Class-Punk

Don't fall asleep.

I found some York creamer so peppermint patty flavored coffee.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NXp1TQPf2pY

I'm in a decent mood. And I would be even without being on the fourth beer. But I'm hoping to get this second chapter finished before my days off run out.

Beer and food.

I find a lot of forums, especially goth forums, are pretty dead around the internet; even alternative youtube vlogs, at least ones I'm subscribed to, haven't been as active. I believe in having some semblence of politeness, and not going overboard if angry with someone, but I also probably disagree with Troy and have stated it repeatedly in that I see the play nice rules as having hurt the forum traffic a lot. I'm sure there are people who would vehementally curse each other out over politics.. and then end up donating because they enjoyed the experience so much; people are strange. The Alternative/Cyber/Goth scene often comes as abrasive or cliquey with a lot of people, and I still see a fair amount of the old members of this forum as being this way. My policy is that I don't care who wants to befriend me on here, its simply unlikely I'm going to show up much at clubs and bars, period. Sure I like dressing gothic, but I'm used to keeping it toned down. And the prospect of going out to score chicks and buy overpriced booze doesn't really do anything for me either. I'll probably add myself to the list of youtube alternative vloggers this year because I think that community has a lot of room to grow, but I'm not completely off of forums, and this is still the goth forum I visit the most.

Sleepy. I always hide my birthday on the internet, at least that way when it happens, even I am suprised.

Lately I've been thinking about Advaita Vedanta's koshas or appearances within existence ordered by subtlety, primordial drives of human motivation and action in relation to evolutionary physcology (especially its present flaws), and how to get a plastic door to shut on a machine that pumps out hot chocolate-- which until recently I had been using scotch tape.

I feel that I can't sleep again. I've felt that way on and off too and the majority of people here from the lifespan of the board don't know me. It seems like sometimes I stop posting and other people who haven't been on in ages post, but just as easily coincidence.

Busy, annoyed by college debt, wishing I had more free time, watching most of the Summer pass by in a nocturnal blur, and meditative when it works.

Looking through music and waiting for my laundry to dry.

Thanks. The last thing I worked on was the second chapter of my science fiction novel. But I might finish an article before that rebuking all this shaming around people in their 20's and above who avoid kids, marriage, or buying a house, which is coming from cultural conservatives in the media. Pretty much I can use evolutionary physcology to show that too much traditionalism is a more devolved way of living because its more reduced to sex and survival than any growth outside of that.

I'm surprised the fireworks have stopped here.

LED lighting will end up the future standard for all lighting, but it could take a couple decades.

While listening to Noir Deco's latest song I can't help but think of my long term goal of eventually creating a "Dreamwave bedroom", what a cross between a futuristic bedroom and cyberpunk nightclub might look like. It'll be neon lit with a repainted arcade machine hosting a gaming pc, and a good place to have some brews, write, or read. I should start calling myself a cyberpunk, not that I'm adversed to being called goth, but I'm not very connected to its modern media connotations or fond of its elitists.

I've noticed for people who meditate a lot time can go faster or slower than what's normal for them. Trauma could also affect this. I think people form routines in relation to clocks and calendars rather than how they used to rely on the sun, so even though the modern concept of time is necessary for many people its also sort of unnatural and often neurotic.

My legs are ridiculously sore and I am on a weird sleeping schedule because yesterday I went to bed at 10AM, and today it will be slightly later. Thanks. I've never worked a cash register before and have been learning that for the past three days on top of other stuff, and I've went from going months barely speaking to anyone and doing my own thing, to talking or dealing with an excess of people, and trying not to piss anyone off too much when I don't know what I'm doing. However my stress levels have dropped a lot now that I'm starting to get more used to it.

Thanks, I want to go into "Death Note territory" and have more mind games in my dialogue.

The amount of stuff I've had and have to cram in my head in the time I've been job training for a gas station is more than any college class I've taken. I have numbers written down everywhere, I've seen people who are too sleepy to be operating a motor vehicle, and I don't understand why there needs to be so many cigarettes in the world.

Stressed and tired.

That's pretty crazy. --- I feel a little overwhelmed.

When I get the time I have to go back and look through the companies I contacted to see if they made anything cool and inexpensive. >.>

Sore. And that I need to start doing calisthenics to get in shape enough to get back to the weights. I'm done with having bulking goals because that turns too neurotic for me, I just want to do an indefinite bulk till I burn out, and then when I'm recharged then go for it again.

I eventually am planning to get a "MGTOW" or "MGHOW" tattoo. I think a lot of this complex movement gets a bad rap simply because its strange to consider that men have the ability to suffer as much as women, or that they are human beings, only made unequal to women, because of a massive pandering on the part of men to women at the cost of their own self worth. I personally don't hate women and judge everyone individually. But ironically the men who come across hating women the most that I've seen have been totally screwed over by them often to a point of suicidal ideation, and it could easily go the same with the genders reversed. There's a lot of people in society who don't like a male defining their own masculinity. But when you say things like "man up", or 'be this kind of man', or ignore a person's interests and beeline to what they do for living as an entire definition of the worth of that human being (something done to me repeatedly by my own family)-- that's a behavioral culture that deserves a hard backlash. Its the kind of thing that causes suicides because its shaming without any kind of core ethical purpose. So it is fortunate that the backlash against this kind of shaming has already started.