I took sewing in middle school and can sew a little bit. I recently had my mom's old vintage singer in the shop and it works great but I never have any time to play with it. I did make my kids some pajama pants which turned out ok. I don't even have time to take a class but maybe one day when .....nevermind:(
Your feelings are normal and it's OK. What matters most is how you deal with them and it sounds like you're dealing with them well. I wish the best for you and your family and hope that one day you do get what you deserve.