TygerLili

Hopefully it's not too late to RSVP for the after party. Morbid and I will be having dinner with his mom, but I can't take more than a couple hours of his family, so, yeah... I can bring store bought baked goods if you think you'll want them by that point. Something that won't spoil if left in the car for a few hours. Won't be able to do anything homemade. Or I have a deck of Uno cards that we could grab.

Like Saturday nights stuck in the house with no money are much better now that I'm not living alone.

I can be shy, but I am quite introverted, and most people confuse the two. I do revert back to shyness sometimes in social situations where I know very few people, and/or feel anxious. I am, however, a quiet, introverted person by nature; I prefer observing over interacting sometimes, so it can be hard to tell.

I don't understand why this went to the news. I can understand the one woman not knowing what the symbol was and getting upset, but she should have simply taken it back to the store for a refund and/or clarification on what the symbol was. The store probably shouldn't have been stocking this wrapping paper unless it was located in an area with a lot of Hindus or Buddhists, and definitely shouldn't have been stocking it if they didn't know the meaning of the symbols on it. But all of this was obviously a misunderstanding. The news should never have been contacted, and when they were contacted they should have done a little research and concluded that there was nothing sinister going on. *sigh*

Stressed...Like I try to do too much for too many people and end up stressing myself out more than I need to. I've got to learn to say no to people. Sad and lonely. I am sooooo not ready for the holidays this year, and every time I think about Thanksgiving and Christmas it makes me miss her terribly. Tired. Like I really need this weekend to relax. Like I really wish I could have just one day where I could just rest and do fun things, which brings me back to missing mom, since she was usually the one who would make that possible for me. Frustrated with a number of people, not really through any major fault of their own in most cases, but just the general self-centeredness that we are all guilty of displaying sometimes. I need my friends to care about what's going on in my life sometimes, too. *sigh* I guess I'm feeling rather emo today...

Tired. Like I've had way too much to do this week, and I'm not done yet.

There's a long list of things that I absolutely cannot understand that make me want to scream and pull my hair out. People who joke about someone dying, being raped, or being brutally abused or attacked. My mama raised me to believe that stuff isn't funny, ever. Pedophiles. What would possess any adult to look at a child as a sexual thing is completely beyond me. Animal cruelty. I'll probably get flak for this, but cruelty toward animals upsets me more than cruelty toward humans. That's not to say the latter doesn't upset me... Protesting anyone's funeral, for any reason. Even if the deceased was a total scumbag, his or her family deserves the right to mourn for and bury their loved one in peace. Bigotry. It's 2009! Continuing to treat someone like less of a person because their skin color, sex, sexual orientation, religion or culture is different from yours is just unfathomable. And those are just the ones that get me all upset. There are other, less harmful things that people do that still make me feel like the world is going insane, but they don't make me as outright angry as the above mentioned things.

Happy birthday!

1) As long as all parties are happy, and are not hurting or inconveniencing anyone else, then I am fine with what ever type of relationship a couple (or more, I guess) wants to have. I personally would never want to be involved in any way in an open marriage. I think, in practice, they work out well very little of the time. 2) If you are going to have an "unconventional" anything, people are going to criticize it. You either have to be thick-skinned and learn not to care about that, or conform. If your real friends accept you the way you are, then who cares what everyone else thinks?

1) There are many reasons people break up that have nothing to do with not loving the other person anymore. I've actually never had a relationship end because I didn't have feelings for the person anymore or vice versa. 2) There is romantic love, and then there is loving the person as a close friend. Sometimes after a break up, the first type goes away, but the second type is still there. In some ways that's frustrating because it would be easier to just stop loving the person, start hating them, and sever all ties, but it often doesn't happen that way.

If it was a bullet-randomly-flying-through-the-air situation then, like Rev, I'd try to knock anyone I cared about out of harm's way. If it was a we-are-going-to-shoot-this-person-unless-we-can-have-you-instead situation, then no one, really, unless it was my fault they got into that situation in the first place. Loved one or not, I'm not obligated to pay anyone else's moral debt. Sorry if that sounds cold or selfish, bu there you have it.

ho-hum...

Agreed. The movie itself was fine, but the camera style left me wanting to when I left the theater.

That I had to get out of bed today...

DTE's automated phone system is pissing me off.

Like I managed to sprain my ankle again. I hate my weak ankles! Like meditation really does help with aches and pains.

Annoyed with insomnia.

I'm rather happy I'll be out of town this weekend. Today has been cathartic, but necessary. I am really fighting the urge to go correct grammar in the different thread.

Why the f*** can't I fall back to sleep?

I'm kind of on the same vein as Megs. I don't truly regret anything because it got me where I am today.

Annoyed with the health care system in this country. Like today was an insanely busy day at work, and all I've had to eat since noon is some chocolate ice cream. Dinner is in the oven. Morbid needs to learn to cook.

I feel like I have the headache from hell.

My look changes a lot, but I do have some basic guidelines I try to follow. 1) I like to stick as closely as possible to classic, simple lines. Too much detail, tailoring, frou-frou detracts from one's natural beauty, and it bugs me. 2) Any time I can work in a hint of "retro" I will. 3) I always try to choose things that are feminine and figure flattering. Even if I am being a tom-boy for a day I like to look like a girl. I've never been a fan of gender neutral hair styles. I like clothes that accentuate my hourglass figure, my legs, and my neck. I always try to be sexy without being slutty. Of course the line between sexy and slutty is a lot different for professional clothing, casual clothing, dress clothing, and club wear, but I usually have a sexy touch in there somewhere, even if it's just frilly lingerie under my clothes. 4) Most of my clothing tends to be pretty low maintenance. I hate ironing, I hate hand-washing, I hate going to the dry cleaners. I will choose clothing that does not require me to do these things whenever possible. 5)Most importantly, I try wear things in a way that is as unique as it can possibly be. I don't want 10 other people to be dressed in the exact same style that I am wearing. I never wear more than one trendy thing at a time, because I hate the idea of looking like a trend-slave.

Bleh...another wasted Saturday.