like if I were someone that cried, I would be crying right now, just out of pure exhaustion and frustration at not being able to get rest, nothing bad
like if I were someone that wasn't fiercely independent, I would want someone to take care of me today
really, why can't I give in and accept that it is ok to not be fine all the time, no matter what and that needing a hand once in a while does not mean you are weak. But ya, I don't need a damn thing from anyone. I will be just fine. I will drag myself out of yet another gutter without a hand form anyone, because this is just who I am...and old dog refusing to learn a new trick.
I want to sleep. I want to sleep rapped in...never mind
obviously I am still delirious and talking like a drunken fool