Homicidalheathen

I discovered a new band from the stones discussion thats one of the best things about this site

thinking some females MUST find this attractive...

Find a nar a non sponsor Personally go to ACOA meetings as my problems (according to my therapist) yes I saw one for awhile...big deal... suggested it was a better group for me... try them all...AA has lots of off shoots Just talking with peoole who still stuggle with wanting to just GO OUT AND DO IT after oh say 10-20 yrs....sheds so much light on it...it makes it easier to not do it seeing how others still struggle with it. Your going to want it. Until you have quit long enough to have an AVERSION to it then you will HATE users and thats a good thing, its your self defense mechanism at work. You'll see lines at a party and walk out...not go partake... Its only one meeting a week and a sponsors number in case you feel weak during the week. Its only about an hour or two long and it helps SO MUCH they don't let you just sit and piss and moan either. Its about finding solutions and getting past the blocks. http://nar-anon.org/michigan.htm I had slipped up a few x since I quit but always come back to them and they always set me straight. This lady I know is losing everything because of her addiction...her kid will be next no doubt when they find out she is pawning everything for it...as she is on welfare... I tell ya what. The most important thing to me is how my kids see me. I don't want them to hate me...and am sure you don't either. Just doing it once in a while leads to all the time if your an addictive personality like me. Hell I get addicted to even non substances. I kinda suck about that. I try to be strong and do yoga and meditate but when My life sux I reach for chocostarbucks.

freez-fre-freeaz- freezing me a-arse off can you tell I am shivering? I hate going out into the cold. Every broken bone I ever had aches and of that, there are MANY

being pissed My time matters I hate last minute cancellations like I am some frickin after thought or something guess I am lucky she called at all...as sometimes they JUST DONT do anything and leave ya hangin'

hang in there sweets. I used to be a meth addict...and believe me, I wanted to just say fuck it and snort a few x while raising twins

I hate it when I entrust a true friend with my celly # and they give it out to some loser frickin weirdo DONT DO THAT!!! he wont stop texting me! I no likey!

don't forget the invisable heathen I has a stalker so I hide Oh and btw peeps please don't give out my number, thanks.

wait till the arthritis sets in... yup sure beats alcohol

backups arrive

fear factory "Escape Confusion" Escape, escape Escape confusion Escape animosity [X2] From morality A morbid animosity Addicted to the epidemic That deteriorates progression Escape confusion Escape animosity Desperately washing away The gore that's hidden beneath the dismay Thoughts of eternal despair And self hate Escape confusion Escape animosity Terrorism within Dreams become reality Visions of hope Attempt to escape Attempt to escape Attempt to escape the sickness! Terror Dreams become reality Visions of hope Attempt to escape Attempt to escape Attempt to escape the sickness

sooo relieved I didn't go to that party on Saturday as Mr i know everything but am a total asshole perv showed up...following instincts is paying off big time

Pew Q: What do you get if you divide the cirucmference of a jack-o-lantern by its diameter? A: Pumpkin Pi!

like taking up someones offer of goin to FLA. seriously...

one day for the waterpark alone

all I am saying is its almost impossible to quit, not totally impossible...but REAL HARD if your still around it she lives with a guy and is using...? He is prob using to or at least ok with it which makes me wonder about his motives...intentions... And what coke does in the womb is as bad as alcohol, they both cross the placenta wall EASY

may the force be with you. May it come from your wonderful GLOWING SABER and not a can of beans.

letdown, disillusioned...disenchanted... oh don't forget appaulled at the gaul hey that makes a good line for a song but I has to deal with her anyway so I have to get over it and move on

alcohol is a drug, and the only one that will kill you if your addicted bad and quit cold turkey (hence why I am not around much anymore peeps...to quit is to stay away from it) aa or Nar a non they work (sorry pomba but they do)

Dont worry be happy (I went through the same thing at age 24) Everything worked out ok

Have raised two kids...well 3. Never did drugs till they were like 14? until they were old enough to know better and it was engrained in their minds that includes no smoking or drinking of any kind I hid it from them when I did start partying again for awhile... my parents were abusive alcoholics my mom a stay at home mom, depressed and abusive and ALWAYS DRUNK puking....it was soo nasty. I hated her. My dad...lets not even go into it. I just didn't want that for them. Thinking my partying AT ALL with them knowing was bad at this point as one is a under achiever now with a penchant for goth clubs and drinking all the sudden. She quit school ect...ect...she comes to me one day and says she has rockstar dreams (we tried this already at age 15) And understands why I like the clubs and partying now. Oh great, wonderful. But she says she won't stick me with the student loan bill. Just stop for their sake, they did not ask for this. Its only till they grow up...and keep it private.

cute video

waiting for vewy important call

I don't have one anymore