Class-Punk

I wanted to bring a female character into the horror serialization I was working on, and had tossed around a lot of ideas for a long time to come up with this folklore. Somewhere in the Middle East there are rumors of a woman dressed head to toe in black whose body is made out of sand. Some say she is an evil spirit, some say she is the wrath of Allah, and others say she is older than Islam itself. Desert merchants have claimed to see such a woman walking the horizon with a twisted cactus rising out of her burka like a head. They say if you practice black magic successfully, she will find you, and you will never be seen again.

This sounds like a glossier Tears for Fears, I'll inevitably end up blasting it from my car late at night.

I feel that I got up at 5 PM yesterday and today I have to get up around 12 PM. So I here's hoping I can get enough hours of sleep. Puking my guts out in the morning will probably happen regardless till I start juicing apples and cabbages, but its almost equal to coffee for waking up.

I feel that I have internet again.

Laundry.

Busy and exhausted.

I'm not sure what the right word is.

I do at least have Last.FM, where if I add a band on there, the name of the band will probably remain there permanently.

I have so many youtube favorites that have been deleted and no video history, some of that is music that is lost forever. Pretty much the same problem as Project Playlist. I knew what I was getting into back in 2008, but its funny how piracy of any song I found valuable would've been the only thing that could've prevented this, being that I was even more broke then.

I've got a half finished walking animation done for Player 1, along with some other sprites. A half finished living room, which half of it needs to be turned into a kitchen, and then expanded from there. All the doors will be cut-out of the room graphics so I can create an individual graphics of doors with a circle that both players have to step in that triggers them out of a house, since this is currently a two player only game. Apart from using Gimp to make images transparent, I'm doing all my pixel art in MSPaint. Animation is all trial and error, made easier by a little beer. I have a lot of youtube programming tutorials for Gamemaker, so I'll cross my fingers they'll be helpful when the time comes.

If the new Empire of the Sun album is at least equal to the first, it will be the soundtrack of my Summer.

Sprite animation.

I have so many goals at this point in my life that shine so much more than the attention or acceptance of some woman. In the context of dating I see the majority of women for what they are, boring, selfish, and shallow; and seeing me primarily as a utility and never a human being. A life filled mostly with vanity is empty and boring, fitting for people who are the same. Not caring about the unstable validation from some female who would inevitably make me feel like shit, I have the energy to devote to my art; and unlike the majority of art, I will keep most of mine dead to romance.

Just something from my lyrics file: Give me a reason to play you music, why should I play music on a stage? Why should I make music that you like? Does real rebellion care about being paid? My life isn't where its supposed to be, maybe that's the chaos inside of men. I won't let anyone ever sign me, I won't them try to stab me with a pen. We scolded rebels were all told to stop saying things that are so terrible. But when your dreams get put on hold, its best to find the fuckers responsible. Give me a reason to play you music, why should I play music on a stage? Why should I make music that you like? Does real rebellion care about being paid?

I went to a friend's wedding this week. There are only three people right now, who, if they were to marry-- I would show up. There's a higher likelihood for me showing up to someone's funeral, and somewhat in the vein of Hitchens I don't personally ever want one of those ceremonies, either.

Optimism, nihilism, creativity, laptop keyboard, and uncertainty.

I didn't think the "Redd's Apple Ale" was that bad, even though its a Miller-Coors product, which I like Miller. Its seems like beer reviewers are always downrating anything that's easy to find.

I feel that Dear Esther "game" goes from creepy, to stunning, to sad, hopeful, and confusing.

Looking up risotto recipes.

Got some dust in my lungs from cleaning all day. If its Xanax or Klonopin, well, years ago I've seen college university students buy that stuff.. and snort it.. on the same day they snorted Adderall. Because nothing says going places like a daily dose of downers and uppers. My posting in this thread is turning into a rant about the stupidity of university students.

Well my thought process was I feel old because I was excited to eat vegetables, which goes with the old cliché of kids not wanting to. --- I am going to go wash some dishes.