Ice Queen

a few curly fries and a Jamocha shake that I added a bunch of buttershots to, mmmm buttershots

A few that haven't been mentioned yet; The Handmaid's Tale Mystery of Rampo The Butterfly Effect Nightbreed these definitely stimulated my brain

I never put an emphasis on a number, even when I had extra weight. I just wanted to feel good and be happy with my body. Weighing occasionally is ok, but it sets you up for a fall. Whenever I got on the scale and saw I lost weight, it made me hungry and seeing you gained, how discouraging. Are your clothes tighter? then you gained. Not as tight, then you lost; no change, well what do you think? Much easier to not obsess about the numbers in my opinion. Good luck to anyone fighting the battle of the bulge!

cooking dinner already and researching auto loan options

Looking at what schools offer CRNA programs, even though it will be years before I think about starting that program. But, it might help narrow down the whole "where to buy my next house" issue.

Oddly enough, listening to depressing music, it helps me get it out and get over it. When it's not so freezing cold; taking a walk, watching the clouds or stars. Working out is suppose to make you feel better, but if you are sad, it is hard to motivate yourself. Dressing up and looking really nice for no reason. Being around friends and family. Reminding myself that it is only temporary. Setting goals to improve my life, and taking the steps towards them. And I start with small, achievable goals, and little steps. Oh, and how can I forget, hugs. A good hug from a friend or loved one does a lot, and I am happy to provide hugs for those that need them. Sometimes I am thankful for sadness, for how can you know and appreciate real joy, if you have not known real sorrow. I worry about closing myself off to the sadness and becoming numb, mostly because of the environment I work in. So, when I have had a particularly hard stretch at work and feel like I have closed myself off emotionally, I am actually relieved when feelings start creeping in.

Drinking liquor to help me sleep and savoring memories from a great weekend

A long, hard day at work behind me and 3 days off to look forward to! And you have what?

cheese tortellini with alfredo sauce, garlic toast, buffalo chicken, and a tall glass of milk I'm gonna be so full

I would be drinking heavily right now, but I have to get up early to work (and I can't really work hungover), damn it! Oh well, maybe one will be OK

Wishing I was someplace else

Too many miles and too much snow between where I am at and where I want to be. Why don't you tell us what you have

I've got a flower a patient's family gave me for taking such good care of their loved one, being nice and taking time to explain her condition and treatment, oh and job satisfaction. Tell me, what have you got?

3 sick kids, and the same thing they got What ya got?

an empty package of cookie dough What have you got?

Just finished writing another dirty blog on my myspace page. Gotta have a hobby

Give her a hug and make her promise not to talk about what she learned

chocolate chip cookie dough

Wishing I could take a vacation from having responsibilities. Or a clone, that would help

Today.... a bad attitude What the f do you got?

I was just getting ready to head to bed, and I remembered......I have a trunk FULL of groceries I have to bring in and put away. Crap! What the hell do you got?

A DVD of Control someone t work burned for me. YAY! And what might you have?

Eating Taco Bell for dinner after a long day at work

I have the inability to move my head without a severe case of the spins and a very strong urge to puke You got something?

Right now, I am just doing the Ibuprofen and Imatrex. They help decrease the pain to a tolerable level, but it is still there. And the side effects are getting to me. At first, I wasn't having side effects. Some weeks I am taking the max dose every day for a few days, and it is still there, duller, but there. It gets very annoying. Sometime they last for 2 weeks, sometimes a day. I have refused to take the Topamax so far that my regular Dr. prescribed until after the neurologist looks at my MRI and I hear what he has to say. It looks like I may have had a TIA from what the radiologist says, YAY! I am a nurse, and very leary of taking medications, and only do so if I absolutely have to ( I am the worst patient). They seem to be getting really bad again, and I am having them more than I am not. Very glad to be finally getting into the doc, it was like a 3-4 month wait. I kind of would not like to have a worse stroke. Whatever he recommends, I will reluctantly try, after reading up on them in my drug book if I am not familiar with them. They are starting to interfere with life way too much