GothicRavenGoddess

wow, Katy, your makeup gets more and more elaborate!!!

Yeah, i'm happy you have stayed on this long... otherwise I'd have never met you. lol I'm almost at a year, myself.. lol... but anyways, this is about you.. Congrats on the -almost- 2,000... you'll surpass that tonight, I'd imagine.

Rose oil, or vanilla oil.. that's about it.. Use to wear Charlie White, or Romance. Both I LOVE, but I don't have the $ for either...

Uh, the big guy right there? ^-- I actually mean the little guy he's hurting. right now, i wish i was this:

still want this... add to that: the ability to see my smizmar more than once a month. a more comfortable bed that still takes up the same amount of room (a thicker matrice will do... its a standard size futon, if anyone wants to donate. lol) a really good paying job

okay, so here's the thing... my room mates were going to give my boyfriend, who lives in Ferndale, $20 to pay for the gas, so that he could come and see me, the day that they go out of town... in my excitement, i got it in my head that ifi could get a way to him, he could use the $$ to driveme home, and we could spend the weekend together... then, while I was resting, from the three hours of cleaning my room, and simotaniously taring it apart to find my wallet that keeps going missing... it hit me: the whole point of him coming to me was so that i could watch the animals and make sure they get to go outside, and go potty, and graze, and what not... so, unless i can convence my roomates to hold off for a few days I will be stuck at home, sometime this weekend, alone, with only the tv, and pigs and cats to keep me company... while everyone else gets to go to City Club... and the reason why he can't come to me, is cuz its his parent's vehicle, and they wouldn't loan it to him for an all day thing... so yeah.. its my own damn falt for getting caught up in the idea of seing him... if this doesn't work out (the weekend plans, I mean) we will have to wait another two weeks, before we can see each other.... (that means that it will have been a whole month since we last saw each other... and this is the second anniversary that we have had to spend apart... I know we are still counting months, but come on!!! we are just in the early stages!!!) least my rooms clean, right? I just wanna break stuff.. and the other issue is that if someone was kind enough to drive him here, to me, he'd have no way home... unless my room mates were willing.. but our poor POS... i don't know if, after a trip accross state, if the poor thing could handle another long haul like that... So I am very frustraited... to say the leaste... And Its my own damn fault for getting all excited about all this...

~Understanding ~Some freaking respect!!! ~People to actually listen to what i am saying ~my misery to go away, so that I can sleep properly, and maybe eat like I'm supose to... ~to live closer to Chris, so i can see him more than one weekend a month ~today to start over and go right!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

despite my "pistofftitude" I am very happy, becuase today is two anniversaries in one.... 3 months ago, today, Chris and I first spoke, here, on DGN... 2 months ago, today, he asked me out. sad, cuz this is our two month, and this is the second time we had to be apart for it.... so tired, I don't know how I am functioning... i feel like I drank too much, and I haven't touched alcohol since my friend's wedding reception... my brain says SLEEP!!! SLEEP NOW! DAMN YOU! but the events of today, and some other factors are not allowing me to get deep enough to become oblivious to the world around me... and I don't want to take an ultram, cuz its not real sleep, and i wake groggy, like how one feels when waking from surgery, minus the pain, and the urge to puke... today was supose to be a good day, even if i can't be with him... and its just one big distaster.... and on top of everything else, the internet crapped out on me, on my Smart Phone... (also known as a Pocket PC) for a $600 phone, it sure is a peice of shit... now I know why the guy sold it to steph for as little as he did... he knew it was a peice of shit, too... probably didn't take care of it either... ) so yeah... I am miserable....

for those with bad eyes, it says "if you can read this, turn me over"

there is no single word, or even a group of words to describe just how angry I am, right now... I could try, but even I am having a hard time grasping that this level of pistofftitude even exists, and I am the one feeling it!yeah, pistofftitude... that's a fun, made up word...

no no, i wasn't worried about him running away... i was worried that someone has snatched him up.... we live next to a busy road... and the front of our yard, people feel they can just drive up to and stare at the pigs... and i was worried that some onlooker might have ran off with my cat that's worth like $600... when i get the chance, I am getting him microchipped, so in the event someone does run off with him, i will have proof he is mine, if i ever see them again... and in the event they wanna be stubborn about it... lets just say I know some hungry pigs who will eat just about anything...

I am feeling the the weather settling in my knees and hips and ankles... I am 22 and i suffer from authritis...... life is so grand, sometimes... its not enough i suffer from something that could affect my heart, and my fertility, I suffer joint pain, at the first hint of cold weather.... I just love this body that i was blessed with... least I have a great ass and nice boobs... lmao... oh and I have a decent personality.. lol

Ryuu's back! he came home!!! woohoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so pist off, right now... if my cat doesn't come back, heads are going to roll... this is one of the reasons why I didn't want him outside without a harness.... if someone took off with my cat, the world as you and i know it, will never be the same... someone will die.. oh yes indeed...

watching the end of the 1963 version of The Haunting i forgot how much I love black and white movies....

i feel like i got a lot of things settled. like i feel really good about the things that were discussed. like i feel really really good, in general. I'm still a little nervious, but that will pass, in time... Nothing as bad as it was, not by any means, but its still there, a little. like i said, it will fade... I feel like i trust him way more than I ever thought that i ever could... yeah, sometimes I suprise myself... lol

A large pizza with: really good gormet tomatoe sauce so much cheese it stretches for days, when you bite into it bacon sausage pepperoni regular smoked ham grilled chicken banana peppers (not the fesh cut kind, the kind that comes in a jar, pickled. lots of parmasean cheese sprinkled on top also, i want some cripsy french fries with: chili cream cheese (mixed really well with the chili) cheddar sharp cheese sprinkled on top yeah, I'm feeling fat and sassy, and I want a meal to go with it... lol cuz right now, I'm eating strawberry yogert, cuz there's really nothing else to eat....