ManicQueen

I can't get warm.. some cuddles would be perfect right now.

Still sick :(

I already went tanning today so I have nothing else to do except maybe chat with some friends.

I am thinking that my Master, Corey, needs to join this site.. what fun we can have here.

I feel like I'm back in 6th grade. I've been hanging around the most annoying boy fron 6th grade. It's funny how life happens.. I am beyond pleased with the way things are going.

I feel betrayed yet again. I lost my brother a month ago and now my mother has all kinds of nice things to say about me.. I mean my own mother!?! WTF is how I feel.

I feel ok considering everything that has happened. Nothing but happy ponies and rainbows from here on out!

Hollywood Undead - Paradise Lost So watch my chest heave as this last breath leaves me I am trying to be what you're dying to see I feel like "Fuck man, can't take this, anymore, this heart, break this." This is life that's so thankless, How could he just forsake us? racist he makes us hate us he gave us nothing but no trust and I am so fucked up So let this gun bind us.. Lets hide by this lust and once we are just dust he'll know that he loved us LET IT ALL BURN I will burn first God I've tried, am I lost in your eyes? Just let me burn, it's what I deserve. God I've lied, am I lost in your eyes? So take me and make me.. weakened and save me This hate that you gave me.. keeps saying the same thing to sing when you hurt to sing when you cry to sing when you live and to sing when you die And here at the end at the end of the hurt all the pain ain't the same.. when it's your turn to burn We're the heart for the heartless, the thoughts for the thoughtless, the eyes for the eyeless, we're the gods of the Godless! Let it all burn I will burn first God I've tried, am I lost in your eyes? Just let me burn It's what I deserve God I've lied, am I lost in your eyes? So cry 3 tears for me, burning so good, sing me this song So cry 3 tears for me, burning so good, burning so good I can not stand who i am I'm this man with this blood on my hands in this blood I am damned so watch my wings burn as they burn in the fire I'll scatter the ashes no need for the choir Let it all burn, I will burn first God I've tried, am I lost in your eyes? Just let me burn it's what I deserve, God I've lied, am I lost in your eyes? This hate that you gave me keeps saying Just let me burn, Just let me burn This hate that you gave me keeps saying Just let me burn, Just let me burn Burn NOW Burn Just let me burn NOW Burn BURN!t

Completely bored.. sitting in my hotel room.

Like I am over drama.. I wantz none in my life. And that I had a good discussion with Raev *hugs* my dear... you put me back in a good mood!

I cant even go back in there right now. I remember the look of his face.. it seemed so peaceful and I don't wanna ruin it. I'm almost afraid to go back in there..

Going back into the hospital room, only to watch him pass away..

* I didn't even get to say goodbye or that he was the only man I looked up too*

not good...

Drag my ass back up to the hospital.

I feel like I'm slowly losing it today.. Back in mid July my brother and I went through something EXTREMELY traumatizing to the both of us and it completely turned ours life's upside down. We both are emotionally fucked over this right now and I, myself, suffer from PTSD and I'm almost certain he does as well, though he won't admit to it. I now know why I haven't slept that much in over a month, why my anxiety is at it's worst right now and why I've been having these horrible flashbacks a million times a day. So I guess I feel some relief knowing what's been going on with me and that there's something I can do about it but until then I still feel like it will never end. /sigh

Driving back and forth to the hospital all day yesterday and then again today.. I'm mentally/physically exhausted..

Huge Mediterranean olives stuffed with bleu cheese = Epic Win!

Like I have been at the hospital all night.. kinda sad, numb, mad...

Kinda hungry.. must drink more water! Ready for the gym in an hour.

Gotta run up to school and pickup some books.

Uhg.. I need to get on a regular sleeping schedule.. so tired.