actually I'm going to have an associates degree in two semesters, so come next December I will be finished with my Associates, and I won't have a certificate, I will have a cosmetology License. I will have a High School Diploma, Cosmetology License, and an Associates Degree in Applied Science. And I will only be 19.
And I have looked at it both ways.
Yes, it would be easier to just bear with it and move with them, but it will mess up my schooling, I will not be able to finish my Associates until NEXT year, and I already have my next two years of school planned out down here, not 4 hours north.
And I already have bills, haha. I pay over 500 dollars a month for my bills, and have two jobs. on top of going to school seven hours a day.
And I cannot continue to be in this house or any house with my mom. She's manic depressive and emotionally abusive. I understand that you did not have an easy childhood with your home life, but mine isn't exactly peachy keen. It's really not about whether my parents love me or not, or if you had it worse than I have, because that sucks and I'm sad for you, but I'm dealing with MY problem, not yours. And you telling me it could be worse is true, but that doesn't mean that it is. it's still shitty in its own way.
they've never really supported what I personally wanted to do. I didn't want to do Cosmetology, however my mom said well I know you don't want to do it, but you're going to, because it's a good program.
So here I am, finishing it.
I don't really like it, but I'm finishing it because she wanted me to. I respect their wishes, but I'm an adult, and I do not want to move up north. And this time it will not be 'I know you don't want to, but you're going to.' Because I don't want to, and I don't have to, and I do not plan on it.
I understand the whole there are bills to pay and shit like that. I've been paying bills since I was sixteen. I've been living an 'adult' lifestyle since I was sixteen, paying for everything on my own, working two jobs, and trying to make it easier on my family, because right now, they're filing a SECOND bankruptcy on our home so that they can move up north.
But that's not where I want to be. That's not where my education is. And it is unfair for me to be dragged along with them, with them not 'letting' me move out as an adult. I don't wish for our relationship to be fucked, and I'm just trying to do it the best way I can so that my mom isn't a psycho cunt and doesn't hate me and cut me out of her life.