deadcoldgothgirl

I wonder how this conversation is going to go. He is supposedly coming over while I'm sleeping. That doesn't equal good understand and conversing skills.

I'm feeling awesome. The ren fest was wet, but sweet.

I feel tired. Yet I'm also excited to go corset shopping today.

I don't understand why I can't get up at 11. I'm too tired. I woke up at 9 am and felt awake, but when I tried to sleep in until 11 am I couldn't get up.

I'm feeling ok. I'm not really super happy or super upset. I'm blah.

I keep eating. I shouldn't keep eating, but the food is so nummy and I go back to a eating schedule monday.

I feel like someone is walking all over my heart and not coming here to work things out.... Oh wait...

I need to go do something fun. My vacation is almost over and I need to stop sitting around.

Eyes burning. Need sleep.

I went to my fiances work. I was just asking if they knew where he was because I couldn't find him. I accidentally let it slip who I am. I freaked out the waitress because none of them know me. He has always kept his work life and social life private. Then again I've been with him for almost two years and I don't know any of his friends or family. He called me last night on a blocked number asking why I was talking shit at coney. I told him I wasn't talking shit. He then told me he would talk to me when I was alone because my friend was over. I don't know when I am going to hear from him or how. I know I didn't do anything wrong. Yet I know this isn't going to be easy.

Cold. Empty. Scared. Angry. Calm.

Cold. Empty. Scared. Angry. Calm.

What has been said is done. This isn't over. I lit the flame. I'm waiting to watch it burn. I'm sure at the end of this things wont be pretty.

I'm a little bored and a little tired.

I will try. I guess I'm just going to have to walk up to people and say hi I'm blah blah blah. I'll try to find you next time I'm there though. You didn't come off wrong at all. I was just saying my main locations in case anyone wanted to know. When I first get there I sit in that corner with a drink. Then I watch people dance until it gets busy. Then I walk around the DGN corner for a bit before I start dancing. Before the dancing the drinks and I become friends. I'm sorry if I came off snippy.

Soo much food.

If by hide in some secret hidey hole you mean sitting around in plain view where everyone can see me but yet no one talks to me unless I'm with Alyssa in the bathroom while she is puking... Then you are right. While I'm there you can either find me sitting on the benches on the right passed the bar, sitting in the DGN corner, Sitting in the dance room or dancing, at the bar getting alcohol goodness, or in the basement for a smokey treat. It is also physically possible for me to be standing in those locations. But I am always there. Watching. Waiting. Wondering. Staring. I'm sure I will meet everyone eventually. I just find it is hard to know faces when a lot of people on here don't have their pictures. But such is the way of the interwebs. Time to do things the old fashioned way

I'm tired and my tummy hurts. I'm also kinda hungry. I think my tummy hurts either because I'm hungry, or subconciously if I eat it will make me feel better. Now I just need brittany to show up for lunch.

Brittany better get here soon. I haven't seen her in forever and that girl has a problem with never being on time.

I'm trying to figure out if I'm actually spending time with my friend tonight or if she is just going to sit here and complain that she doesn't know what she wants to do. I also should call my sales director.

Stop wasting my time. I break off other plans for you and then you just say you don't know what you wana do and complain.

I'm aggrivated.

I can haz friends? Yay. I really would like to get to know who all of you are so when I walk in I'm not staring at a sea of random faces. I guess that would also help for you all to get to know me and build a closer bond to everyone on here.

I'm about to go get my mom and cousin then see the last harry potter movie. This should be sweet.

Why does everyone want to cram time in to see me now instead of spreading it out over the two weeks I was here?