GothicRavenGoddess

I am so psyched! I just got my first tatoo today! and not a girly, pussy, tiny tattoo, either LOL Even the artist commented that it was big for a first tattoo. My daddy would be proud... I feel like I'll be posting pics of it as soon as I edit them. :

lack of sleep is making me feel like:

"you know what's awesome about this thing? I could wear it over a long really pretty nighty, and it would work. I love versatility in a garment...."

I am sitting here, eating apple sauce, feenan for a cigarette, and gloating over the fact that I am almost done with the over-dress I am making to wear on the 27th.... its gonna be fantabulous... LOL

Questions arise over how kidnapper went undetected ANTIOCH, Calif. – His neighbors knew he was a registered sex offender. Kids on his block called him "Creepy Phil" and kept their distance. Parole agents and local law enforcement regularly visited his home and found nothing unusual, even after a neighbor complained children were living in a complex of tents in his backyard. For 18 years, Phillip Garrido managed to elude detection as he pulled off what authorities are calling an unfathomable crime, kidnapping and raping 11-year-old Jaycee Dugard, keeping her as his secret captive for nearly two decades and fathering two of her children. The question about how he went unnoticed became more pressing Friday when Garrido came under suspicion in the unsolved murders of several prostitutes, raising the prospect he was a serial killer as well. Several of the murdered women's bodies — the exact number is not known — were dumped near an industrial park where Garrido worked during the 1990s. Authorities acknowledged that they blew a chance three years ago to rescue Dugard from the backyard labyrinth of sheds, tents and outbuildings that were concealed from the outside world. A neighbor called 911 in November 2006 and described Garrido as a psychotic sex addict who was living with children and had people staying in tents in his backyard. The investigating officer spent a half-hour interviewing Garrido on his front porch but did not enter the house or search the backyard, Contra Costa County Sheriff Warren E. Rupf said. The deputy, who did not know Garrido was a registered sex offender even though the sheriff's department had the information, warned Garrido that the tents could be a code violation before leaving. "We missed an opportunity to bring earlier closure to this situation," Rupf acknowledged. "I cannot change the course of events but we are beating ourselves up over this and continue to do so." "We should have been more inquisitive, more curious and turned over a rock or two." It was not the only missed opportunity. As a parolee, Garrido wore a GPS-linked ankle bracelet that tracked his every movement, met with his parole agent several times each month and was subject to routine surprise home visits and random drug and alcohol tests, California Department of Corrections and Rehabilitation spokesman Gordon Hinkle said. The last unannounced visit by a team of local police agencies was conducted in July 2008. Paramedics also were summoned to the house five times since 1999, presumably to help Garrido's 88-year-old mother, who had dementia. "There was never any indication to my knowledge that there was any sign of children living there," Hinkle said. As it turns out, Dugard and her two children were living there as prisoners, authorities say. The heavily wooded compound was arranged so that people could not view what was happening, and one of the buildings was sound-proofed and could only be opened from the outside. Neighbors knew there were children living there. Damon Robinson has lived next door to the Garridos for more than three years and his then-girlfriend in 2006 told him she saw tents in the backyard and children. "I told her to call police. I told her to call right away," he said. Dugard, now 29, was reunited with her family and said to be in good health, but feeling guilty about developing a bond with Garrido over the years. Her two children, 11 and 15, remained with her. "Jaycee has strong feelings with this guy. She really feels it's almost like a marriage," said Dugard's stepfather Carl Probyn, who was there when little Jaycee was snatched from a bus stop in 1991. Probyn has been in constant contact with Dugard's mother, his ex-wife Terry Probyn, since she found out her daughter was alive on Wednesday. Probyn said both mother and daughter are trying to avoid the public eye for now. After not seeing each other for 18 years, Dugard greeted her mother by saying, "Hi, mom, I have babies," according to Probyn. Dugard had her two daughters with her at the reunion, and it appears she never told them she was kidnapped by their father, he said. The authorities say they do not yet know whether she ever tried to escape or to alert anyone of her whereabouts, but she had chances to escape Garrido, who did a stint behind bars during the period of captivity. Garrido and his wife pleaded not guilty Friday to a total of 29 counts, including forcible abduction, rape and false imprisonment. Phillip Garrido appeared stoic and unresponsive during the brief arraignment hearing. His wife cried and put her head in her hands several times. Garrido gave a rambling, sometimes incoherent phone interview to KCRA-TV from the county jail Thursday in which he said he had not admitted to a kidnapping and that he had turned his life around since the birth of his first daughter 15 years ago. He told the television station that he walked into the FBI's San Francisco office on Monday with Dugard's daughters and dropped off several documents containing rambling passages about religion, sexual compulsion and mind control. FBI spokesman Joseph Schadler confirmed Garrido left the documents with the agency, but declined to discuss any further details. Garrido was required to register as a sex offender because he was convicted in 1977 of kidnapping a 25-year-old woman from parking lot in South Lake Tahoe, the same town Jaycee Dugard lived in when she was snatched from a school bus stop. In the case Garrido took the woman across the state line into Nevada, where he raped her in a mini-warehouse in Reno that had been furnished with rugs, pornographic magazines and sex toys, according to prosecutors and news accounts from the time. Gail Powell, spokeswoman for the Nevada Department of Public Safety, said Garrido met his wife while he was serving time for the rape at the federal penitentiary in Leavenworth, Kan. He served about 10 years of a 50-year federal sentence for kidnapping, and less than a year for a concurrent Nevada sentence of five years to life in prison for sexual assault. He was paroled in 1988, said Nevada Department of Corrections spokeswoman Suzanne Pardee. A violation of Garrido's parole conditions sent him back to federal prison from April to August of 1993. Dick Carelli, spokesman for the federal Office of Court Administration, did not know what Garrido did to violate parole. Authorities are trying to piece together how and by whom Dugard was held during Garrido's four-month absence. Hinkle said the alarm raised by the neighbor who contacted the sheriff's department never were relayed to Garrido's parole agent. But there was no ban on him having contact with children, nor restrictions on his travels. Hinkle said Garrido's parole agent was shocked Tuesday when University of California, Berkeley, police told him that the man he had been monitoring for years had been seen with two small children. The agent, whom officials refused to name or make available for interviews, called Garrido into his office the next day. Garrido arrived with his wife, the children and a woman who initially identified herself as Allissa. She turned out to be Dugard and investigators said Garrido confessed to the kidnapping. Monica Adams, 33, whose mother lives on their street, said she knew Phillip Garrido was a sex offender and that he had children living with him. Other neighbors knew, too, but they assumed police were keeping tabs on him. "He never bothered any one, he kept to himself," Adams said. "What would we have done? You just watch your own." Probyn said he was frustrated to find out that a car matching the description of the one he saw speeding Dugard away in the day she was kidnapped was found in the yard of Garrido's home. Nancy Garrido also fits the "dead-on" description he gave of the woman who pulled her into the car, he said. "He had every break in the world," Probyn said of Garrido's close encounters with the law. ___ Associated Press Writers Don Thompson in Sacramento, Terence Chea in Berkeley, Paul Elias in San Francisco, Juliet Williams in Placerville and Michelle Rindels in Orange, Calif., contributed to this story.

This was the worst day to be an empath. Even reading your words and writing the ones I am writing now, brings me to tears. Feeling the pain of the ones left behind, as well as those that were injured or killed, and knowing that the country would never be the same afterwords, is hard to handle. To everyone who tried to save a life that day, and the countless others who tried to help find everyone that was lost. To the countless shops and venues that closed their doors so that their buildings could be used as stations for identifying the dead. To all the people who have since died, because of health issues because of the dust and the rubble... To those that helped to clear the debris, to those that helped to escort the injured out of harms way... and to all the people who carry on.. Thank you! http://www.youtube.c...h?v=8XsX3HE_a7g

Honey Bunches of Oats "Just Bunches" isn't all that great, without the flakes... it feels like its empty..... I'm not sure this was a good idea, nor if I really like it all that much...

That's awesome, Jynxxxy!

he already has a person to book the bands, he just needs local suggestions of bands people would like to see, that fall under that genre, cuz if it goes over well, they might bring it back every month or so (Goth Night)

i want some f--king sleep! erg damn muse..

too tired to even put into words how tired I am.. LOL stupid Muse was running through my head all damn night :( only got a total of maybe 3 hours of sleep.... *sigh* i got a lot done as far as the dress is concerned. so that's good... dunno if I should finish it all today, or just break it up little by little. I don't want anyone to see it on me, til the day I have to wear it, so if I get done with it, I may be tempted to wear it. Awesome thing is, it will be great enough to wear to cc, and my also keep me warm as well... not through a snow storm of course, but decent crisp weather, it should be just fine. and I can wear a long sleeve shirt under it (which I plan to do, by the way) or a short sleeve or tank top... lol so its versitile. Unfortunatly, its got crosses all over it, so i wouldnt be able to wear it to any job I got, unless I worked in a halloween store year round (they aren't open year round ) or got Abby's job from NCIS, which real life or just acting, I qualify for neither... Nor am I drop dead gorgeous as her. LOL... sorry, I'm rambling... Ultram+no sleep+a very loud muse+ideas+nearly done= a very chatty cathy. LOL *tiptoes away*

ATTEMPT to start making an overdress that my Muse has got it in her head (my head?) that I should make... EDIT: THIS: is what my muse wants me to make (That fabric, minus that pink print you see under it... so the skulls you see hiding here and there aren't part of the pattern... That was a fabric I'd laid under the mesh cross one, so I could see it better, in pictures... I'll have on black pants and a red shirt under it. ) Also, I found a shirt to use as a pattern! ^_^ so that's about what its gonna look like.

did I mention that its all in here *taps the side of my head* and that I have no pattern to follow?? My Muse is NUTS!

um... my Muse needs to take her ass back to bed, so I can get some sleep.. she won't let me rest, because apparently I've got to make a really elaborate over dress for a certain wedding I'll be going to soon... I hope she knows what she's doing, because I don't think I'll be done in time to wear it! >.<

Why 09/09/09 Is So Special Heather Whipps Special to LiveScience LiveScience.com heather Whipps special To Livescience livescience.com – Tue Sep 8, 10:46 am ET Have special plans this 09/09/09? Everyone from brides and grooms to movie studio execs are celebrating the upcoming calendrical anomaly in their own way. In Florida, at least one county clerk's office is offering a one-day wedding special for $99.99. The rarity of this Sept. 9 hasn't been lost on the creators of the iPod, who have moved their traditional Tuesday release day to Wednesday to take advantage of the special date. Focus Features is releasing their new film "9," an animated tale about the apocalypse, on the 9th. Not only does the date look good in marketing promotions, but it also represents the last set of repeating, single-digit dates that we'll see for almost a century (until January 1, 2101), or a millennium (mark your calendars for January 1, 3001), depending on how you want to count it. Though technically there's nothing special about the symmetrical date, some concerned with the history and meaning of numbers ascribe powerful significance to 09/09/09. For cultures in which the number nine is lucky, Sept. 9 is anticipated - while others might see the date as an ominous warning. Math magic Modern numerologists - who operate outside the realm of real science - believe that mystical significance or vibrations can be assigned to each numeral one through nine, and different combinations of the digits produce tangible results in life depending on their application. As the final numeral, the number nine holds special rank. It is associated with forgiveness, compassion and success on the positive side as well as arrogance and self-righteousness on the negative, according to numerologists. Though usually discredited as bogus, numerologists do have a famous predecessor to look to. Pythagoras, the Greek mathematician and father of the famous theorem, is also credited with popularizing numerology in ancient times. "Pythagoras most of all seems to have honored and advanced the study concerned with numbers, having taken it away from the use of merchants and likening all things to numbers," wrote Aristoxenus, an ancient Greek historian, in the 4th century B.C. As part of his obsession with numbers both mathematically and divine, and like many mathematicians before and since, Pythagoras noted that nine in particular had many unique properties. Any grade-schooler could tell you, for example, that the sum of the two-digits resulting from nine multiplied by any other single-digit number will equal nine. So 9x3=27, and 2+7=9. Multiply nine by any two, three or four-digit number and the sums of those will also break down to nine. For example: 9x62 = 558; 5+5+8=18; 1+8=9. Sept. 9 also happens to be the 252nd day of the year (2 + 5 +2)... Loving 9 Both China and Japan have strong feelings about the number nine. Those feelings just happen to be on opposite ends of the spectrum. The Chinese pulled out all the stops to celebrate their lucky number eight during last year's Summer Olympics, ringing the games in at 8 p.m. on 08/08/08. What many might not realize is that nine comes in second on their list of auspicious digits and is associated with long life, due to how similar its pronunciation is to the local word for long-lasting (eight sounds like wealth). Historically, ancient Chinese emperors associated themselves closely with the number nine, which appeared prominently in architecture and royal dress, often in the form of nine fearsome dragons. The imperial dynasties were so convinced of the power of the number nine that the palace complex at Beijing's Forbidden City is rumored to have been built with 9,999 rooms. Japanese emperors would have never worn a robe with nine dragons, however. In Japanese, the word for nine is a homophone for the word for suffering, so the number is considered highly unlucky - second only to four, which sounds like death. Many Japanese will go so far as to avoid room numbers including nine at hotels or hospitals, if the building planners haven't already eliminated them altogether. The Most Popular Myths In Science Review: Animated "9" Destined to Be Next Great Cult Film World to End in 2012: A Hoax Gone Too Far? Original Story: Why 09/09/09 Is So Special LiveScience.com chronicles the daily advances and innovations made in science and technology. We take on the misconceptions that often pop up around scientific discoveries and deliver short, provocative explanations with a certain wit and style. Check out our science videos, Trivia & Quizzes and Top 10s. Join our community to debate hot-button issues like stem cells, climate change and evolution. You can also sign up for free newsletters, register for RSS feeds and get cool gadgets at the LiveScience Store.

feeling a bit useless, since I can do so little, because of my wrist... I can't even hold a bowl with one hand, cuz it feels too heavy on my wrist. anyways... I'm feeling groggy, so i'm gonna head to bed as soon as I hit reply and shut my computer down. Pain meds have kicked in, and I'm feeling quite nice, though I'll feel like crap tomorrow LOL Gonna go see about applying as a few coffee shops tomorrow.. hope the room mate feels up to doing a lot of writing, cuz I can't hold a pencil or pen with this brace on, and my wrist hurts too bad without it LOL ah well she's a good friend, so I'm sure she won't mind helping me. looking forward to a hot bath tomorrow... it helps with the pain a little... at least for an hour or so.... I'll put the brace back on so I don't forget I got an injury and eff it up even more LOL can't wait til its stopped hurting.. It got hurt August 22nd. Its time for it to be better, already LOL Night, DGN.

yeah, thanks for the clarity LOL cuz when i read it my mind did a topsy turvy... lol cuz i got all confuzled LOL

so let me get this strait... he has sex with his wife, she has a baby 9 months later but doesn't think the kid is his? cuz she is now 8, and has really dark skin, and he doesn't... were they not married when they did this? or what? cuz I'm just trying to understand the whole "I didn't know she was my daughter, even though I'm married to her mother" thing... o.O either way..... um wow jeeze.... i dunno what else to say...

I feel like I wish I qualified for more job positions. doesn't seem like anyone's hiring anymore for what I do qualify for.... and since my wrist is all effed up, I can't type as well as I use to (Hard to type with a brace on.. my pinkie can't reach all the letters LOL) *sigh* this sucks..... not to mention that these days, everyone wants you to have a degree to be able to answer phones, take down messages, and make appointments..... come on people, I did that for a month during the summer. its easy! and I had to work a switchboard.... *rips hair out* I don't want to live in this windowless matchbox forever!

no no I wasn't saying that as a reason why I wouldn't do it, I was stating that as an observation of myself. I'll make the call tomorrow when I get home. I hope it pans out... 2 hours, or 20, i'd be making money and at least be able to pay for my own cigarettes

try really hard to get a nap LOL

frustrated - I really need a haircut. my ends are so bad that after one night, my hair feels and looks like i stuck my finger in a socket... the ends are nasty and it doesn't matter how much I brush it or how much conditioner I used... there's no getting around it... unfortunately, hair salons will not take lint as payment.... ugh and all i need is a straight haircut nothing fancy lol tired - did not get much sleep... and I need a nap... sadly: restless - I have a mild form of restless leg syndrom... so it feels like my leg wants to run around all by itself LOL it gets like that when I'm really tired and just want to pass out, but the need to move my leg to justify the sensation that it is already moving keeps me awake... lol the wrist finally has a brace... but my arm tires out easily because I can't bend and flex so my arm's gotta get use to working a different way... one day with it on, though and it feels like the muscles around my wrist are already starting to wither away LOL *sigh* I cant wait til it doesn't hurt anymore and I can take the brace off for more than 10-15 mins at a time....

welcome to DGN! ^_^ btw, your profile still says "male"

actually i think it has something to do with the influx of MAC knock offs... so maybe MAC said no to eBay or something... that's just my guess. LOL and as for the thread... i have never used MAC... but are the most popular these days, it seems....(and I think they have a lose powder out there some where LOL) lots of lose mineral powders can be used to make lip gloss, nail tint, eyeliner, or even a sort of face paint lol just depends on what you mix it with.... some work well, some are not ground fine enough to work well as one thing or another.... just a matter of finding what works. I own a mineral product (I forget what brand) that works well as all of the above that I have mentioned.... you just gotta experiment with skin friendly mediums to mix the lose powders with