prejudice beliefs isn't politics to me. Calling it a differing political opinion for those sort of beliefs is just a cheap cop out in a poor attempt to justify how they're a shitty personal. And yeah, Facebook shouldn't matter, but they got it set up that makes you upset when you lose friends. It's annoying, but remind yourself you can live with annoying. Quality over quantity, and it's the trash taking it's self out for you. Hope that helps as another way of thinking about it.

Going to buy pumpkins last minute as I return shortly before Halloween. Kids are still young yet so it will be a short bout of trick or treat, but wanting a more homebound type of event. Less candy but more snacks, and maybe some "forbidden" horror movie. Haven't figured out the movie yet.