GothicRavenGoddess

As lonely as it is… choosing to stay single is still for the best, at least for now. Humans are so profoundly disappointing. And I have a child to worry about.

A lot of weight was lifted off my shoulders yesterday. It’s amazing what a knowledgeable and compassionate doctor can do. Just goes to show just how much ptsd I actually have surrounding medical neglect by past doctors. I’m overwhelmed by how sad I am at losing so much time to get my fertility issues figured out… and now it’s too late. But being believed goes a long way to begin healing both physically and mentally. basically I’m feeling quite a lot right now.

Full of anxiety and being a bit overly emotional about the conversation I’m having today with my medical team 😕

I really should have known better. Hope can be blinding. Feelings are stupid.

Rough. Several high pain days in a row. Coming down from the flare. Also a dr appointment coming soon to address the removal of the baby factory and it’s two employees. A necessary decision but one I hate and dread. 😕

Oh and the costume turned out amazingly! 💜

@Science_goth_Megan your dresses are so cute! ^_^

Very sad. I hate that something can both be for the best and also heartbreaking at the same time. Appointment I’ve been dreading is coming up next week. I just got the call reminder for it. This appointment is to discuss something life saving but also life altering. It’s a good thing I’m single, I guess. Makes it easier. Still sucks tho. The end of a very long and very sad fertility journey.

Accomplished! (I had to re-root the center part of my favorite wig…. Couldn’t figure out why it was shedding so much. It was how the center was rooted… poorly. So I’m working to fix it. Got the center foundation for the hair fixed and attached. All that’s left before I start rooting synthetic hair is to add some reinforcing stitches so it doesn’t pull apart at stress points. I was worried but now I know what to do so…) Also: Confident this will work out the way I need it to… ♥️

Only one reaction a day is kinda silly lol

Oh gosh y’all. If you ever see me at an event, please please butt in to whatever covo I’m having. I love meeting, re-meeting, and catching up. Plus I have severe ADD yall… I hyperfocus super easily so please please get my attention! I promise I won’t be mad and of course! Hugs are welcome ♥️ oh gosh y’all. The event was so fun. I can’t get on the dance floor and move like I use to. But seeing so many people on it was a bit heartwarming honestly. I look forward to whatever get togethers there may be in the future ♥️ I’m so far out tho idk when I’ll be able to next attend anything. But yanno… I look forward to it.

😂🤣 dork lol

Awww! Next time butt in! Hopefully there will be a next time lol 🫂🫂

@Scary GuyRick Rolled us… brat

Thank you, everyone, who approached me and said hello tonight. Thank you for making my very first social gathering in a very long time, memorable and amazing ♥️

Accomplished! ♥️🖤Tonight was so fun!

thank you both!! ♥️♥️♥️

I’m feeling a bit antsy. This is my first MAJOR outing in… idk how long. Usually it’s just dr appointments. This is so much bigger than that lol I’m looking forward to it but still antsy. Especially since this is my first legit social gathering since having to shave my head. I will be wearing a wig but still…

The hooded capelet I finished. I will get better pictures of it later but I finally finished it!

About to read some fanfiction and go to sleep… busy day tomorrow. I still have tons to do before Friday.

I legit love that thank you 🙏