the_fairy_gothmother

thank you Pomba. I am going away a few days. Need to get away from here. Have to figure out what I am gonna do in my life .

Well while I am in this depressed mood this sort of cheered me up. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1FY_z2-3dLk

Thats the question of the day for me. How am I feeling? I feel like my entire being is torn to shreds. The cold emptiness inside me eats away at my sanity. I feel unloved, unapreciated, unworthy of life. I feel like a waste of space. I was born to suffer from the begining. My life nearly ended as it was begining. Every person I ever knew has either abandoned, hurt, neglected, rejected or turned on me. Though I keep soldiering on. I keep stiching the pieces of my torn life back together. There are times when I think my destruction would just be much easier. Despite my beliefs its easy to think of the peace that could come if it were all done. I am a miserable wretch. I probly put more people off being my friend or liking me because of my eccentric and strange ways. Then when someone shows a little kindness I cling on for dear life and get worried and scare them off. I have been socially isolated. thats why I stay in the shadows. the goth life is for me because I am a lonesom creature in a cold dark world. PEople now days dont give a shit.They watch others die and it is merely entertaining. Im not talking fake hollywood stuff. Thing is im tired. I am sick, tired, worn out right at this point close to throwing in the towel. My relationship at the moment well my marriage is dissolving. Its been on and off and now upon the time of my 5th anniversary in Feb I am being told its not working out anymore. the relationship is mutual for survial, friendship and some companionship. Do our own thing, and nevermind the promisess broken, the heartbreak, the time, the blood, the everything. I nearly moved on before but that was ruined whether or not it was for my own good I was tortured by making the choice to move on. when I did he dragged me back and pleaded not to leave him. He loved me and wanted us forever. Now when I finally let him back in he gives me news that we are too different. We repel each other. Oh how cruel the world is to me! Stricken with physical and mental maladies from birth, tortured, beaten, raped and abused. I gave my all and I have nothing left. I live with my parents in a shithole. I have no car, no job, no life. I keep fooling myself and thinking it will get better but I turn around and then the dagger takes another swift swipe. I have bled and cried all that I can. I feel like a empty and cracked shell. A vessel ready to shatter so badly nothing can be done but to sweep it up and dispose of it. I dont know what to do or what to think. I guess thats my fate. My destiny. The sooner its over the better I guess.

I WANNA GOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!! The Fairy Gothmother must be here!!!! Her mundane husband refuses to take her so i will need a substitute date!

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Why certainly and the plus side is we live very close yay!!!! I am getting my goth falls and goggles in very soon so I will let you know!

Last film I seen in the theatres was avatar I believe. Before Avatar New Moon. I have not really rented anything lately. I rented District 9 I seen it at the theatre too. I thought it was cool.

Thank you. Well designing your own is great but it can be just as expensive as buying designer even designer goth lol. Tripp costs quite a bit. but I hope this forum will be a great place for bbwgs andpeople who admire them to talk about it. I am glad being that the gothic community is more acceptable of whatever type of shape or zie color you are. Thats one thing I think that sets our community far above the rest is our acceptance of others. So I can relax and be myself.I also figured if people are gonna stare at me might as well give them more to stare at lol.

thank you very much. I am selling some of these for whoever is interested.

My new years resolution is to make new friends and get a stable job and move out of my parents house.

Another fun one of me with fangs! coming soon my own fairy gothmother signatre!

Thank you this will come in very handy!!!!!

I got it from Torrid. Thats old like 3-4 years. I am in need of a ardrobe upgrade.

Another high school painting I did with poster paints

Some more photoshop fun I maed for a tattoo campaign i had

This was an illustration I created for a design contest. By the way the company name on the bottom is mine. Eye Candy Graphics USA please feel free to visit my site. it needs a bit of updating because I have more samples of work to put up as of yet.

I like star wars so of course when the new one came out episode one I decided to recreate an interesting creature. Heres Sebulba the podracer. Done in colored pencils. this was from 9th grade.

I would be a michigander without a little bit of nautical art

This little oil painting which I donated to my local library was inspired by a starbucks stuffed animal I bought. Me with my fetish for owls lol.

I had this poster so I decided to draw it

I never colored her but I drew this ages ago from Zelda.

More pottery fun

Things dont seem to be balanced well for pooh and friends

I think they spotted a woozel!