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lol, yeah, i NEVER throw away old clothes unless they get totally thrased, or I can't get some kind of gross smell out of them. at the very least, I'll try to cut out a patch if they have something printed on them. Sadly, because of this, i have boxes and boxes of clothing just sitting around. and my damn sewing machine is in michigan, and my mom won't send it to me! :doh

heeeyyyy.... i was just wondering where you were! ah... the power of thought.... hehehe. or... you know... not.

aak.... i just lost twenty minutes of my life to that site! damn them and their awesome ideas.... cool linky

I like a little chest fuzz, or bare, but I hate lots of curly hair or the two hairs here, three hairs there, and ingrown hairs when people don't shave well if they have to shave. my only real problem with chest hair is when it tickles my ears or nose when I'm laying with my head on a guys chest. on another note... i like pubic hair, on guys and girls. trimmed is nice, but shaving all or even most of it is just odd to me. I mean, I won't complain, but I won't every ask for it. I like soft things to pet. just condition it! please! :erm

gay for gaiman! hehehehe....... on topic though... that quote is very touching.

wait wait wait... was he looking in the mirror again? :confused *tehehehe*

I hear that. I'm usually only up until somewhere between one and four, but it's lame because I'm in the goddamn land of midnight sun, and most places that aren't crappy bars are only open until nine or ten, and the places that are, I wouldn't go to unless I was really drunk, and I wouldn't get really drunk there unless I had good reason to, and I never have a good reason to get really drunk anymore. Ungh. I should move back to michigan and we should start a movement. :grin

Oh, Troy... how you mirror my heart sometimes. I haven't got anything new to say really, just murmerings of all else that's been said. Strength comes and goes, and in the absence of it, you feel things that much more. Needing love and companionship isn't a weakness at all, though. You'll get through this too, find distractions in daily life, new projects to occupy your mind. Different ways to love and be loved. I wish you the best, you're too good of a guy to have to feel down about this. You need lots of hugs, I'm sorry I'm not there to share them. *squeeze*

every place possible. can you do it fast AND slow?

that is, quite possibly, my most FAVORITE clive barker book EVER. And considering he's my favorite author, that's saying a lot, cause I love all of his books, even the ones I wasn't thrilled by. I wanted to live that book so bad... I used it as imagination fodder for a long time in high school. Oh the horribly poetry and drawings it birthed.

Terry Pratchett is full of so much goodness... he's like the Douglas Adams of sci-fantasy. Right now, I'm working on The Story of O by Pauline Reage. Classic bondage erotica. It's really interesting, actually, the similarites between this and what I can remember of "Eyes Wide Shut" regarding the societal house. yum.

I want to be able to make people stay the way they are in time, so they don't change into assholes. and a good stiff drink!

*bombards troy with internet hugs till he's blue in the face* hah, I would never do anything cute, so there.

Not to mention roadblocks like distance. It's funny how those horribly intangible things really keep driving the stake home. Hmm... drinking grape kool-aid and trying to force myself to be tired now, before it's too late.

LOL! I don't think I would ever truly want to NOT enjoy sex. Though I can see the advantages surely of not feeling like I NEED it so much. I mean, when it gets to the point where I can't masturbate because I'm sore with it, it's time to convince myself that I can do without an orgasm or six for a few days. :doh Speaking of which... right now, I want a hot bath and bed, to ease my discomforts.

mint chocolate chip tofutti cutie. yum.... soy.....

amen to that, eh. *sips her kalhua* oh yeah, and I want things which are bad for me to stop feeling and tasting so damn good.

Mr. Sunday, it's five thirty in Michigan right now, nothing working so far still? Maybe you need to invest in an anvil and a good pulley system.

mmm.... somedanguy made me want... deep dish spinach pizza from gino's east in chicago.... I wonder if they can freeze mail some to Alaska?

three seventeen a.m. in anchorage. the sun is on it's way back up, the sky is kind of a cerulean color in the middle, darker above, pinkish purple at the horizon. I'm currently taking a break from going half blind. I took on a commission to draw a celtic infinity knot with an x in the middle and two knots on the sides for someones wedding cake, so she can paint it on the outside. it's turning into a very tedious and time consuming project. ugh. so many fine lines... oh well, at least I'm getting paid for it. *adds another hour to her time card*

*lol* Pocky? hmmm... and why would you do that? are you a chocolate or strawberry covered biscuit stick, deep down inside? yum. As for me... I'm staring at some picture negatives, realizing the bastards didn't give me all the prints for them. what the hell? Also... sitting here all dressed up at one a.m. because I was supposed to go hang out with a friend who threatened to take my picture... but he's not home, so here i am in black and orange striped stockings with knee high boots, a slit short skirt and my hair up in a pompador. for nothing. and no camera to take my OWN picture with.

I like quiet music - just loud enough to hear, but not so loud that i actually focus on the sounds. Also, I have about six pillows, and I tend to surround myself with them. Two by my head, one between my knees, one held tightly between my arms. Masturbation helps too, because it a) clears my head, and b) makes me blissful and tired. Of course, this is all just sleep setup, getting into the mood, so to speak. Beyond that... it's kind of a mystery. I just try to be as comfortable as possible, then shut off all my ideas, one by one.

*carefully puts herself back together molecule by molecule* okay, that's better. hmm... you figured out how to do the time warp, with extra pelvic thrust?

mmm.. future pop.....

preparing to *gasp* bleach the majority of my hair out, based on the whim that I need to change something physical to help myself change mentally. also trying to talk myself into getting up at seven a.m. about six days a week to go to the gym to help with said physical/mental change. not looking forward to the process, but the results should be rewarding in time.