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I am very interested i going. Depends on my plans for September and whether I will be in town or not.

I went as I was on the guest list and was shooting pictures right on stage for Razorblade Society! It was a great show! We were all first to hear their new material for their 4th upcoming album.Thanks to Jackie Allen who gave me a last second lift after the car broke down and I couldn't rent one and hope you enjoyed the concert!!! It was sooo damn hot there tho so my makeup melted off I brought my sis in law and shes now obsessed to Rainbow. She followed the poor dude around and he even got her a gift from their tour bus and gave her one of his well used fingerless wrist/arm warmers Oh I was given a free ticket to Apocalyptica tonite. Not sure if I am going to that. Anyone who wants to really go see them though can have it.

YAAAY If anything MTV should just make a whole classic MTV channel. And play all the cool shit. like this

there was no whining just drunken slurred nonsense. I dont even remember as my mind is stoned and intoxicated. How do bulls drive cars? They Steer them. potato chips what Im trying to say here is plastic bag plastic bag plastic bag who likes cheese? Im proud to be the home of a wacked chromosome

Really bad photoshop job. I still love it tho!

errrrr k. well never mind then it was all light hearted banter not at all am I taking away from anyones glory. mighty wasabi eater. I came had fun met new people and I just suck at finding the right words and way to express myself as humorously as everyone else. Maybe I over anaylise things when I talk and type and try too hard to be careful which backfires. Can I get away with the exscuse Im drunk? I havnt stopped drinking since MANFAST (I know this will raise a few eyebrows) um yeah Im not an alcoholic or becoming one just Im weak willed with the sauce and theres been a party here since I got home so Im talking out my ass haha! Plus my birthday cake had black icing and it looked like I ate death and he necrotized my insides and what came out the other end looked like the insides of a long dead corpse. ROFL That was random. Well I best stop typing or Im gonna continue saying stupid things. Blargy snargle worf

Ok never mind my last post somehow i garbled things up lol In my usual fashion I suck at blogging and posting on boards um I came and had lots of fun and met new people. It rocked

AWESOME AVATAR pic see thats why Jay did not make an appearance at MANFAST!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0zQNNnTWufo&feature=related

I have video ready if anyone wants to see. Just a clip of Reav running at the rope and some MANFAST cooking going on. Yeah and the Bear Jew in his loin cloth wandering around as this is going on lol

I make a great looking guy lol

I know I did not. It was rather dark and no one was prepared for all that ass and tits.

Hopefully you like I can relax and enjoy our birthdays recovering from the alcohol and food we ingested and everyones garbage we picked up sunday when they split. Those were not nice birthday gifts lol. Had a great time and thank you again!

Nathan Explosion and Silent Bob came to Manfast with The Fiary Gothmother. Nathan was embarrassed that his black shirt was in the wash and his white tshirt was not brutal enough for Manfast. Once Silent Bob came in things changed. Even among the presence of the mighty Bear Jew and Black Jack now dubbed Black Truck his mere presence spewed out manliness. He did not need to speak or wear a loin cloth or bleed or bash in Nazi skull. Silent Bob just needed some alcohol some good pot and some text books. He began to slack because we all know Silent Bob is a fat lazy slob and Jay pist him off cause he was too much of a pussy to do manfast. Oh and well Silent Bob was drunk and stoned in Silent Bob fashion. Yeah he gained a few pounds too so eating meatwhiches and bacon smores would have given him a heart attack. Still points and places dont matter to Silent Bob. He knows he is more than manly enough. lol. I had a great time seeing you all and meeting you all. Lots of good times and memories and fun. I am suffering from this and I discovered upon taking my bath to clean the weekends man grime off a large amount of bruises and bites. Thanks Chernobyl for getting me! Happy birthday to you and me yay!

Chernobyls here at my place getting me. gonna be a aprty tonite! Ok well see you all there tomorow!

Happy Birthday!!!!

I feel pretty oh so pretty I feel pretty and witty and gay I feel awesome despite having little sleep, not much to eat, sore aching body and feet and drinking a bit past few days. It must be cause I am in love and things are going good for me right now. So many new and exciting things going on!

Haha yeah we had a great time so if your ever up for another night of city holler! Glad you had a good time your first night!

oh heres a one to ponder. After gastric bypass when you lose most your weight and have a tummy tuck they actually ask if you want to keep your belly button or not? How weird would it look without a belly button.

Dracula Dead and loving it! I dunno I think it was hillarious! Leslie Neilson is always a hoot so his dracula spoof was funny enough.I just love when he says "Reinfield you asshole!!!" when he bursts into flames cause renfield totally bathes him in sunlight! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TG2A_uyozJU&feature=related Blood the last vampire i did see it and i watched the anime series. The action was good and I am pretty sure it followed closely to the animated version. tho anyone who actually watched the series might think wtf cause it saya is very different from the cute innocent little girl she was portrayed as in the series. Its more about the past saya when she was hardcore and knew who she was completely and what her objectives were.

Im with exspliff tonite. I believe he has decided on tonite!

Well I know its not much and I am actually working on this. Its possibly cause as recently I been doing alot of fasting. My doctor is aware that I have IBS and that I have a lack of appetite. I have been trying to actually eat a little bit more lately. I for dinner had a chicken fajita and could barely eat the whole thing. I had a few tortilla chips with it. I think I did well today and had around 1000 calories with my fruit juice and fajita. Its just so easy for me not to even both eating. I dont get hunger pains and usually it takes my mom or someone nudging me or sticking something in front of me lately. A few weeks ago I went like 4 solid days without eating. Not that I am doing this on purpose. I am surely not trying to starve myself. I know thats not the right way to lose weight. Though I will admit I have a insecurity about eating especially in front of people due to being overweight. the stigma attached to being obese and being harassed, picked on, rejected and even treated badly by my own father may be part of this.All things that I need to work on in being healthy in mind and body. I am working on finding that balance. Part of the reason I also dont eat is at times when I am going through a manic episode I cant sleep either and with the mood stabilizers I am on it makes me lose hunger. I have talked to my doctor and psychiatrist both about these things and its just something that has to be monitored and worked on. I guess maybe blogging on here or talking to people about my own experiences could possibly help. I only guess the main thing in past was a small worry of being judged and ridiculed by opening up about my struggle with weight loss as even in the scene it seems like people can be a bit harsh and just as mean and nasty to larger people. I try not to let it get to me and usually just accept the fact it is what it is. People are ignorant and think they make themselves feel good by mocking others for imperfections. I dont want to be thin to gain acceptance. I pretty much make up for my size with having a great personality and my talents. I dont have too much trouble finding nice and attractive guys to date. I just want to be healthy and be able to enjoy a long healthy life and not be limited on what i can do. Its embarrassing when your so big you cant go on some rides, or feeling knackered and worn out faster than a average person when doing alot of physical activity. I hate it when I wanna dance the night away but its hard to do cool dance moves or dance as long as I want without taking breaks to sit down. I also dont wanna be limited or ripped off in my clothing selection and style. Big clothes cost more $$ due to more materials used. Not to mention styles are so limited and wearing things that are flattering to ones shape and body not trying to pull something I may really like off and looking like a fat hippo in a tutu lol. So its something I guess I wanna talk about and hopefully get some support and help with reaching my goals. I always rely so much on myself for fear of being ridiculed or rejected. I been a very self reliant person most my life. If I want it done right i will do it myself kind of things and having a impatience with things going slow. so since Im starting a new life now since my divorce and wiping the slate clean and working more on myself I am going to share my thoughts, struggles and journey.

Well the listed films are of course awesome! I also like dracula 2000 wes craven put a different twist to it making out drac was traitor Judas.. The underworld series was ok. Kate Beckinsale is hot. Lost boyz fan here too the new one sucked ass! I am a huge Ann Rice fan so naturally I also enjoyed the films. Albeit Queen of the damned was a hack job and as a loyal fan of the book I was disgusted in the film adaption tho it is what it is. the characters were stylish and the soundtrack was decent. I just had hoped they didnt screw things up. Like for one Marius being Lestats sire. the love story with Lestat and Jesse which never existed and Akashas death and leaving out her world wide campaign to destroy men. I could go on and on but I wont lol Even though I love vampires I never seen much of true blood or vampire diaries. I didnt even get into Buffy. I guess these big tv franchises or sitcoms whatever dnot really interest me much. Brams Dracula will always be a beloved favourite. I have read and seen twilight I dont HATE it but I dont particularly like it. I thought I would give it a chance. Anything vampire related I usually do. I gave the tv shows I mentioned a look. they just never grabbed my attention. The funny thing I laugh about with the Twilight series is this whole team edward and jacob shit. I mean most these fans all know who wins in the end and so why pick the losing team? tho I guess its just a fan based thing. Its just dumb when u sit in the movie theatre and girls yell NOOO! or cry cause the guy whos not getting the girl gets shafted ya know. Also the sparkling thing just lame and the fact these vampire practically break apart like stone. Theres barely any blood and guts or gore. So a little blood seen when someone human gets hurt but the wolves and vamps no blood. I was hoping in Eclipse with these big battles to see some fucking shit getting ripped up and instead vampires being smashed and torn apart like rock and caught on fire. No guts no glory I say. Oh and they dont have fangs! Its all about the fangs baby! theres way worse vamp films out there. Heck I cant even remember the names of a few I seen. They were pretty lame. One was more about a girl with a psychological disorder reinsfield or something and she victimized her friend in the mental hospital and her shrink. Went as far as putting his poodle in a food blender which was sick and drinking it with chunks of poodle and hair in the pitcher In the end he ends up locked in her moms basement with a valve in his neck and her mom sticks a dtraw in him like a juice box for her daughter to fee on him. Weird. Another bad one was half the time 2 lesbian chicks one being a vampire having sex half the time and was shot documentary style. Was supposed to be based on a true story or some weird shit. I seen the vampires assistant. More of a kids films. Well it was based off pre teen teen books so that was to be expected. It had a couple fun moments. But when it comes right down to it the classics will be the best. Not much of a blade fan. Any film where vampires are beastly and ugly not into either. I always been more attracted to the sexy elegant side. A master of seduction and with alot of class and mystery. So thats one reason I probly am more of a Ann Rice fan. just after a snack so sexy

Ok well I guess I might as well start posting on here my weight loss efforts. I see my doctor monthly for weight consul and mainly this is due to the fact I am pursuing surgery. However the past 2 months I managed to drop over 20 pounds. My next doctors appointment is this month and I will see if I am still progressing around the 10 pounds a month mark. For me my diet is simple. Alot of water, some juice and very little to no soda or sugary beverages, alcohol and energy drinks. I have always done well with that. Food wise well firstly I usually cannot afford food. My budget for monthly grocery shopping is around $100 a month. This is the last month I will be splitting my budget with ex. I agreed to help him only one last month food wise since he moved out without a hassle. Even so an $100 a month increase only means more juice, tea and vegetables for me that I can finally afford. On a average I eat 150-800 calories a day. I also fast at times. Part of this is due to my IBS Irritable Bowel Syndrome. With my digestive system being so delicate now its easy to upset things by eating anything too fatty or sugary and causing me to have a lousy day stuck on and off the toilet. Plus the medications I am on for treating bipolar, borderline personality disorder and ADD take my appetite away as well so cravings for anything or having a strong desire to eat is not there. I am very happy with myself. 6 months ago I was 360 pounds. Now I have to take into account I have alot pf muscle. No one really believes me when I say I weight that much because proportionately i look 275 . I used to work out alot and bike 10 miles a day. Well anyways 6 months ago I was at my heaviest just about. This is after a long recovery from injurys to my foot and ankle. I now weigh around 300 and probly less because last time I was 310 when I weighed in. I have noticed and people have noticed my weight loss for sure. My face and neck are slimming down. My shoulders and arms. I noticed my chest and bust size are going down a lil bit uh oh! (i dont have a very big chest even for a large woman. Average C cup) i think one think that helps me is not to stress or dwell on my weight loss or activities. I just live a healthy lifestyle and do the best I can with what I have. I lost alot of weight before not ever able to reach my goal due to my metabolic disorder but I know I can do it again and when I have my surgery I wont have to struggle so much to fight weight gain. Oh I also know a cool site with a calorie calculator that you plug in a activity and amount of time you do it with your height and weight and it tells you how much calories are burnt. It even include moderate to vigorous sex lol. http://www.healthyweightforum.org/eng/calorie-calculator.asp?action=submit Check it out. good luck to everyone on their goals.