GothicRavenGoddess

you and me both, doll... you and me both... sad thing is, no one wants a room mate that has no job, ect, ect.... (everyone thinks my room mates are nuts for taking me in, but if you knew/understood what was going on at the time, you wouldn't agree with them) but anyways.... hopefully, after Christmas, I can get my room mates to take me everywhere they possibly can, to fill in apps... *sigh*

still stressing... we have decided to use all the money to move, cuz up until this month, things have been going well... and I have a feeling that things are just going to get worse... still pulling my damn hair out... this shit is insane... *runs around, naked, and screaming at the top of me lungs, ripping my hair out* okay, so i caved... sue me... I'm getting drunk tonight..... I don't have any cigs... otherwise I'd be freezing my ass off standing outside. after the night i have had, I REALLY need one...

so my roommate's going out the door to meet up with a friend, and the bitch next door comes barreling over here bitching us out about the rent. (uh she's got no claims on it, ect, keep in mind) she also throws in how nasty the house is, ect (we just moved a lot of shit around, and it is quite messy... but she assumed that we live that way, always...) she has the landlady convenced that we owe $1700 worth of rent (that's 3 months worth) and if we don't pay the landlady's son by Christmas (of all fuicking days) the bitch next door is going to convence the landlady's son to evict us (she's sick in the hospital, and he's getting power of attorny tomorrow). On top of the $500 due by Christmas, we have to also pay $500 by the 1st of the year.... we are fucked! we have no where to go, if we get kicked out. I mean NO WHERE! I'm more worried about my hairless cat, than I am, myself. I'll live under a damn bridge if I have to... but Ryuu... what's gonna happen to him? people will take a room mate, they don't really want a cat, too... *sigh* and what about my two room mates... their pigs will get put down, and Shin will go to the pound.. WHAT THE FUCK ARE WE GONNA DO!?!?!?!?!! needless to say, I am freaking out, ever here... looking at me you couldn't tell... I have never been more scared, in my entire life... I don't want to lose all my stuff again... my stuff, my cat... everything...

freaking the fuck out...

very stressed. my love might lose the roof over his head, and I can't help... i want to go grab as many apps as I can, from downtown ann arbor, but because the holiday season isn't over, my ride thinks its pointless... its not pointless, I'll have plenty of time to fill the damn things out.. who's to say its pointless... can't say it is, till ya go to every shop and they all tell ya the same thing. I wanna go as soon as possible... the people that I was supose to be hired at, gave me the run around, then come to find out a bunch of other stuff... maybe in spring the position will be open again... I can't live off of maybes and ifs.. *sigh* I'm tired, and groggy, and hungry, and lonely. I've been home alone all damn day.. I'm bored as hell... everyone I know lives too far away to come hang out... i don't have my own vehicle to go to then... life is freaking grand... yesterday, a friend of mine found out his buddy died... so I am at sensory over load... I just want to scream and rip my hair out, but all that will do is cause my head to hurt and my throat to bleed... and I'll be hairless and voiceless. lol... uh... anyone want their house cleaned? *looks around* anyone? price is reasonable... *walks slowly out of the room with my head down* guess not....

what are panties again?

NO!!! NO!!! NO!!!

trying to type, but I can't seem to get the words out right... thus far I have spelled "heard" as "hurd" and "beautiful" as "bealtiful" yeah, I'm doing good... lol

pheramoans.. that's who I'm crushing on..

like people are losing their everlovin minds, and i won't be offering anymore opinions. I just let them leave looking like an idiot... sorry my opinions are facts meant to change your very being... (yeah, like I have THAT kind of power... ) some people... how do they not get ran over by the slow bus????? please tell me?? I can't take much more of this!!!!

*sigh* Like Lady Moon has blessed me with my not so regular red gift... Like I am allergic to my room mates cat... Like I wish I was in Ferndale so i could feet snuggle with my boo... *sigh*

well, once I am able to get all that squared away, I will shoot you a PM to make sure you have the time.

putting the final touches on dreadfall #2... very plased with my first try... This little adventue may make melate to Marc's photoshoot.... I shall be there asap!!!

All to often, the death of a person is honored, and memorialized, ect. Not often enough do we take the time to honor the pets that have come and gone from our lives. For the first dog that i ever had, Freckles- a dalmation/ begal mix. just left home one day (i was 3) He was the sweetest dog. He could have easily knocked me down, but he never did. He was my first bestfriend. My mom told me he ran away, but I think they hauled him off.. ) For my two darling boys, Yoda and Ginger.. i raised you since before your eyes were open.. mama misses you, my two beautiful kitties.. (Ginger just disapeared on day, and never came home...Yoda and Kortana went outside one day, and never came home ) (2006) Both were so loving. Yoda was the runt of the litter.. Ginger was so independent. Yoda was a mama's boy. Followed me everywhere, and talked to me a lot.... I fed them every couple of hours, and even on school days I had to get up and feed em. Most memerable moments was when i was feeding them and they took it upon themselves to pee on me. I couldn't get mad.. its a natural event... I miss them so so so much... my two orange tabbies (oh and they were the only unfixed males I'd ever owned that never sprayed, even when they hit puberty) For Kortana, that left w/ Yoda. she, too, just vanished. may you and Yoda roam together forever, where ever you are.(2006) Kortana was the most oddly colored cat. She came from a gray tabby colored mama and an orange tabby colored papa. her dark gray stripes looked like they were bleached in spots. lol (black and dark gray turns orange when its bleached) She was very spunky and very loving. Her and Yoda fell in love and never left each other's side. I hope that alive or dead, they never part. I miss them so much... For JavaJoe who finally passed. He went when he was ready, puring til the end. He will be missed. (2008) Cancer too him. But he went on his own terms. He was playful and happy til his last days. Always gave the pigs a run for their money, and when he was up to it, chased Ryuu around. He was still puring til the last beat of his heart. I cried really hard that day... Typing all of these. Those animals held such a big place in my heart. I was mama (and auntie, to Java) They knew my voice and knew that they were my kids. I will always mourn them. Such good kitties. I miss them so much. I was upset when I lost Freckles, but I was too young to understand what happened. I think I am more angry that I feel that I was lied to, more than the loss of the dog... Go ahead, post your's.

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I was thinking armpits that hurts too. lol well, if you have senstation there, that is. lol

out of your nostrils, and anwhere else the pain of pulling hairs from will make your eyes water...

it can be. lol and you are good, not knowing who she is. I hate her voice. lol