GothicRavenGoddess

is amung the long list of those that LOVE my fantabulous ass

AM I THE ONLY ONE HAVING ISSUES WITH YAHOO!!!! gawd!!! so I am feeling frustraited.... yeah....

i am fixing to go to bed. night everyone.

laugh all you bloody want, i don't care. I said I wanna touch the earth I wanna break it in my hands I wanna grow something wild and unruly I wanna sleep on the hard ground In the comfort of your arms On a pillow of bluebonnets In a blanket made of stars Oh it sounds good to me I said Cowboy take me away Fly this girl as high as you can Into the wild blue Set me free oh I pray Closer to heaven above and Closer to you closer to you I wanna walk and not run I wanna skip and not fall I wanna look at the horizon And not see a building standing tall I wanna be the only one For miles and miles Except for maybe you And your simple smile Oh it sounds good to me Yes it sounds so good to me Cowboy take me away Fly this girl as high as you can Into the wild blue Set me free oh I pray Closer to heaven above and Closer to you closer to you I said I wanna touch the earth I wanna break it in my hands I wanna grow something wild and unruly Oh it sounds so good to me Cowboy take me away Fly this girl as high as you can Into the wild blue Set me free oh I pray Closer to heaven above and Closer to you closer to you Closer to you Cowboy take me away. Closer to you

Was VERY elusive, Saturday.

why?

so i feel a bit rediculous. I feel kinda dumb that things went the way that they did.... I feel bad, but still in love. I will make it up to him. I promise that. I love him with my body, heart, mind, and soul... and i want to share all of that with him. I love it when I do... and i love when he shares such with me.... we will fix this.... and move forward. I still feel bad, but i know it will pass... sometimes, these things happen, miscomunications will occure. I just hope that his frustration will subside... :\ I wish I was closer, or I'd walk to him and fix it all... fucking-a! i wish i could walk there.... it would take three hours, and i don't know how to get there on foot... I hate this!!! now I'm frustraited... but not the same kind, nor for the same reason... i wish i was there... i wish i had a way there.... ggrrr! I want a job, damnit! but if I am moving in a few months (maybe) I have to wait to get one, till I move. damnit all to fucking hell!!! *!!!!!!screams in anger!!!!!!*

I was just told that i wasn't in tune with someone's needs, this weekend, and boy do I feel like an idiot, because of it. I feel so bad!!! I just want to dig a hole and climb in. I didn't act this way on purpose!!! And I am worse that dog shit in the deep crevies of a really old boot.... Least that's how I feel... there was a lot of misscomunication between us, but I feel like i was the worst at it. I rejected him, without realizing I was, and I wasn't doing it on purpose!!!! *sigh* I feel terrible!!! Most, if not all, was my own damn fault. I love him so much, and i never meant for this fiasco to happen. I feel utterly horrible. My guts hurt now. And I hurt someone VERY close to my heart and that makes me sick to my stomach. *sigh*

I am sitting here eating the best meatless spagetti I have ever tasted. (Bertoli's Vadka Sauce and wheat bowties) and I'm bored out of my SKULL!!! SOMEONE frackin IM me... (Screen name's in my DGN profile.... the yahoo one) WOW, where the hell did everyone go?

Meeting my gma, you'd never think she was like that. lol she's so nice... but she can be a real bitch, but its so subtle, the woman's insulted you and you don't even know it!

*giggles*

This band has been my ALL TIME favorite since I was a little girl. I heard this song, for the first time in a LONG time. (i found it on YouTube, but its just the song, and I hate life versions, sometimes they suck ass... so here's what i found: <---Clicky During the time of which I speak it was hard to turn the other cheek To the blows of insecurity Feeding the cancer of my intellect the blood of love soon neglected Lay dying in the strength of its impurity Meanwhile our friends we thought were so together They've all gone and left each other in search of fairer weather And we sit here in our storm and drink a toast To the slim chance of love's recovery. There I am in younger days, star gazing, Painting picture perfect maps of how my life and love would be Not counting the unmarked paths of misdirection My compass, faith in love's perfection I missed ten million miles of road I should have seen Meanwhile our friends we thought were so together Left each other one by one in search of fairer weather And we sit here in our storm and drink a toast To the slim chance of love's recovery. Rain soaked and voice choked like silent screaming in a dream I search for our absolute distinction Not content to bow and bent To the whims of culture that swoop like vultures Eating us away, eating us away Eating us away to our extinction Oh how I wish I were a trinity, so if I lost a part of me I'd still have two of the same to live But nobody gets a lifetime rehearsal, as specks of dust we're universal To let this love survive would be the greatest gift we could give Tell all the friends who think they're so together That these are ghosts and mirages, these thoughts of fairer weather Though it's storming out I feel safe within the arms of love's discovery I love most of the songs by them. This is one of the ones that speaks to me the most.