GothicRavenGoddess

I feel like I never seem to learn my lesson that cereal for breakfast right after I get up is a bad idea and makes me feel icky?! tummy hurts now.. its like the valves in my tummy aren't awake yet, and I'm lactose intolerant for the first hour after I wake up from sleeping.. ugh... sucks... on a lighter note, my chest cold seems to be breaking up.. I hope.. I may go back to bed, though... still very incredibly tired... body mind and soul.... Edit: The word "bad" and "back" DO NOT mean the same thing lol

hurt angry lost hate tired hungry like my lungs are full of fluid (great.. just effing great... ) Like hanging out with Ethan sounds like a great idea.. Take my mind off things, gets me out of my cave. At least for a little while, I can not be so sad. Least for a short while I can be distracted from the fact that I have done little with my life, except save every one else... Like I wish I had a car, if but to take my friend out for coffee so we can talk.... I these past few weeks have been hard on him... and I hurt that he's in so much pain...

HAHAHAHA yes! Rob drew his version of his arm tattoo, on the sleeve of the shirt, too LOL said that "here's the only proof that I had this tattoo. Because after I have it covered, it will be gone" LOL That pic was taken at the May 01, Hot Topic Acoustic set that Ethan took me to.

yeah, they are tiny pics... sucks, but that's how they saved. erg... (camera phone lol) but yeah.. love these pics. ^_^ LOVE that mask.

Thanks. for you as well. and for anyone else that needs one.. i sure could use a good hug right now... Sadly.. I dunno when that will be.. and I don't mean a hug where people are afraid to touch each other... or the sort of hug only 9 month pregnant ladies give each other (which is pretty funny to watch, by the way)... I mean a real, full body touching, warm embrace. and I don't mean a lustful full body touch. I mean a real @%&* hug!

um... um.... I know the answer to this... It was around here somewhere.... I still dunno what I'm feeling... too many emotions at once....

HAHAHAHAHA Hey!!! LOL Welcome to DGN! Never thought to see you here. (For those that don't know, that's not him lol that's another member of the band LOL)

So I was in the "What are you thinking" thread.. and a thought crossed my mind So that got me to looking.... I typed in "Gothic Pasties" into Google, and it brought me to this site: http://gothfox.com/store/ I was looking around.. and what do my Geeky eyes behold???? In the section labeled "Couture Pasties" I saw this: Couture Trek Insignia Pasties They are $30.00 Show us your Pasties find.. and remember, this isn't the S&S thread, so Keep it SFW!

I need a fucking drink.. hmm I wonder if they will let me in the door, at CC, with my mask on... maybe if I go with it on my head and then slide it down afterward... Wonder if I can find some good pasties, online....

yeah, I threw the damned thing against the wall finally took it to the shop, and they found thread intertwined around the internal workings of the machine.. like near the hand crank.... now.. know what I know about machines.. I don't get how that can even happen.. I mean, there's only a little place where the thread could have gotten in, and that's where the rod sticks up to wind more bobbins.. o.O so yeah.. that one made me scratch my head.. so it makes me wonder if my machine was a return, and a moron had the machine before I did o.O ah well, its fixed now.. woo!

Interesting.. but not my cup of tea...

I got this mask to take pictures in... LOL I'll be wearing this and little else. I can't wait to get more... This was taken with my webcam, just to have pictures of it, with me wearing it. I'll post more pics, with me in it (once I get them, that is), if they don't belong in the S&S section LOL

Third Eye Blind - How's It Going To Be lyrics http://www.youtube.c...h?v=rHoqBhs4JV8 I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore Before you take a swing I wonder what are we fighting for When I say out loud I want to get out of this I wonder is there anything I'm going to miss I wonder how it's going to be When you don't know me How's it going to be When you're sure I'm not there How's it going to be When there's no one there to talk to Between you and me Cause I don't care How's it going to be How's it going to be Where we used to laugh There's a shouting match Sharp as a thumbnail scratch A silence I can't ignore Like the hammock by the Doorway we spent time in swings empty Don't see lightning like last fall When it was always about to hit me I wonder how's it going to be When it goes down How's it going to be When you're not around How's it going to be When you found out there was nothing Between you and me Cause I don't care How's it going to be And how's it going to be When you don't know me anymore And how's it going to be Want to get myself back in again The soft dive of oblivion I want to taste the salt of your skin The soft dive of oblivion oblivion How's it going to be When you don't know me anymore How's it going to be How's it going to be How's it going to be Ok, so its the mood of the song I guess, not the words lol Cuz its not like that, nor did it go down like that.... ect ect.. ugh

"Will I be ok?"

like shit... and I'll leave it at that

lol wow that's cool

Link To The Trailer! WATCH IT! lol

yeah, seems that way..

I don't think so.. when i use to run the disk clean up, before, on my computer, it didn't effect DGN at all... It seems that now, it does, all of a sudden. It just started yesterday.

Ok, remember that issue I was having before? Quoted material isn't showing up in my email? Just the person's response? Its still like that. Also, every time I come back to DGN, I have to log in. I miss staying logged in...

The 25 Most Exquisitely Sad Songs in the Whole World There's no shortage of sad songs about rainy days and lovers who don't bring flowers. And then there are songs that truly bring the pain -- songs so despairing they can make us wonder why we even bother. Here are 25 little ditties so crushing, they could knock Dick Cheney to his knees. 25:'The River' Bruce Springsteen (1980) The Breakdown: Premature pregnancy, marriage and a weepy harmonica crush the dreams of a young couple. The Waterworks: "We went down to the courthouse/And the judge put it all to rest/No wedding day smiles, no walk down the aisle/No flowers, no wedding dress." Casualty Count: One couple's age of innocence. 24:'Nothing Compares 2 U' Sinead O'Connor (1990) The Breakdown: In this Prince-penned purple ode to an incomparable ex, there is life after love, but life really sucks. The Waterworks: "Nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling/Tell me baby, where did I go wrong?" Casualty Count: One lover, seven hours, fifteen days. 23:'No Surprises' Radiohead (1997) The Breakdown: A killer even by Thom Yorke's bleak standards, the kiddie chimes can't hide the singer's suicidal depression. The Waterworks: "I'll take a quiet life/A handshake, some carbon monoxide." Casualty Count: One heart that's "full up like a landfill." 22:'A Change Is Gonna Come' Sam Cooke (1964) The Breakdown: Recorded just before his tragic death, the soul great's response to 'Blowin' in the Wind' set the tone for the desperate Civil Rights struggle. The Waterworks: "It's been too hard living, but I'm afraid to die." Casualty Count: Countless proud citizens in Jim Crow America. 21:'Space Oddity' David Bowie (1969) The Breakdown: In the same year as our lunar landing, rock's space alien creates Major Tom, whose remains will travel the galaxy alone forever. The Waterworks: "Tell my wife I love her very much." Casualty Count: One astronaut. 20:'That's the Way I've Always Heard It Should Be' Carly Simon (1971) The Breakdown: Marriage is inevitably dismal in this evocative pop hit, which was recorded a year before Simon's ill-fated marriage to James Taylor. The Waterworks: "Their children hate them for the things they're not/They hate themselves for what they are." Casualty Count: All marriages, one American 19:'Lost Cause' Beck (2002) The Breakdown: The postmodern trickster reaches back to the Romantic era for the most depressing song on his breakup album, 'Sea Change.' The Waterworks: "I'm tired of fighting/Fighting for a lost cause." Casualty Count: The one love of your life. 18:'I've Gotta Get a Message to You' Bee Gees (1968) The Breakdown: Condemned man makes final plea to loved one. The Waterworks: "One more hour and my life will be through." Casualty Count: One convicted murderer with a heart of gold. 17:'Back to Black' Amy Winehouse (2006) The Breakdown: An ominous song of impending misery following infidelity, sung by a woman with her departing lover's name tattooed on her chest. The Waterworks: "You go back to her/And I go back to black." Casualty Count: A lover. Sobriety? Sanity? 16:'Shilo' Neil Diamond (1968) The Breakdown: Lonely kid turns to an imaginary friend. The Waterworks: "Papa says he'd love to be with you/If he had the time." Casualty Count: One squandered father-son relationship 15:'My Mom' Chocolate Genius (1998) The Breakdown: Recent Springsteen sideman cut this heart breaker about a return visit to his childhood home, and the mother he was losing to senility. The Waterworks: "My mom, my sweet mom/She don't remember my name." Casualty Count: One Alzheimer's victim (and one dog). 14:'Anyone Who Had a Heart' Dionne Warwick (1963) The Breakdown: A lover begs her man to see how he's mistreating her. Classic Bacharach/David melodrama, crushing Warwick wails. The Waterworks: "What am I to do?" Casualty Count: One lover's sense of pride. 13:'Naked as We Came' Iron & Wine (2004) The Breakdown: Indie folkie Sam Beam's brutally sweet love song acknowledging that one always has to die before the other, plus a plug for cremation. The Waterworks: "If I leave before you, darling/Don't you waste me in the ground." Casualty Count: Your better half. 12:'In the Wee Small Hours of the Morning' Frank Sinatra (1954) The Breakdown: Ol' Blue Eyes parlayed his painful divorce from movie star Ava Gardner into a career makeover: the lonely guy at the end of the bar. The Waterworks: "You'd be hers if only she would call." Casualty Count: One Hollywood marriage, countless nights of sleep. 11:'Brick' Ben Folds Five (1997) The Breakdown: Singer recalls taking his high-school girlfriend to get an abortion -- on the day after Christmas, no less. The Waterworks: "Now that I have found someone/I'm feeling more alone/Than I ever have before." Casualty Count: One pregnancy, one first love, several Christmas presents. 10:'In the Real World' Roy Orbison (1989) The Breakdown: The master of pop-opera misery ('Crying,' 'It's Over') outdid himself with this quavering answer to his own 'In Dreams.' Posthumously released. The Waterworks: "I love you and you love me/But sometimes we must let it be." Casualty Count: All dreams. 09:'Concrete Angel' Martina McBride (2001) The Breakdown: What's more devastating than a child's headstone? The Waterworks: "A name is written on a polished rock/A broken heart that the world forgot." Casualty Count: One victim of child abuse. 08:'Dance With My Father' Luther Vandross (2003) The Breakdown: Impossibly wrenching lament for the fact that we can't take care of our kids forever. The Waterworks: "Sometimes I'd listen outside her door/And I'd hear how my mother cried for him/I'd pray for her even more than me." Casualty Count: One father, one boy's sense of security in his father's arms 07:'Hallelujah' Jeff Buckley (1994) The Breakdown: Leonard Cohen's existential hymn addressing an old fling becomes a heavenly, if unanswered, prayer in the hands of the ill-fated Buckley. The Waterworks: "Love is not a victory march/It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah." Casualty Count: One crisis of faith. *06:'He Stopped Loving Her Today' George Jones (1980) The Breakdown: Sung by the country star with the most tears in his beer this side of Hank Sr., a jilted lover carries his old flame's memory until his dying day. The Waterworks: "I went to see him just today/Oh, but I didn't see no tears/All dressed up to go away/First time I'd seen him smile in years." Casualty Count: One fatally broken heart. 05:'I Know It's Over' The Smiths (1986) The Breakdown: For Morrissey, the world's loneliest singer, life isn't just over -- it never really began. The Waterworks: "As I climb into an empty bed/Oh, well, enough said." Casualty Count: One lonely soul ... any minute now. 04:'Hurt' Johnny Cash (2002) The Breakdown: In failing health, the great American singer tolls a death knell for the rest of us with this brutal Nine Inch Nails song about addiction and self-destruction. The Waterworks: "And you could have it all/My empire of dirt/I will let you down/I will make you hurt." Casualty Count: Everyone he knows ("goes away in the end"). 03:'Eleanor Rigby' The Beatles (1966) The Breakdown: The cute Beatle writes a timeless, devastating ode to the futility of life, set to a grieving string octet. The Waterworks: "Eleanor Rigby died in the church and was buried along with her name/Nobody came." Casualty Count: One spinster, one pair of socks. 02:'Gloomy Sunday' Billie Holiday (1941) The Breakdown: The Queen of Soul-Sapping is haunted about losing a loved one. The Waterworks: "Angels have no thought of returning you/Would they be angry if I thought of joining you?" Casualty Count: One woman's will to live. 01:'Chicken Wire' Pernice Brothers (1998) The Breakdown: Breathy Massachusetts sad sacks offer a lovely ballad about a woman choking to death on exhaust fumes ... and a cloud of minor chords. The Waterworks: "They found her car/Still running/In the garage." Casualty Count: One woman, and the drink she was holding. *This is the saddest of them all, I think.... What song chokes you up, no matter what mood you are, when you listen to it? What songs do you avoid, when you are sad, because you know it will make you cry? Some on here fit the bill.. There are several other's that aren't on here that always make me cry. What's your crying shame?

fuck that shit. I'm so fucking pissed right now... I swear to gawd. jesus fukcing christ on a god damn flaming stick (and I am in no fucking mood to hear any lectures on anything, so stfu and gtfo).. on top of all the fucking shit that has gone down tonight.. on top of all that.. fucking piece of shit fan bites the dust... and I have no fucking window in my room, or anything else to fucking circulate air. all I can do I fucking open my door and hope and pray that a breeze floats in. one more thing goes fucking wrong tonight, I swear I'm going to go of the fucking deep end, lose my mind and go psycho on every fucking body... There are not words to convey how fucking pissed off I am right now... NONE...

My here and now, and my future. Will everything I'm working for, crumble before its foundation is even built? Will things ever be like they once were, or at least something similar? Will I ever be the same... Will he... Will we...