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pink pj bottoms with skulls and cross bones wearing lil ribbons, and a crappy old blue shirt for painting which I just finished doing.

This is how Im feeling. Alone, cold, and sad.

I had a look. I will ask him he has some cool pieces.Just depending on cost if its less expensive. If not this black one will do me fine. At least I know now who does all the glow-stick stuff. Hes pretty cool I will have to make his acquaintance one day. Trying to meet everyone and all.

naaaa. he does. I dunno why really. I think being from England he takes stereotypes in America too seriously. really. And well i have no clue what shes like in person and how she talks about things. She might be telling him god kows what. So when I talk to him he spits this garbage out as well as other dumb stereotypes about americans.I said whatever floats your boat. Im not whining. I find it quite amusing in a way. It shows his lack of social skills. He has for as long as I known zombified himself in front of tv. Alot of what he sees on tv he translates into real life.Silly movies and shows about life in high school, Something as stupid as a south park joke about goths, vampires and stuff for him are omg you americans! He truly believes alot of the shit he sees. Only thing that bothers me was how he knew full well before we split up and all how much I wanted to see this film. So even before I had plans made which fell through due to conflicting schedules, when he thought I was not going he said all that BS to irk me. I suppose in a small way it did only because I wanna see the film. The other crap about preps well I just laugh at the stupidity of it all. I think he just tries using it as ammunition when we argue and fight to piss me off or something. He believes theres such a rivalry or deep hatred between the 2 cliques that he can bug me by throwing stereotypes in my face.Well i am really tired and probly after blasting off more hot air and sticking my foot in my mouth even more in some way or another I am ready to take a nap. anyways who cares Alice in Wonderland looks awesome. I hope everyone who goes has alot of fun and enjoys it. I got to make a special gift for someones birthday coming up so I will be too busy anyways.

YAY I LOVE IT!!!! I MADE THAT WOO HOOO!!!!!

Yay!!! THANK YOU! it appears i need to downsize this image tho

i wanna go to midnight viewing. My ex rubbed it in my face hes going with his his quote exactly " My preppy girlfriend is taking me and her friends are going out to see it at IMAX for the midnight premiere" See hes dating a preppy girl and he thinks it will irritate me since I am goth.Said hes going to Abercrombie and hollister soon as well. I said ok be a douchebag and get ripped off for wearing a name on a shirt that you could get at kmart or walmart for $50 less but basically same thing. But unfortunately my plans fell through so Im not going. Im broke anyways so looks like I will just sit home. Oh well Have fun everyone that goes! I hate you all. no just joking.

Ok trying to figure these out. I made a signature. I just wanna knwo how you all add it and have the little quotes and add your myspace links and stuff.

I do have a crush and its a mutual thing. Hes coming here to see me. I probably known him as long as my ex but as a friend. I am so leary though even tho this dudes wayyyy cooler, social, funny, sensitive and well going out of his way to come here and party with me and show me a good time and cheer me up. Please tell me what you think? I am already pretty open and honest with him and so it seems the same vice versa. I wont rush into anything but I never really had anyone able to give me much of an opinion on the last guy. I know its just a short clip tho hes got more stuff and has even been on a tv game show. Meet Mike (Magus) which hopefully soon you will meet once they stop being gay about giving him a passport in his country lol. Its taking a bit log due to confusion on his origins of birth. he only had a adoption cert and not a original birth. He has no clue where he was born. Okay I rambled on enough he is Magus!

It doesnt really change my mind on having them much at the moment. Looks alot like Garbeldena tho.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh i love that! Hes Quagmire Quagmire giggidy giggidy GOO!

how do you get a tag and signature. I made a small thing for mine and would like a myspace and facebook add link can someone help me out here?

isnt he sooo cute!!!!! I love my killer bunny tattoo! Thats no ordinary rabbit!

Yeah see thats what I believe i will do. Be upfront and show them hey this is me. Because my ex husband and I kept learning more things about each other and well to our dissatisfaction those things clashed. The more open I became about my lifestyle and taste of music and style the more he tried to repress me. His idea in life was living a quiet lil life with little friends and little social life. Though things were bad he did at least do nice things like cook for me and stuff. But only because he could within our living space. Ahh he gave me my old passport. 8th of July 2004 I met him in England. I stayed until August 24th. I had a great time in England, but maybe I should have seen the warning signs back then. I was blinded by everything so being with a british guy that I guess I just let my guard down. Its not always easy to get my trust.I been let down so much in life by everyone. Well I guess now I can look past and get over the charm of people and look deeper into them. I will be upfront about myself. They will get to know me. Because now I am happy with who I am i life and I wont change it for anyone. I suppose I snuck these changes on him so I can see why he got all defensive. Oh well. Now I just hope that as time goes on when the right fella comes along we can both be upfront honest and say hey this is who I am.

I think it depends on the person so since your asking our thoughts heres mine. Because of my mental makeup and personality I tend to emotionally dependent on having someone in my life. Having borderline personality disorder if you read the symptoms shows an individual have a great fear of being alone. Yet they also can push people away. I do fear being alone. More now than ever when my 5 year marriage took a shit. Not having that comfort of someone to snuggle or be there to talk to me is very hard. When I am alone like in this situation I get paranoid, negative, pessimistic and even suicidally depressed. Its hard for me to cope with and I do my therapy and throw myself into things. But no amount of meds and coping skills can really change the fact that I am lonely and have no intimate partner I can just be with and let the world around us dissolve. Theres also different types of intimacy. So it depends how much of yourself you wanna open up. Do you feel comfortable with whoever your with knowing all your past? Do you feel comfortable sharing intimate details or sharing physical things like bedside mannerisms, kinks, fetishes, ect. I r am a open book. I like to openly communicate what I am all about. Due to the lack of it in my last relationship it fell apart as all the aspects of my life were changing into who I am today. I am learning to be more leary about my open book policy because a. it could give people wrong impressions g. could scare people, I guess really I wish I could be less dependant but I shall see what the world throws at me

oh crap that reminds me i got flashy raver bunny ears aorund here somewhere lol. must find them

I might be there. depends on if Im staying at a friends till that long.

These boots are on their way. but if I could fit these on my legs

Me and Garbeldena is going to see it near my town. Cant wait!

ooo for anyone who misses glosticks i been finding some great glowing pieces. check this ebay item out they look like fun cept i would like the gloves to be black.i guess u could wear gloves over them with fingertips cut off. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pYXP7ogs7lo&feature=player_embedded and this gas mask! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hba43LOCL6o&feature=player_embedded

i wonder why. i been trying different ones. hmmmm

Ok I thought it would be really fun for maybe a viral video and my own pages to put together a small simple skit. Heres the idea. You have a prep, jock, cheerleader, coporate person, angsty older 18ish teen, maybe just for fun a elderly or something. For now I wanna keep it with your main labeled normal type of people. So they are all in their siutations of life. The jock wants to maybe date a hot goth chick and really hates sports and wants to rebel against his football obsessed father. The cheerleader loves hhorror flicks and zombies and unlike the other girls on the squad she would rather be wearing mini skirts and outfits that are not so CHEERY!.The preppy person is arguing with parents as they yell at them for liking dark music and strange thigs and not let him or her be who they want because it might ruin getting into a good college and ect... So we cue in a industrial version of bibbidy bobbidy boo or something and film first the skipping fet in big platform boots than the goggles and hair and back with wings. I transform them each into a goth and turn a weird vehicle into a hearse.They all as they walk into club turn around in unision and say Thank you We love you Faiy Gothmother. lo. I just think it would be fun!

Yeah using a ear piece will be a tiny bit better but it was proven on mythbusters when they did a few tests one while under influence of alcohol and one while takling on phone . The person on the phone drove worse than the person under the influence. C'mon the mythbusters here I dont think you can argue with them. but texting that really irks me. My ex does it all the time. I keep telling him he better knock it off especially if I am in the car and he tells me to shut the fuck up my voice is more distracting and i will get him into a accident. He even textxs while roads are bad. Well I hope the police get his ass good.Cause i really hate hearing his constant mario theme go off when his lil preppy girly friend texts him. They never actually talk on the phone and have meaningful conversations. I got nothing wrong with texting but they do it for hours solid and you hear this mario theme go off every minute and you wanna rape him with the cellphone and goomba!

I keep seeing a blank thing but i have been changing it. is mine broken?