In reading the "Why do your relationships end?" thread, along with a few others this morning, I see some people have been in, and some continue to be in bad relationships. We've all had our humdingers, and have been through the ringer physically and emotionally, but what keeps us IN these bad relationships?
My first relationship was awful. He was clever, this asshole, and though he abused me sexually and emotionally, and I gave him control, he always told me I was beautiful, and never said one negative word about my looks. I think he knew if he did that, I would have been gone. I've always thought it was strange how I let him have so much control, and let him abuse me in some areas, but if he started crap in others, I would have been out the door. It ended when he spit on me. We had a fight, and at some point he felt the need to hack one on me. I looked at him and started laughing, saying "really?" I felt like a 50ft Queenie in the face of an ant at that moment, and it was done. After all the years of weathering his crap, all he had left was spit? I had an odd sense of "I won," which is twisted. In that moment, I finally saw him for who he was~a little man who had no self esteem who took control of the only thing in his life he could have control over, me.
I stayed in that ridiculous relationship because I felt he understood me, and I thought he would change. Honestly, though, people don't really change. We may be able to change habits, and change the course of our lives, but who we are at the core is who we are. If someone likes to take control of people, or play mind games, they are always going to do that. They may find more acceptable ways of doing it, but that character piece will always be there.
My problem at the time was that I sheltered myself from the world. I have a very loving and strong family would have kicked his ass, but I didn't let them help me, because I didn't want them to know. I had friends, but only a few, and I put that bastard above them. I let him have control, but once I journeyed farther into the world, and found more people like me, I could see that he didn't understand me at all, and that we actually didn't have anything in common. That spit was the last straw, lol.
This is definitely a delicate topic, and I guess if anyone is going to respond about their relationship issues, past or present, I would only post if your significant other is not on DGN.
This is meant to be a thread for support, and discussing other options if you're looking for a way out. We all deserve to be in an enjoyable, and healthy relationship. We don't have to take someone elses crap, endure their mind games, or get used by them.