Wow Troy, I am glad that you shared.
I had no idea. I've caught little pieces of your story over the last couple of years, and tried to piece it together to see the whole picture...but now I see.
And understand.
I am sorry you feel so badly/sickly.
I don't know what you can do. But I see you do see that being off of them makes you feel better for a little while.....
Then BAM.....withdrawals.
Can you do a gradual detox? Like take less and less over a period of time??? Even a few weeks?
Perhaps that will take some of the shock off of your body?????
IF you can that is...like I said, I don't know your conditions.....
I do know I had to get off of Pain meds once, and it was not great.