Ice Queen

Networking Scheduling shoots Getting ready to drive 90 miles to have my TB test read, oh joy! I'm even more excited that I get to turn around and come right back because I have to work tomorrow and can't stay down to have any fun

They denied me twice before finally approving me. None of the photographers can figure out why. Damn moderators were cranky or something. I thought you could join via myspace as well though.

Like you wouldn't like it

I declare myself Mistress of Ceremonies which entitles me to first pick of spanking device and target

I am thinking I will go play with myself shortly just thought you all should know

I'm back! If you are male, unless you can do something for me, ie: help my career, help with maintenance/chores/errands, provide me with proper entertainment or luxuries, I have no use for you. Don't waist my time. I'm in one hell of a mood had to edit out the friendship part....silly girl, I am incapable of that sarcasm? What sarcasm?

I would say that I am sorry to hear that and wish you better luck, but that would imply that I had feelings and cared about other human beings. I have never been one to mislead people, purposely anyway.

Like the period of time I recently tried being an actual human being and not having my alter-ego on at all times has come to an end.

Like being hot sucks sometimes

If you're not going to use those

Happy Birthday to a wonderful young lady!

Being thankful that I did not have to perform CPR today!

Thank you. I can use those. I am a bit stressed. One more day to go, the a few days off.

Thanks. Three people died yesterday, in our unit alone, plus my patient that tried to die. Today was say three. I did CPR on another patient again today, not my patient, we got her back. I wasn't kidding when I said they drop like flies. It's kinda surreal at this point, just hope it stops. Plus, my body can't take anymore, all my muscles are so sore, it hurts to cough and walk.

Like I am the grim reaper

F*ck, I hate when I'm right! This time it was MY patient, I was right on top of it, giving the atropine while still just a slow heart rate in 40's and had a pulse...lost the pulse, had to do CPR(again), another epi and some atropine later, an we had a pulse again. heart was beating again, we had a blood pressure, and, well , we shoved a tube down her throat and put her on a ventilator, so she wasn't blue anymore. She's alive. This was at the end of my day. At the beginning of my day, I walked into a grieving family whose loved one just died, that I knew quite well and was quite fond of after taking care of them last week quite a bit. And I still have to go back the next 2 days! So, I am sitting here, alone, in my empty house, drinking liquor so I can try to sleep tonight, so I can go back and do it all over again, wishing I wasn't so independent.

Yes, as in actual cardio-pulmonary resuscitation. And actually, we are ACLS (Advanced Cardiac Life Support) as well, so we were pushing Epinephrine, atropine, bicarb, calcium, repeat, stop check for rhythm and pulse, we have PEA (pulseless Electrical Activity), continue CPR, for almost an hour(longer then we usually try)....needless to say, that family got to make funeral arrangement instead of celebrate Christmas.

Wishing I had not been right about that. There's nothing like hearing and feeling the cracking of ribs as you start CPR...on Christmas morning One day down, 3 more to go, I am hoping I was wrong about the "more than once" part. Medicating so I can sleep tonight

Drinking to help me sleep so I can get up at 5:15a and go to work....for the next 4 days I hate 4 day stretches, and at holiday time....Can you say "chaos". They drop like flies. Something tells me my CPR and ACLS skills will be used, probably more than once, during this stretch. And also drinking to help dull the pain of accidentally tearing a chunk of flesh off my toe with the edge of my bed frame(and it wasn't in a "fun" way). Scheduling photo shoots and chatting with photographers for DEAC. Rambling here as a way to avoid doing something else that I want to do, but am being shy. (I know, crazy, isn't it). Maybe a few more sips of my drink, and I will be ready I really should be going to bed, I'm going to be tired tomorrow

Plotting...... house quest stuff modeling stuff new job stuff social stuff the wheels are turning

having my coffee getting ready to make the drive down and look at more houses

I will be in the area that day. I would show up before I make my way to Necto

Life is plenty simple, as long as you don't count on anyone else and you never get your hopes up oh, and you like being alone