KatRN05

A lot of things. I'm angry that my friend has cancer and has to go through chemo as it is her only option. I'm fucking sick and tired of people telling me "Well, I hate to tell you this but with her cancer as advanced as it is, she probably won't make it for very long"...as if I didn't already fucking know. As if, I haven't been a nurse for 9 fucking years and seen many patients die from cancer. As if, the person talking to me was a fucking cancer expert. Fuck off. Do you really think telling me that my friend is going to die is going to make me feel any better? Really? Fuckers. Stupid motherfuckers!!

About to get ready to see Nick Cave tonight!!

My best advice to you is to keep it simple. There is so much in the way of dieting and you should do this or that in this country, it's disgusting. Losing weight doesn't have to be hard. Cut out all the processed shit, eat more veggies/fruits, ditch the soda (even diet soda), drink more water and exercise (cardio and weights).

Yesterday, I went to open WoD. I didn't do anything crazy. I ran/walked a mile. I did front squats and push press with a 70lb bar. I worked on clean and snatch. After that, I went to Krav Maga conditioning class. We did a lot of striking combinations then front kicks and knees and lots of running. I feel like my lungs go more of a workout.

A yellow bell pepper with spinach/parmesan dip.

Kickboxing tonight. Weights tomorrow.

Yesterday, I went to CrossFit. We did a 20 minute skill set involving snatches. We had a short WoD. 30 snatch/squat then 5 burpees for every minute past 2 minutes...I ended up doing 15 burpees. It wasn't the hardest WoD. Also, walked around a museum for four hours. Today is rest and recovery. Going for a bike ride.

Open WOD: Warm-up: short run 5x5 Shoulder press Australian pull ups Bench press (with a 35lb plate) Going to Krav Conditioning, It's mostly cardio but I need it.

You're right. Not sure why I let one person get me down. Thank you.

Why am I always the undateable girl? Not sure where I go wrong. I'm sick of guys thinking it's okay to tease and flirt and fuck with my feelings.

Butt and legs hurt so it's a rest day. Back at it tomorrow for open WOD.

Forgot about yesterday's workout. I rowed 1,000 m. Front squats 5x5 with a starting weight of 50lbs and increasing that to 80lbs. Also, I worked on the hang clean and the clean. My wrists are sore.

I can't complain. Got a new job last year that I love and it's at a new hospital. Coworkers are awesome. Pay and benefits are great.

I'm pretty sure today's bike ride will be 10 miles.

Some people never learn.

Made green juice again. Spinach, pineapple, apple, cucumber and a tiny bit of ginger.

Green juice. Less Kale, no ginger....not too bad...

Bought a juicer and made juice. Pineapple, strawberries, apple, cucumber, kale, spinach and ginger.

meh..can't stop thinking and worrying about my friend..

Feeling kind of hopeful. I've been reading articles about stage 4 cancer and how people have been in remission after chemo and juicing.

I'm posting my feelings here because I didn't want my friend to see them. I was just informed a couple hours ago that her cancer is advanced and has spread to her lungs and ovaries as well as other organs. Chemo at this point is the only option and it's only going to buy her a little more time but it will not be effective enough to treat all of the cancer. I've been crying on and off. This isn't fucking fair.

My calves are so tight. I need to stretch more.

Spring mix salad with avocado and Japanese sesame dressing.