LadyKay

I grew up in a small town. Where everyone knew everyone. I can remember running free through my neighborhood. I walked to the park with out an adult to go swimming with my friends. I ran the neighborhood on my bike and as long as I was home before dark, all was fine. All my parents ever knew was I was in the neighborhood somewhere or playing at the park. Now that I have a daughter, I can not imagine allowing her this freedom. I hate letting her outside alone. And when I do she is only allowed across the complex parking lot to her friend's house. And even then I am checking out the window to make sure I can still see her every so often. I kind of feel bad that I can not give her the freedom I had. Cause it was great to grow up that way. But I do sometimes remember stuff that happen and wonder how I managed to live to adulthood. Sometimes I think I am being over protective. But I can't help it. It is just how things are now days.

You all have been so kind to me that I really feel I do not need any more gifts from you. I feel bad that I have been unable to give back to you. I will see what I can do about that. But for now, You all have been so good to me that I do not need anything more.

Yep. Did not see that coming. I don't want to say too much to give things way. I don't get to see it until Monday when I download it from itunes.

Late last night while I was laying in bed, I came to the realization that even if I had the power to go back in time; there is nothing that I could have done to stop what happen to me from happening. I am sure it is emotionally unhealthy. But all this time I have been thinking if only I could go back in time I would fix all of this. I would stop it. But now I see that is not true. Because none of it was my fault or my doing. And even if I went back in time it would all play out just as it did. Because I can not fix what I did not break. The things that happen were caused by the actions and choices that other people made. Not by me. For some reason coming to this realization makes me feel even more powerless then I did before. Maybe with time I can work through it.

They showed me a picture of it today. It's good for kids to have a house.

I know it is none of my business and I am happy for them. But I am curious how they did it, cause frankly I would like to do it too. My neighbors who get their kids clothes, school supplies, and food from the local Salvation Army bought a house. And I'm thinking "how did they buy a house?" When they need to go to the Salvation Army to get their clothes and food?" Yes yes none if my business I know. Still I can not help my curiosity.

I screamed "Oh My Gosh" through the whole thing! I don't have cable, so I have to wait until Monday to download it from Itunes.

Hi. I don't have anything to talk about right now but I'm still here. So I'm just checking in seeing how you all are.

"Lost" on netflix. I'm on season 3. Someone always needs rescued.

Update: http://www.norwalkreflector.com/Courts/2016/01/26/Accused-murdered-disqualified-from-insanity-plea.html They says he is not crazy !

Got em! They showed up this morning! Even went to the hardware store for the hoes and dryer vent hoes. WooT!

Found someone to help me out. More like they found me. Facebook friend messaged me asking if I got the washier to my place yet. Told her no. She made some phone calls and said they will be here on Saturday.

Got it worked out! I should have my washier& dryer by Saturday.

Thank you that is very nice of you but right now I am in Ohio. That maybe a little to far for you to drive. LOL It will be okay, going to the laundry mat for a little bit longer won't kill me.

Thanks for your input. I am think that rent center thing is not the way I want to go. There are rent a center trucks pulling in and out of the apartment complex where I live nearly every week. Roaches in a computer!

Okay I need some advice. I just got back from the laundry mat. Carrying three large loads of laundry. I am paying on the average around $16.00 to $20.00 a week to do my laundry. Most weeks it is $20.00. And still I end up bring home laundry that is not fully dry because the dryers don't dry all the way and I have to keep shoving money into them. I don't have the money to buy a new washer & dryer. I have found used ones for sale but have no way of picking them up and getting them to my place. I have even asked people and so far no one has been able to help me. I didn't want to go this rout, but I am considering getting a washer & dryer from a rent-center place. I looked at prices on the website and it looks like I would be paying basically what I pay every week to go to the laundry mat. But I know that these places over charge you for the wash & dryer, and that it would be a better deal to simply buy your own. But like I said I am unable to do that at this time. I also don't like the ideal of having another bill due every month and how much more is a wash & dryer going to add to my electric bill. But is is becoming more and more of a pain loading up laundry to take the the laundry mat every week. So I don't know. What do you guys think? Is a rent a center washer & dryer worth it? Or should I just tough it out until I can buy a set paid in full?

A family statement said: "The actor and director Alan Rickman has died from cancer at the age of 69. He was surrounded by family and friends." http://www.bbc.com/news/entertainment-arts-35313604 Good bye Professor Snape. You will be missed.

If I get woke up in the night by loud people, I lose all sense of fear and have been known to yell out the window at them to shut up! Then I realize how doing that could get me kill and I go and hide. But I have done that and once the guy apologized for waking me up. I am not a nice person if I get woke up. LOL

Sarcasm: I love people who lecture me about getting out of debt. People who say "you should be living within your means." People who tell you that you should go to a "get out of debt seminar where you can "learn" how to get yourself out of debt and live debt free forever. And how it worked for them and now their life is just wonderful. I wonder if these people realize that there is this thing called "lay offs" and jobs closings that happen to people. That you can attend all the "live debt free seminars" there are, but if you have lost your income; it won't do you a bit of good.

I'm living in kind of a poor area. My daughter plays with two neighbor kids who come over to my apartment from time to time. A few months ago they came over and told me they had lost their cable and could not afford the payments. They asked if they could look through my dvd collection and borrow a few of them. I said okay but told them I will not lead out Lord of The Ring's collection or Harry Potter. I also told them that they can get dvds from the library for free. They just looked at me funny when I said that. Anyway I let them borrow some dvds and they went on their way. A few days later they return the dvds and ask to borrow more. I said okay and so they did. Now it seems I have become their video store. Every few days they knock on the door, return the dvds and ask for new ones then leave. Last night at 9:30pm they boy who is 11 years old, knocked on my door and asked if he could use my internet to download games onto his laptop. I told him no and he went away. I am happy to help out someone in need but they are becoming a pest. They have shown up on weekends when I am trying to sleep knocking on the door asking to borrow dvds. I know I should just put a stop to it but I just don't and I don't know why. ( I don't believe this. Just as I am typing this they are knocking on my door. I'm not answering)

I really wish I could give you a hug. I know it wont solve anything but I just wish I could offer you some care.

I have chosen to follow the teachings of Christ. I try to anyway. I don't think I have any "mystic" concepts. Except I am sure I have seen fairies. But no one believes me when I tell them so I don't talk too much about it.

Oh dear I'm sorry! What happen? Well it's okay if you don't want to say. But Oh dear! I wish I could think of something better to say.

At the laundry mat!

On may way to the laundry mat this morning. I pulled into the parking lot behind it and my jeep just died. I could not get it started again. The laundry mat just so happens to be right next to a tow truck service place. I got out and walked over there and ask them if they take AAA. No, they don't. I was going to say the heck with it and just pay them for the tow. But I have been paying my AAA due fees for the past 3 years so I am going to use what I have been paying for. Went back to the jeep and called my husband's uncle who owns an auto repair shop. I told him what happen and he told me to have it tow to his shop and he will take a look at it for me. I called AAA and got their computer person asking me to please wait. Since I had to do the laundry, I just left the jeep were it was and carried my laundry inside the laundry mat while on hold with AAA. After I got the laundry inside AAA person came on and ask me what I needed. I told them my jeep died. Gave them some more info and they said they would send a tow truck out to help me. So I just started my laundry and about an hour later the tow truck guy showed up. He loaded up my poor jeep and I told him the shop to take it too. I finished up my laundry and then call my mother in law to come pick me up from the laundry mat. So that was my day today. No word on my jeep yet. At less it died in a parking lot and not in the middle of the street. I find it somewhat amusing that it died next to a tow truck place. Like it just knew it needed help. LOL I am trying not to be stressed out by all of this.