Honestly? I haven't been eating much of anything, my stress level is so high that I haven't been sleeping, and I've been having the urge to cut myself. Dad has been being so stubborn on the smoking thing and it's pissing me off because we don't have money to pay for them anymore, so we all have to quit. I feel almost useless because I'm not working and can't find a job up here. I'm depressed because I miss Charlie so much and just want him to be here to give me a hug. But now it's time to suck it up I guess..another night of sleeping on the couch because dad is asleep on his chair and we haven't been leaving him alone in case something happens.