LadyKay

Hey all! I got my internet set up today. So I am back online. WooT!

Hey all I am here in my own place! WoooWhooo!

My middle name is Kay. I went to the Michigan renaissance festival and everyone there address me as "my lady". And since I am into the whole renaissance thing "LadyKay" just seem right for me.

Well, tomorrow is my big move. Well not real big as I do not have a lot of stuff. I want to keep my life simple. I don't think I need a lot of stuff. I hope my internet will work. I didn't get cable. I've not had it in years and I rather watch stuff online anyway cause I like to watch stuff when I want too. So I guess I'll talk to you guys later.

Where is the "relationships"? I need to post about my issues. I have issues you know. LOL (I am trying to be somewhat funny here)

I got the apartment! Really I did not think I would! But I did! I move in Jun 1 !

I am going forward with the apt. I have to stop by the complex today and fill out an application for a background check. Then on Monday or Tuesday I sign the lease. I am almost afraid to be happy about it. I worry something could go wrong and it does not happen. But last night I found myself dreaming about shopping for kitchen stuff. I have not told anyone except my husband what I am doing. In case something goes wrong.

No, I am not worry about him leaving. I worry about job down time. We have been through some really bad things. Really bad times with no money coming in. I worry about them times. Because once I leave here I am out. I can not come back.

I looked at a small 1 bedroom apt. today. The rent is cheep( under $500.00) I told the guy my credit was crap, but the guy said they don't look at credit they just run a back ground check on you. Nothing in my back ground so I am not worry about that. But right now I only have my husband's income to depend upon. Which is going good right now but with his line of work you never know. I am thinking about what to do. The amount of stress I am under living with my inlaws is unbearable. I am going to think about it tonight.

I bought my mother in law 2 mother days cards from me and one from my daughter. I had my daughter sign hers and I did mine then I put them on the kitchen table for her to find them. My mother in law found them and when my daughter and I got back from church, she seem very happy. She made us dinner without complaining about anything and gave my daughter a big hug and thank her for the card. She was nice and happy the rest of the day to us and this morning she did not yell at us even though my daughter was making a fuss about having her hair done. Interesting that a simply mother's day card could bring such peace to the household.

I've been working on someway to get out of here.

Last night I bought KFC for everyone. We ate what we wanted and put what was left over in the fridge. Even got a free cake with it. I paid for it myself and did not ask anyone for money. Just a few moments ago I got 2 pieces of chicken out of the fridge to eat and got harp on for eating 2 pieces of chicken. I am like well I am the one who bought it, I will eat 2 pieces of it if I want to! Then I get, you eat more then I do I don't eat that much. So I am like, well don't eat anything, but I bought the chicken I am going to eat as much as I want! It went on from there. This will be the last time I buy KFC for anyone but myself and my daughter.

My mother in law is stressing about getting her lawn mowed. I have been telling her I can do it. I can mow with a push mower no problem. Here is how the conversation went. Mother in law: I can't mow with the push mower it is too hard for me to push. Me: I can mow with it. I can mow with a push mower . Mother in law: Well your not going to be here forever. Me: Well I am here now and I can help mow. Mother in law: Yeah and I am going to start charging you rent and back rent too! I am trying to help her. (sigh) And by the way, I am not living here free and clear I do pay for the food. I want to help. I feel bad that I am here. So I want to help. But this is how the conversation goes when I say I can help.

Okay here it is. What if you were at someone's house and they offered to make dinner for you. You take them up on their offer and they go to the kitchen and start cooking stuff. So then when it is done you all sit down to eat. Then when your done eating ,and you get up from the table to help put the dirty dishes away; this person who offered to cook dinner for you says to you "I am going to stop cooking and you can just go out to eat somewhere if your hungry!" I mean what is a person to make of something like this? They offered to cook for you and now they are basically complaining because they cooked for you? I don't know what to say?

Yes! I made it through Easter without seeing a giant Easter bunny! I am safe now. I think?

If harping on my life was not enough for my mother in law, now she is harping on me about how I need to be saving money for my funeral. Telling me how much a funeral will cost and the price of a headstone. When I told her I did not care about such things. She said to me "well who is going to pay for it?" To which I said it will not be my problem because I will be dead. In all honesty I really do not care what is done to me after I die. I believe that my body is only a shall for my soul. Which will be with my God when I am gone from this world. So I am not going to worry about how to pay for my funeral and I see this as yet one more thing my mother in law can find to harp on me about.

Thinking about ordering pizza! Should I? I don't know?

A few years ago when I was going through a very dark time in my life, I came across a beautiful pair of black boots at the thrift store. And for that moment the darkness of my life lifted just a little. I loved them. I wore them everywhere. I would look at them and feel happy. Well time is the enemy. I have discover that my beloved black boots have a hole worn into them that can not be repair. I have been forced to replace them, but they are still sitting in the closet because I can not bring myself to toss them out. To me they are not just a pair of old black boots. But almost kind of like a dear friend that came into my life at just the time I needed them too.

Sometimes I think I am more Grunge then Goth. But I listen to both Grunge music and Goth, so maybe that makes me a GrungerGoth?

In case you don't know I am living with people or else I would be homeless. Anyway we have had arguments over food even though I am paying them money for the food but now I am buying my own. Now it seems they are made over the gas bill and I am no longer allowed to use the oven to cook my food. I asked to use the deep fryer for my egg rolls. They would not let use the deep fryer because egg rolls are chinese food and they are raciest here. Saying they do not know what is in egg rolls because it is chinese food and they don't want that in their deep fryer oil. I said it is just chicken. Don't matter. So I had to get a pot, put oil in it, and deep fry them on the stove. I have got to get a job and get out of here!

Okay here you go all updated: http://amzn.com/w/3W4BR1CM3FLLZ

Sometimes I get these crazy ideals like I wonder if I could become a lawyer?

I need to update my list. When I get to that I will repost.

Maybe you were right about the over qualified part. I am starting to understand why so many people in this little town are being busted for selling drugs. I am wondering who's butt I have to kiss to get hired around here? I am growing weary of rejections. But today I apply for a temp. customer service job with the hope that if they even bother to call me that it will go from temp to regular. (sigh)

So yesterday I had a job interview for a job at a car dealer ship. Today I got a call from the dealership asking me if I mind answering a few questions. They say I see you had an appointment yesterday at one of our dealerships, and would like to know how your service was and how you like your new car. I said well my appointment was for a job interview. Then she said "oh your appoint was for an interview and not to buy a car." Yep ! Okay thank you! LOL Now if they will only call me for the job that would be great. At less I know they have my contact number.