I want to have time to make a list like Black Sunday.
The very top of that list would be strength.
Strength to not do the things that will harm me. Strength to better myself for me and for my child. Strength to hold my sanity while I determine what it is that I need versus what it is that I want. Strength to do everything that I need to do.
And the strength to avoid hasty decisions about who it is that I am suppposed to be doing it all with.
nothing. should eat something. when did i eat last?
Oh don't worry anyone...I am not withering away or calling for help. :
Ahh, dinner last night. See, no reason to worry.