TitsMcGee

Watching the Law and Order SVU marathon on USA, drinking hot spiced cider, and applying for a bunch of jobs from Michigan Talent Bank so I can get the fuck out of my sisters house.

Lies - Evanescence Bound at every limb by my shackles of fear Sealed with lies through so many tears Lost from within, pursuing the end I fight for the chance to be lied to again You will never be strong enough You will never be good enough You were never conceived in love You will not rise above They'll never see I'll never be I'll struggle on and on to feed this hunger Burning deep inside of me But through my tears breaks a blinding light Birthing a dawn to this endless night Arms outstretched, awaiting me An open embrace upon a bleeding tree Rest in me and I'll comfort you I have lived and I died for you Abide in me and I vow to you I will never forsake you They'll never see I'll never be I'll struggle on and on to feed this hunger Burning deep inside of me They'll never see I'll never be I'll struggle on and on to feed this hunger Burning deep inside of me Rest in me and I'll comfort you I have lived and I died for you Abide in me and I vow to you I will never forsake you They'll never see I'll never be I'll struggle on and on to feed this hunger Burning deep inside of me

I'm feeling like a stupid child thinking that a character out of a book is going to magically appear and make everything all better. Apparently I'm still a sucker for unimaginable love stories. I'm also lonely.

I'm a farm girl by birth so I'm pretty all purpose. I sew, weave, croquet, I know how to make butter although it take a long ass time. Dad made a still to make gas for the cars, I say water it down and sell it as moonshine lol. I also chop fire wood.

ain't that the truth

Frustrated, because I've been putting out so many job applications and I haven't heard anything back. I need to make enough to be able to support myself so I can get out of my sisters house before I kill her.

Well I would be rather flattered if you were coming onto me because you're a cutie.

I'm still as upset and angry as I was when I left my sisters place. You'd think the 3.5 hour drive north would have helped me calm down, but it didn't. In the morning my mother is going to give me the same song and dance about how I'm being to hard on my sister and blah blah blah. It hasn't even been a year since her husband killed himself and she's engaged to someone she's know less than 5 months. She only needs to put up with me till the end of the semester because then I'm gone, I refuse to play this game anymore. For her to say that she doesn't feel safe leaving her kids with me is a fucking joke, and cruel one at that, since the only reason I moved in with her was to take care of her kids. Guess that makes me the stupid one seeing as no one in this family would EVER give up their plans to help me if I needed it.

I feel like I'm going to my moms for a few days since apparently my sister doesn't trust me with her kids now. I fuck up one time and I'm the worst person in the world.

like there is a good chance I'm going to be homeless soon.

We already knew you were completely off your rocker

I feel like the changing of seasons has brought on a new batch of insomnia. I'm also worried about some friends and family who are having a hard time right now. I wish I could help fix it. I feel like I'm going to run into my ex fiance the next time I'm at city because he messeged me saying he was going to look for me on halloween since he knows its my favorite holiday. I'm not looking forward to running into said ex. I'm kinda annoyed because my sister keeps asking if I'm going to have a boyfriend for her wedding next year, I know I'm intuitive but I'm not psychic. I wish I could communicate better with someone inparticular, or at least I wish we were able to get our feeling out in the open so things weren't so confusing. Finally, I have a headache from reading the subtitles while watching Sailor Moon.

Well in the last 4 days I've read ~Eclipse by Stephenie Meyer ~Breaking Dawn by Stephenie Meyer ~Untamed by P.C. and Kristin Cast and ~Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte I am now all out of new books which kinda sucks. Any suggestions?

yes and no...i dont know

Dude...I've gotten the same messeges from him the past few years I am feeling quite off today with dizzy spells and such. And I'm quite lonely and just wish I had someone hold me tonight.

I'm assuming that there would be something going on that city that night, or at least there really should be with it being a goth club and all.

Suicide Note - Stone Sour So close but so far away Never wanted this anyway If yesterday brings a better tomorrow I'm never gonna see the day And I, I am leaving home And if I never return You don't have to remember me My heart is broken My scars split open So this knife will be my god And take me from this world And I, I am leaving home And if I never return You don't have to remember me Take me from this world Take me from this pain Take me by the hand Make it go away And I, I am leaving home And if I never return You don't have to remember me And I, I am leaving home And if I never return You don't have to remember me No, don't have to remember You don't have to remember (2x) *I should probably say that since there have been two suicides in my family it is impossible for me to act on any thoughts I might have on the subject, so don't freak out on me.*