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I am launching my social sphere for my Youtube Channel. I will be vlogging, blogging, sharing art and creations, tutorials, reviews, and my own adventures. I have been working on the social mediums all attached to the Fairy Gothmother. To follow me here are the links https://twitter.com/CathrineWendt https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC29o_1eYO58ZY5AoBXhB52w https://www.facebook.com/The-Fairy-Gothmother-1645132839040849/?notif_t=page_fan https://www.instagram.com/thefairygothmother/ http://fairygothmothercat.tumblr.com/

I also use sound. nature sounds and thunderstorms really soothe me. I have been trying to be less reliant on chemicals. I know they are no good over long periods of time for our bodies. I really am trying to put more natural things in my body.

M'era Luna 2012 so far. I been to many a great concert but M'era Luna was overwhelming. A gothic festival with so many acts and my favorite artists packed into a weekend plus all the other awesome goth stuff is heaven! Last year I could not attend WGT fully but I am this year and I bet that will over take M'era Luna though its a tough call because this years M'era Luna line up is pretty freaking amazing! http://www.meraluna.de/en/

not single item but a few. Arggghhh I need to find ways to make some money. With my dress theres a few pieces I am looking at I would love to get my hands on! These Etsy pieces from Hysteria Machine are gorgeous but out of my price range. 200-312 €

Tired. Hard at work on the apartment. Been tearing the old wallpaper down on one wall in the living room. It would not be so hard if it were not for having a short ladder and 10 ft tall ceilings. XD Hopefully we can get everything finished Wednesday. Pooped!!!

As luck would have it she has worked out a lovely low cost payment plan for me and the top outfit is going to be mine! I now will be making my headpiece to wear since the ones on Etsy are pricy. I am so excited for WGT this year!

I think aside from the weight I am looking fabulous! Got my present from mom some awesome Jeffrey Star liquid to matt black weirdo lipstick.

love the background with the baroque damask pattern. I am wallpapering one of my walls with a black on black Victorian damask. :D

Thanks everyone. Yeah Tron I suppose its adorable. Its a baby skull hehe. But I appreciate the kind comments :D I am in a creative mode right now. Hoping to also sell some prints and originals soon. I want to be fully prepared for the festivals! I am working with a dress maker who makes gothic dresses and shes allowing me to make small payments on it over time and reduced the price because she knows I do not have a whole lot of money. It was very kind of her. I will post the outfit in the fashion thread. Its gorgeous! Now I also need to make more stuff to sell so I can get one of the headpieces I seen on Hysteria Machines Etsy. Either horns or a stained glass crown. :D I want my husband and I dressed well for a small vow ceremony to commemorate our marriage with some friends. We will have a wedding one day but maybe a handfasting ceremony or something with our friends would be nice since we never had anyone part of our marriage. I am pretty excited and feel a surge of creativity and inspiration. I love living in Leipzig Germany.

This past week has been very sad in the music world first with Lemmy from Motorheads passing shortly after his birthday and a cancer diagnosis and then David Bowie who had been battling cancer. I am sitting here crying despite not ever knowing or meeting them because these legends impacted my life. I grew up with them and they are both part of one of the best generations of music the world has ever seen. They can never be replaced especially by todays craptastic shallow pop and Kunstprodukts. Lemmy was a rockstar but it is known how he was all about his fans and treated everyone respectfully. They just do not make talent like that. Now we got Bieber and Kanye and other shit acting like fame puts them above all. But you Lemmy you were not some perfect pretty boy pleasing the labels but rocking out and had you still been alive even with cancer I believe you still would have rocked at as many gigs as you could stand up to do. That was just how you were and it was your passion. Your quick passing is how you would have wanted. Not suffering and sick. Born to live live to win 1945-2016. David Bowie my beloved Ziggy star dust and Jareth the Goblin King that had me thinking why the hell did Sarah not take him up on his offer? I would have danced in that masquerade with him forever! I grew up listening to you on the radio and my dad played your vinyls. I was so fortunate to have had parents with such a great taste in music. I think that was a big influence in my growing up having parents so appreciative of music and many genres. Some I didn't like but some I grew to love or always enjoyed. My dad played your songs on his guitar and sang your songs. Being an 80s baby I seen and heard you so much on TV and the radio quite often. My heart breaks today and I wish you had not had to suffer battling cancer. Its just another reason we must find cures and ways to treat it. you were too young to go. Same age in fact as my gran that passed 7 years ago and her death anniversary is 9th January. January seems to be a sad month. Feel free to share in the celebration of our legends and share your memories and favorite songs and moments. Heres to you Lemmy and David! Hope you both are rocking out wherever you may be! I will miss you both but always be grateful for the art and music which helped me be who I am.

Well with my size it can be difficult to find much in my sizes though I am fortunate that when I want to browse or buy a few bits here and there if I have some money I have. These are shops in Leipzig that cater to goths, metal heads, and punks. Its my size factor that frustrates me the most because I ogle all the gorgeous clothing that even if I could afford it is out of reach. I live where theres a plethora shops. So close yet so far away lol. Wonderland 13 EMP DarXity Queen of Darkness Blacky Pearl Then online sites like Darkages.de, Black Impressions, Xtrax, Mainstream-Killer-Shop.de Of course Etsy as well for more unique and beautiful pieces which I mainly just dream about and well can get more custom stuff as well that may cater to big goths. Then when WGT comes the Black Market is full of vendors from all over the world including the above listed and other artisans including fangsmiths and various specialty goods and services.

feeling weird. wait I am weird but thats ok.

Meet and greet in Leipzig Germany? lol I know that will be quite the difficult one.

really tired and gotta venture out into the cold for therapy. I just wanna go back to bed brrrrrrr

right now I do not know how to describe what I feel. I think being on new meds I am just like ok I am here haha but I have no idea. I have a little anxiety because well I heard some troubling news about social security disability and a fellow goth expat here in Leipzig lost hers because they using really shitty underhanded methods to get expats kicked off it. So I want my German citizenship but the USA wants $4000 to break up. Its like dammit I didn't choose to have my citizenship lol why should I have to pay to give it up? so yeah aside from some underlying anxiety I am kind of floating in lala land right now. though I guess I can say more positive than negative especially with how nice things have happened to me in the past couple weeks! So I certainly am grateful and other than my stupid body not functioning properly I can not complain. In fact I have some creative urges I think I will work on today. got black paint so I can go make a makeshift easel on kitchen table and paint. :D

I know right :3 So many times we focus on the things that make us sad but crying for happiness is something I also do maybe because having so much shit when really nice things happen in life its truly special and overwhelming. I however am really grateful and fortunate especially right now in this point. When I hear this song or watch that video I just get all mushy lol.

I send my condolences. I am so sorry to hear of your losses. Though I can agree it is comforting to think they may be together and happy to see each other again. That's what we can hope for anyways even if one might not believe in heaven or something it does not rule out that we may all be rejoined in a afterlife and it better be much better than here! Big hugs to you and I definitely hope this year brings better things for you.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q8aQrAco0xE "When I feel you" by Blutengel This song but not because its really sad but the happy memories attached to it. This video is from my first M'era Luna and shared with my husband. It was such an amazing, overwhelming experience and time and I can not help but get watery eyes because it reminds me of one of the most cherished special times of my life and the beginning of big things for me and my husband.

i need to delete things because i cant seem to post more photos!

Sorry for late response. These are from all over Leipzig during Wave Gotik Treffen. We couldn't afford tickets to attend it fully and go to all events but there were still plenty of places and things we could do for free or low cost. These were taken mainly at the Victorian Village and Absintherie Sixtina, and our place.

HAPPY NEW YEAR Guten Rutsch ins Neue Jahr! To TronRP I send my most heart felt condolences and sorry I am sending such belated ones. You certainly had a bad year and losing your mother, your fur family and continuing health and family stress that is more than I know I could handle. You definitely deserve a better year well a better many years!!! Hopefully a nice vacation and do something really nice for yourself!!! You know you always got a place over here in Germany if you ever wanna visit!

i know hashimotos makes my life hell. skin and hair are terrible and weight. I wanna cry all the time because my body shouldnt be this big for the fact i dont eat much. I would help but I think living in Germany and some laws about import and export of health things would make things a tad bit tricky. I wanna get some items for peoples amazon wish lists but I have the problem I can not use the american amazon because I do not have a bank or credit/debit card in the states. It does not allow me to use my German account. I gotta figure things out. Though I am yet again quite broke. Last lil extra after the cost of making up and shipping my folks some gifts and I am going to meet a new friend at a new years old school goth get together. Its exciting. I hope you are doing ok. Starting to finally get a little relax time. Past month has been hectic for me and I was so stressed to make Christmas dinner for my in laws. It turned out good. Ok well time to enter my death like slumber.

They made it to Germany. I got a couple left myself and save them for special things. I have one hanging on my Goth board with stickers, tickets and pins from clubs, bands and festivals I am gone to over the years from Michigan to California and Germany.

Stupid amazon! lol. Well anyways yeah I try to stop by. I have spread myself so thin with online forums and other things in life so I have to begin really trying to cut some things down out or back. Getting a little overwhelmed. Then this year for Xmas I been super busy since I got my in laws coming and making dinner and stuff. Hopefully as things progress I can lose alot of weight and feel better so I can do all the things I want and not hide from camera. I want to make a you tube vlog and get things going for my gothic embassy. In fact its looking that if I can network and get investors and others interested I want it to be a Gothic hostel or hotel at somepoint with maybe a event space. Though these are just dreams and ideas in my head. I have some interest but huge work ahead to before I can make anything happen. Until then just enjoy the life and scene here.