GothicRavenGoddess

VERY VERY excited about this coming weekend. I just gotta remind someone about it, so that i can have some gas $$ for my love, so he can come get me Friday, or Saturday. CAN'T WAIT to finish my outfit!!!!! its going to look amazing when i am finished! lol

spank, for her double meaning.

negociate the stakes of taking the pics. oh no!!! lol well you can look, but you mussent touch lol.. just don't shoot me. i have someone for that

let her! hehehe... *giggles* why thank you! lol

*giggle* cuz marc -loves- his head rubbed lol

tempt him to take really good, tasteful nudes of me... (yeah, i'm so damn vain.. lol)

:rofl: :rofl: :rofl: :rofl: :rofl: :rofl: :rofl: :rofl: :rofl: Okay, so its kinda sad too, but its still funny as hell... of all the statues to get stuck on.... lmao

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I am feeling that whatever is going around is spreading again. I don't feel so good. I am feeling that my body isn't processing my birth control right, and its making me sick to my stomack. Since I started taking it, i can't drink certain kinds of drinks either. Weird. Maybe when I go back to get my girl stuff checked out, they will put me on something else. I feel tired all the time, and I don't know why. I am not looking forward to the winter. The house is already cold and it was just one day of below 70 degrees.. I am LOVING this new bra! If my boobs didn't already look amazing, they take the cake now! lol Feeling the stress of living in a household that is very lacking in funds. I am thinking of moving to another location, sometime in the very near future, to unburden those that I live with. (though not all of it is my fault... that's a long as story...)I'm not going to cut my losses.. that's not the case at all. I love these ppl. I just see how hard it is on them, having me here. And I am so distracted here. I'm not as focused as I should be. I want to get things done. I can't even talk on the phone, w/o someone trying to talk to me.. its so frustraiting... but I do love them. They are like family. And If I do move, i WILL pay them back for all the rent that I owe them. I love them. I really do! lol I want to be closer to him. I hate this not being able to see him weeks at a time. Its very hard. and not the good kind of hard. I love him and miss him, and we only live 45 minutes apart! Its not fair!!!! >.<

I was just about to say that. lol

it wouldn't be a fail, if it wasn't proof of one guy's cheating g/f... on his car!

black bra, corset like undergarmet, black material that I tied around me, and the blue skirt that I made. No undies.

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I am feeling that everything is back to the way it should be . I am so happy that it is. Mine, all mine! ^_^

not sad.... dissapointed. More with myself, than anything else. But still. This is a hard feeling. And if ANY ONE tells me "i told you so" I will rip their tongue out and wipe their ass with it. and if anyone knows where I got that from, +10 for you. But be warned. I am in NO MOOD! NONE! Still loved. I do feel loved. For had I not been loved, things wouldn't have turned out the way they did. I just wish I was more okay with how I felt. Kinda dead, and non-feeling, right now. I am more okay with thiings, than I thought that I'd be. I broke down earlier. But when one's world crashes down, one tends to cry their eyes out. Tired. Very tired. The last few hours have been mentally and emotionally draining. My tummy has been hurting for several hours now. Waiting... I have a feeling that I'll be doing that for a while.... The best things in life are worth waiting for, and I am finding that out the hard way. Least it wasn't an engagement.... Part of me still hopes that will happen.. one day. But the way my last 2 have gone, I'm not sure I'll ever fully want it. 3 times a charm, right? But its WAY too soon to feel any of that now. Or is it too late? O.o "I could see myself spending the rest of my life with you." Those words still rein true. I can only hope that as time goes on, you still feel that way, as well. This is the hardest thing I'd ever had to to... miss you....

Goo Goo Dolls - Iris lyrics Verse 1 And I'd give up forever to touch you Cause I know that you feel me somehow You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be And I don't want to go home right now Verse 2 And all I can taste is this moment And all I can breathe is your life Cause sooner or later it's over I just don't want to miss you tonight Chorus And I don't want the world to see me Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am Verse 3 And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming Or the moment of truth in your lies When everything seems like the movies Yeah you bleed just to know your alive Chorus And I don't want the world to see me Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am Chorus I don't want the world to see me Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am I just want you to know who I am I just want you to know who I am I just want you to know who I am I just want you to know who I am :cry :cry :cry :cry :cry :cry :cry :cry :cry

very lost, and very confused. why do i even bother? why do i do this? invest my heart... why didn't i just keep my mouth shut. why...

i feel like i wish that I lived closer to everyone I loved, so that I didn't miss out on all the fun stuff that goes on, during the weekends. I wish that the damn plant wasn't on the table so that I could get to sewing, because I have no $$ and that's the only way I'm going to generate some. "Im too tired... if that's what you're thinking" No, i wasn't, so eff off! so I am frustraited, as well as bummed.

could you be any cuter with your question asking?