deadcoldgothgirl

I'm really sleepy. I should go to bed. I'm also sad and stressed. I'm sad because I'm going back to school tomorrow night. I'm stressed because I still have to finish my photojournalism project, order my books and pray I get it before my homework is due, and do my reading/ paper before class on tuesday.

Why do you always have to go? I don't want you to go.

I'm really tired and annoyed I still have homework to do.

Please explain to me why my house is still over 100 degrees when it is cool outside and the windows are open. Wtf?

Lazy. I should be doing homework... But I don't wanna.

I'm really hot. But I'm also happy because I'm about to get some habatchi and sushi with my mom and best friend.

Mom you picked a hell of a time to not look into why the AC died until now. It's over 100 degrees in my house even with us trying to use fans to pull the hot air out.

I always over think things. I'm letting everything get to me at the moment when I should be thinking about fun stuff or doing homework.

I'm pissed. Background story: Things started out rocky with the student director of the school radio station I do some work at. When he sent out the schedules it looked like my shift was from noon until 1pm. I thought it was odd that my shift was only one hour, but I figured he did it that way because we must have had a major influx of people being trained this year that are going to want their own show. I just checked my email and I got bitched out for not staying my entire shift. He said that he showed up before three and I wasn't there. I should have stayed until my shift ended. He mentioned that he trusted me and I was very iresponsible. Excuse me? If I would have known my shift was until 3pm I would have stayed. How am I supposed to know my shift was longer if my name was only in one of the boxes with dividing lines? I replied back to him explaining the situation. If I don't hear from him by the time I get up and get moving around for the day, I am going to try and call him to talk everything out. I'm a mixture between pissed and nervious. I'm only nervious because I know I have to deal with this guy for the rest of the year and there is always tension in the air when I see him.

Why the hell is it so hot?

I'm feeling tired.

I'm in a really good mood at the moment.

I'm tired and hurty like.

These headaches really need to stop.

I feel tired. I got 4 hours of sleep. I have to send something out in the mail, eat, do homework, go to lab, and then do a project.

I have so much to do and so little time. Yet I stopped by here to breathe for a moment. Other thought... Get over yourself. My comment had nothing to do with you and you had to jump right in and attack me. Then you say I'm prejudiced and I don't care about education. Out of the five people I've talked to, they all agree that you are a b!tch and they want you gone. Put that in your pipe and smoke it.

I don't know how I feel. I just got out of class and I have to deal with someone trying to belittle me and then tell me it's my fault if I feel belittled.

I keep trying to tell myself to not worry about the drama or frustrations. I will be on my way home on friday at 1:30pm. Let's see if I can keep up that attitude and get everything done before then.

I need a few heavy drinks, a bat, and a plane ticket to new york to see someone... I also really don't want to go to class until 9 tonight.

I'm still mad. This chick wants to argue the point that I was attacking her. No dummy. It was a joke with a person of the same ancestry as you. Get over yourself. And some how she flipped it around to be an attack on women. What? He was talking about his male parts.

I'm really pissed. Several months ago I was really upset and drunk. I was feeling really low so I went looking through my phone. I ended up finding a short clip video I made with one of my friends four years ago that was supposed to be a stupid joke. I posted on fb thank god for good friends and funny videos when you need them and I quoted the main line. I'm only repeating the line so you all have a better understanding. He is also Puerto Rican. This girl on my other forum was one of my friends on there at the time. She is Puerto Rican and took offense to it. I didn't realize I had offended her. I tried to apologize and she never answered me. The other forum just added a thread about things that could be taken offensive to other people. She desided to post that on there. Really? I said I was sorry and I was drunk. I didn't mean to offend you. So why are you going to start crap? Mind you this woman is super into herself and talks crap about her "friends and family."

I'm getting really tired. Homework is starting to feel like a pebble getting really big.

I wonder when chelsi is going to be showing up to the apartment... Normally she would be back by now.

I wonder how things are going to work out. My roommate told me last night that if she can't work something out in the financial aid office, she will have to drop out of college and break her lease in our apartment. I wonder what they told her. I wonder if they even gave her an answer today or told her to come back another day.

I can't believe sometime this week or next week I'm going to be an aunt. It seems so weird.