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TruTV idiots at it again!

Finally feeling better after a stress attack yesterday. I think I can do a few more days of babysitting my mother, niece and nephew. I need to be more careful.

I'm so tired I feel like screaming! These ungrateful brats are getting on my nerves! Why don't they simply do what they are told? We were never this bad. I feel so strained right now I could scream! I am trying not to kick them in the head for being so disobedient but they are making it hard. I tell them to do one thing and they do it until they get bored and decide to do something else. If these are the good kids, I'd hate to actually deal with the bad ones. I am exhausted. The only reason I force myself to keep going is if I didn't, my younger sister would have to take this over as well and she's already overwhelmed. Why doesn't my brother do something with his kids? We shouldn't have to be worn out trying to get them to behave. He should be here, not us. Dang, I'm tired...

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Between the kids and Ma, I think I'm going to lose it. She's in too much pain to do much and the two bits are being selfish brats. Ugh. What to do! I could scream. I can't think. I am so glad their dad showed up. He was not happy with them so it wasn't just in my head. Even when given specific instructions, go read a book, the girl couldn't even do that. I'm tired of trying to get them to do their own work while trying to make sure Ma doesn't spend the day in bed. I feel like vomiting.

I'm in a funk.

Here I go again! http://amzn.com/w/11H7OVLYA9HUA HAD to update this. Created a different list.

What is the point of eating a low cholesterol diet if your pain levels are going to drive your LDL numbers off the charts?

Thank you!

How idiotic I have been. Normally I'd rest for an entire day after such an expenditure of energy in order to be able to keep going for a week but this time I've overdone it. The swelling is refusing to stay away for very long and is now accompanied NY horrendous pain that refuses to subside. I don't know how long I can keep up this pace without causing myself irreparable damage. Maybe I can take it easy as I babysit. Hopefully, I can get to sleep tonight. Here's hoping!

Like crawling into a hole and crying my eyes out I'm in so much pain.

I could kick my mother in her head! All these months we've been trying to get her to move more with simple exercises according to what the doctor said. Now she's been taken off chemo because of her inactivity! She kept blowing us off and whining about how much it hurt and sleeping all day long and now that the doctor actually took her off of it she's listening to us. Only now has everybody else stepped up and begun aiding us. I wish my baby sister would take a chill pill because she hasn't been here to see what we've been going through with Ma. That girl is getting on my nerves raking us over the coals for Ma not getting off her lazy behind and doing something to save her own life! Dang it! If she hadn't moved out to the suburbs or at least called to speak to me, this probably wouldn't have happened. Instead, she constantly complains about how she doesn't know what's going on. Here on the front lines it is hard to keep a buck private stationed in barracks stateside abreast of field ops as they're going down. I'm tired of being a sound post for all the crappy bothersome nuances of sibling squabbling and parental favoritism. Especially since it appears that either no one wants my help or I'm just in the way. I am going to be so annoying now my Mother will have no choice but to act or go crazy. I'm sick of it. I refuse to grow any gray hairs over this situation. And in case you're reading this, you know exactly what I mean about the in the way (storm cloud at the back door incident).

Actual experience trumps reasoned scenarios every time.

The light in this room has three settings. Stub your toe, bright, and land a 747.

This tablet is almost as annoying as my cell. When this thing locks, it skips entire words but one is too busy struggling to get this box completely visible that one never notices until afterwards or someone points it out. Dang. The effect was killed.

I will not bow. I will not break. I will shut the away. I will not fall. I will not fade. I will take your breath away. And I'll survive! Paranoid. I have lost the will to change... BUT I'LL SURVIVE!

That's why I told you to type it even if it makes you feel embarrassed. Once things are written down you actually feel much better. Except for pain. Pain is cruel and heartless. It refuses to be relinquished or ignored. One must find other ways of dealing with and killing pain. It sits there throbbing and stabbing and slashing throughout your body until you can find the right combination of pain killers and rest, and even then it takes a while to defeat ... if at all...

I AM IN PAIN!!!!

I felt like smashing out the window to my house. My Cashew was calling me and all I could do was watch him staring and meowing through the glass. I've only managed to get three hours of sleep today. I was awakened by that memory. He kept looking towards the door asking me to come in and all I could do was talk to him through the glass. I feel like I'm being punished for getting injured. I've been locked out going on five years now! I understand the reasoning behind it but I don't see the difference. Both places are nothing but obstacle courses, yet its okay for me to be in one by myself but not the other? I constantly trip over, run into, or fall over stuff here all the time. At least there I can only be in one area. Here I fell down the stairs, busted my arm and gave myself a concussion. There, I got covered in cat hair. Yeah...

Kudos to you, my friend! Unfortunately, some people just won't understand until they find themselves in that situation. Then they gripe and complain about how they are being treated without recalling how they once treated others mere months ago. It's sad.