GothicRavenGoddess

wait, about me, or him? *scratches head* you are pretty, too, btw! lol

the picture in your signature? it looks familiar, and once you say what it is, I'm sure that I'm going to have "a V8 moment" lol this is going to drive me crazier.. can ya tell me what it is?

What GothicRavenGoddess Means : You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very hyper. You never slow down, even when it's killing you. You're the type of person who can be a workaholic during the day... and still have the energy to party all night. Your energy is definitely a magnet for those around you. People are addicted to your vibe. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- What Andrea Means You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

wow, your pretty.

yeah, im going to. thanks, hun.

i hear ya there. no i found out the diuretics/caffeine thing out on my own. i stopped taking the midol and cut the caffeine out, and the bleeding got a little better.... could have been a coincident,. but who knows... bleeding got bad, when i drank caffeine again.... idk... so i just stay clear of it when im on my period. i hope they put their finger on what is exactly wrong w/ you, so that you know that the treatment you are getting is the right ones. hang in there, hun! i have been told by many Dr's that i am borderline anemic (and some days I really feel it) but at the hospital they said i wasn't, considering how much blood i lost... they were surprised... who knows.. i am losing faith in doctors, these days...

@Rayne: i can't take midol or drink anything with cafine in it, or dieretics in them, or the bleeding will get worse. (yeah, i couldn't believe it either) @ HH: Adoption is an option, but this is way deeper than having babies... this is also the high blood pressure, the diabetes, and the high cholesterol.. along w/ the extra facial hair due to an over load of male hormones, because my body isn't making enough estrogen to balance it out... its a list of other things... having babies is an issue (because telling me my uterus is basically bleeding for no reason, and my ovaries suck at life makes, me feel not so much like a woman anymore), but its not the BIG issue... i need hormones.

Save Me Loving you like I never have before I'm needing you to open up the door If begging you might somehow turn the tides Then tell me to I've got to get this off my mind I never thought I'd be speaking these words I never thought I'd need to say another day alone is more than I can take Won't you save me, 'cause saving is what I need I just want to be by your side Won't you save me, I don't want to be Just drifting through the sea of life Listen please baby, don't walk out that door I'm on my knees, you're all I'm living for I never though I'de be speaking these words Never thought I'd find a way Another day alone is more than I can take Won't you save me, 'cause saving is what I need I just want to be by your side Won't you save me, I don't want be Just drifting through the sea of life Suddenly the sky is falling Could it be it's too late for me If I never said I'm sorry, then I'm wrong, I'm wrong Then I hear my spirit calling Wondering if she's longing for me And then I know that I can't live without her Won't you save me, 'cause saving is what I need I just want to be by your side Won't you save me, I don't want be Just drifting through the sea of life Won't you save me Won't you save me Won't you save me ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I Will Come To You When you have no light to guide you And no one to walk to walk beside you I will come to you Oh I will come to you When the night is dark and stormy You wont have to reach out for me I will come to you Oh I will come to you Sometimes when all your dreams may have seen better days And you dont know how or why, but youve lost your way Have no fear when your tears are fallin I will hear your spirit callin And I swear Ill be there come what may (repeat chorus) cause even if we cant be together Well be friends now and forever And I swear that Ill be there come what may When the night is dark and stormy You wont have to reach out for me I will come to you Oh I will come to you We all need somebody we can turn to Someone wholl always understand So if you feel that your soul is dyin And you need the strength to keep tryin Ill reach out and take your hand (repeat chorus)

thank you for your kind words. i needed that.

The only thing is, they didn't find any cysts... weird... but they said that i have all the other symtoms. I was in the hospital a few days ago. I lost a lot of blood, and got really scared, and so I asked my room mate to take me to the hospital. They told me that they are glad that I came in when I did, and that i need to get on the ($62.00) medication to correct the issue before i develope cysts. (they prescribed Yaz, because it has both estrogen and progestin.) Here is a link to some info on the subject. About Poly-Cystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) The short version: If you are reading this, it is because a close relative of yours is under [a physician's] care and has Poly-Cystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS). This has significant implications for your future health and it is important for you to understand what this all means. PCOS is the most common hormone problem in women of reproductive age (puberty to menopause). However, the implications and consequences of PCOS extend beyond menopause. We now recognize that the cause of PCOS is an abnormality in the insulin receptor. This means that the insulin your body produces is not able to work as effectively as it should to keep your blood sugar normal. To overcome this defect, your pancreas has to produce more and more insulin. The excess insulin affects the way the ovaries function and causes them to produce increased amounts of male hormone. This interferes with normal ovulation and many women with PCOS have very irregular menstrual cycles. The increased male hormone production also leads to facial hair growth and/or acne. It is also becoming increasingly apparent that the excess insulin production with the resulting elevated levels of insulin in your bloodstream has significant implications for your overall health and well-being. We now know that these excess insulin levels are a significant risk factor for cardiovascular disease including heart attacks and stroke - even in those people who are not yet diabetic. This whole problem falls under the heading of "Syndrome X". I can talk to you more about it if your wish. There is rapidly accumulating evidence that these high insulin levels also play a significant role in causing high cholesterol levels and hypertension as well. We know that women with PCOS are more likely to develop diabetes when pregnant and are also more likely to develop diabetes in later life. Insulin resistance is probably the abnormality that sets the stage for this. PCOS is an inherited disease and 50% or more of the close relatives of women identified as having PCOS will also have the disease although not all will manifest every symptom. Men can also inherit the genetic abnormality that in women would lead to PCOS. Although not everyone who is insulin resistant will ultimately develop diabetes, many do. Furthermore, you do not go from being normal to diabetic in one step. There are intermediate stages where you would not be classified as being officially diabetic but your body is not handling sugar properly and your blood sugars are higher than they ought to be. As a result of all of this, we strongly urge you to be evaluated for possible insulin resistance. It is a simple blood test - one that our office can easily provide for you. All that is necessary is that you come into the office first thing in the morning - fasting. Nothing to eat or drink from the time you go to bed at night until your blood is drawn in the morning. We would also encourage any men who are close relatives of our patient to undergo the same testing. This would especially include men who are significantly overweight with elevated cholesterol and hypertension as well. So, on top of that, my depression has gotten worse. I am 22 years old, and they are telling me that I could become infurtle. That's enough to make anyone depressed. I already have a deep depression, which i can handle. (i focus it into other things.... like being creative--writing, drawing, creating banners for online, things like that) But lately, its gotten worse. I cry (which is huge) for no reason at all... or at the time said crying takes place, its a good reason, then i kinda feel like an idiot, because I over reacted... And now I am losing even more sleep that I ever was before... The worry alone keeps me awake, along w/ the other things that are on my plate (lack of job, trying to work on the benefit concert, things like that.) I don't know. I didn't put this here for a pity party... i wanted to share a little part of my life.... it seems no one understands how serious this health issue is..(when i say no one, i mean those closest to me) i mean i was told it could cause high blood preasure, diabeties, high coloesterol (three things that already run in my family... ) So yeah.. lots on my plate... So, Ladies, anything bad going on with you? How do you deal with your female issues? And, does anyone know any alternative ways to help fix what's wrong with me? Any ideas?

and cher? i love your long hair... you look SO different w/o it (still pretty, tho )

This post was actually supose to be made by me!!! (forgot to check and see if she had logged out... i hate sharing a computer )

( I know who sings this, but if YOU know, I'll give you a cookie) A Song To Sing Goodbye four leaf clovers. Hello gone awry Don't cry the fight ain't over Unless you let it pass you by (chorus) I'm looking for a song to sing, Looking for a friend to borrow. I'm looking for my radio. So I might find a heart to follow. I've never been this Longing for your lovin' I've never been so Wearin' down to nothin' I've never been just Looking for a reason. So maybe you've been thinkin' Of me. Oh... You've been thinking of me. All that I have found in reason, Is reason just to not believe. And all that you are left is treason. Is treason just to let I be. (chorus) I'm looking for a song to sing, Looking for a friend to borrow. I'm looking for my radio. So I might find a heart to follow. I've never been this Longing for your lovin' I've never been so Wearin' down to nothin' I've never been just Looking for a reason. So maybe you've been thinkin' Blue yonder dreams And second hand shoes You're so far gone, That you're left to lose. It's too late to go home All alone. Your the tar in that Old cigar And the worn out cable On a cable car - and, You're too tired to admit You've gotta choose. (chorus) I'm looking for a song to sing, Looking for a friend to borrow. I'm looking for my radio. So I might find a heart to follow. I've never been this Longing for your lovin' I've never been so Wearin' down to nothin' I've never been just Looking for a reason. So maybe you've been thinkin' Of me. Oh... You've been thinking of me.

This one, because of my eyes: And you can't really tell, but i have pigtails.