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Dude 🤣 he really did this shit!

My boss asked me if I wanted to be a manager. I'm like 💯 so we shall see.

Is she ok?

Got into an argument with my coworker yesterday because she started saying, well the first thing she was talking about was how I need to stop telling people that their access information for ebooks are on their receipt and I actually questioned myself because we have different ebook providers and I thought maybe I was confused so I thought about it and I'm like, no it is on the receipt because I just had a student come in who told me they didn't want the receipt but he came back and was like oh yea I guess I need it to access my account, so I went to confirm it with the manager and she said yea, I was correct than, my coworker started saying that I be making people get there receipts emailed to them abd I was like no, if they're paying with financial aid they are required to do email reciepts and her and my other coworker are laughing saying no, only if they get large items like a computer and I knew that they were wrong so I went back to confirm with manager and said well can you let them know because they don't think they are supposed to ask for email and if its like required for federal money accounting that its important so again, Danielle comes out to reaffirm the policy and Danielle is the sweetest boss ever btw so she doesn't ever sweat or seem mad, anyway my coworker going to call me a snitch and say she never was going to tell me anything again, I fucking was like are you really going to think I'm a snitch when I just needed clarity and we ain't on the street we're at work and she's like oh you trying to say that I belong on the street? I froze like wth, no I said but you know where im from so that's not appropriate to call me a snitch at work so she's like yea, we know you do everything right, and rolls her eyes, and at one point I was like this is stupid were at work and I walked away crying because I felt like she was attacking my character and wasn't going to be reprimanded because our boss is super swee. I went outside and when I came back I was like I don't think I can work with her so I don't think I can work here anymore but she's like give it 24 hours first and I said ok, in hindsight I realized how it looks snitchy and my coworker texted me and apologized, I actually called her,, she was crying and opened up to me about alot more and it's because we do actually like have a friend like dynamic so it was actually more of a hurt feelings thing on both ends.. She said don't let my immature bitch ass make you quit..and she starts dogging herself and I said this is why I think we actually get along because you remind me of myself and I didn't mean to seem snitchy it came off wrong and I was off because my stupid pms yesterday and my boss mentioned my cousins funeral that I went to this weekend so yea, I was not my best but now I'm embarrassed to go to work! 😭

I hope the bus actually shows up tomorrow. Last week I was stranded at transfer spot, driver was out and no staff to cover apparently. The week before, bus started losing power and shut down, luckily it was ok after a few minutes.

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I think this was the worst one yet. If I could go back to 2009ish and warn myself that I was about to get the shit knocked out of me emotionally because I wasn't going to be able to get over the heart shattering, soul eating mind fuck that was about to begin. I can't fix this. Even when I feel great emotionally, even when I can put it in the back of my mind and that's probably when the dream comes because I'm suppressing my thoughts and feelings about it. It's still killing me. I was actually a decent human being at one point but now I'm broken down completely. Life is not a game and people shouldn't use someone for their amusement or whatever, boredom, or, idfk. I hate what I have become but I'm terrified of truly being exposed by the things that won't let me let go because I am ashamed of myself for my feelings. I am disgusted by myself truly. I don't even feel like a human anymore. I wish I could explain it right.

These dreams have to stop. They are so random but every time I wake up my heart feels absolutely shattered again and I can't shake the sad feeling that lingers from it. I been doing better emotionally but when this dream hits me and all I want to do is break down.

She makes me question my sexuality. https://youtube.com/playlist?list=RDwDjeBNv6ip0&playnext=1

People don't even get to know each other anymore why would I want to try that again? Screw it. I'm good. I'm so good.✌ I'm too old for that bs anymore.

Everyone out in the world of online dating is probably sleeping with each other and that's gross. They all sharing monkey pox, herpes, warts, and gonorsyphilmydia. 🤮🤢

Lol! Yeass! Informative murder porn🤣💯

Just accept yourself. It's so enlightening. If people don't like it they weren't meant for your life in the first place.

Ohhh. Duh! Of course.

So sleepy now.

And kool aid..from Walmart so probably great value aid?

What is that green thing by my pic? Is that a booger, do I have a booger on my profile frame?

If my ex husband is already working on a third wife I'm going to buy myself a ring and pick up some rando off the street and pay them in like crackcoin. I'll cook em Ramen and meth every night. Like a good wife should.

About half a row 🤣 It's the thick chocolate cream middle for me. I dipped a couple in my coffee, probably why I can't sleep but milks not my thing.

The grocery store is depressing.

That darn Kebler Elf!

Irrelevant.

Lonely.

I wuvs Tron. She's the bestest.

I don't really like watching interrogations so I probably won't watch this fully. They're kinda slow moving and boring to me.