It's such a calm and balanced life without them. I've had to drop alot of things and people to obtain that calm generally emotionless state. But, from time to time I have this flutter of emotion built in with an attraction to a person, and I start to crave a relationship. But, that would start the ball rolling all over again and I'm not a fan of the results. Instinct is a hard thing to control, but it is doable. Let's see how well this little crush can get snuffed. :-)