the eternal

Psyche Out ------Meat Beat Manifesto (It's time to get down!)

It's funny I always imagined getting naked with you. I never dreamed it would happen so soon. Looking good HH! =)

"a nice greasy pork sandwich served in a dirty ashtray" if you think what I'm eating is bad, look at your dish--- " You're eating maggots. How do they taste?" I am loving the 80s right now.

OK I will! I fell in to a burning ring of fire :woot: :woot: That is after I finish listening to: Cry Little Sister-the theme song from the Lost Boys

OOOhhh I loves me some atmospheric trip-hop sometime (and sex with a lovely lady) I will take your Ultrachilled and raise you a Massive Attack Mezzanine (I'm at work now) Presently listening to Teardrop

You are such a Is it getting hot in here or is it just Brenda? <fanning self> Someone throw some water on me. Me? I'm wearing my favorite attire when I'm at home, nothing. (BTW, thanks again for the compliment HH). I need to put on my wear and get the hell to work.

Is it okay for us to be in here? I admit I loove her earlier stuff (She seems to have mellowed out too much lately). Join in The Chant-Nitzer Ebb "burn, burn, burn, FIRE FIRE FIRE OH!"

Lying here naked wondering if my stomach will ever stop aching so I can get some sleep. This always happens when I'm overstressed. <sigh>

by torn asunder on Apr 21 (bookmark) (print) (next) Author's Last Login: 3 days ago In Category: Other, Personal. 3 total. you just don't get it, do you? the things you chase after, the things you desire, will leave you empty, wanting, yearning for more. and what do you want, deep down? happiness, contentment, love... and where will you look? and how will you find them, when you don't know what to look for? you just don't get it, do you? you can't look outside yourself for things that aren't within. and until you learn this lesson these things will escape you. you want happiness? choose to be happy. you want contentment? accept your current life. you want love? give yourself the love you desire. when you can do just this, you will know happiness, you will find contentment, you will have the love you seek, and it will be yours, forever. you just don't get it, do you? apparently, neither do i The Cure-Closedown ---from Disintegration I'm running out of time i'm out of step and closing down and never sleep for wanting hours the empty hours of greed and uselessly always the need to feel again the real belief of something more than mockery if only i could fill my heart with love I used to listen to this song ALL the time when I felt the way you do. I agree with Game of Chance probably the most. The best way to work through loneliness is to keep busy, and really get into something you love. The worst thing is to wallow too much (Youre not wallowing here, just searching for answers which is half the battle) Wallowing can be oddly comforting, like taking and old old blanket and wrapping it around your heart so it feels safe and warm. But then the pain remains. Sex-Ill be honest, I cant really feel Dollar Dave. Youre an good-looking guy and you run this whole site which is extremely attractive to people. So, Id imagine sex is not a problem for you. Besides the fact, if I remember, you said you dont like one-night stands. Sex is great, but the day after empty sex for someone with an open heart is so painful I find. You connected with someone and then theyre gone, just like the rest. Don't over analyze or over philosophize. (Full disclaimer: I'm an existentialist and romantic and have no use for post modernist posturing) You're hurt. It's excrutiating. Own it. Don't apologize for it. Don't hide it. Those that do are the macho pricks that get wasted every day, beat their wives and dont know why. Its amazing for someone in your position to be so naked here. Let that empower you. Take Game's advice. Lean on your friends a little more. You dont have to carry everyone elses problem on your shoulders all the time. You can take a moment to think of you and not feel SO DAMN GUILTY about it. You are a fantastic guy. I know this not from knowing you, because it would take far too long for that, but by a much better measure, from looking at the way all of your friends talk of you. She'll come along. You're far too worthy for her to stay away much longer MY .02