Michael8402

I am feeling hopeful that things go the way they seem to be. I was getting frustrated about not hearing when to start a job I was offered. I decided to dress in my kitchen gear, because you should always dress for the job you want, and took my resume to a local restaurant. The sous chef saw me at the door and decided to interview me before he even looked at my resume. The interview went very well and he said I will get a call on Monday. They also pay more per hour than the job offer I have been waiting on. I hope things go as well as they seem.

It is sad when people show their true colors but that does not reflect on you. Do not feel embarrassed by someone else's short comings. Just keep being the strong person you are and keep your head up.

I am sitting alone, rolling cigarettes, and watching Monty Python's The Meaning of Life. What an exciting life I live. Lol

Good thing I brought my ear plugs and hard hat. lol

Hey Troy. I thought you might find this site kind of interesting. http://www.spiritscienceandmetaphysics.com/scientists-claim-that-quantum-theory-proves-consciousness-moves-to-another-universe-at-death/

I don't know you outside of this site but I can tell you are a strong person from everything I have seen you post. I have been in simular situations and I can assure you that things will get better. Just keep your head straight and keep your priorities straight. Your daughter and your health are more important at this moment. I wish you the best and offer my services if you need someone to vent or just talk to.

I hate being an adult. Having to worry about money and bills and stuff like that just sucks.

I don't have insurance yet so I haven't gone for any medical testing or treatment on the issue. I did have a sleep study done when I was in 4th grade as part of a study the university was doing on grade levels vs sleep patterns. They found that most of the kids that sleep less than 8 hours a night were actually getting better grades. Seems kind of odd. Their theory was that it was due to the fact that our brains were more active and that caused us to sleep less. I don't know if I would want to try medical weed. I went through a rebellious stage as a teenager and I ended up getting kind of mean and anti social. All I wanted to do was spend time in the garage building stuff, mostly bongs. lol I have tried regular meditation with little success, I haven't tried chakra meditation. I have a few friends who teach Thi Chi so maybe I will discuss that with them. I am horrible with keeping hydrated so that is a possible next step. My diet is mostly meat and potatoes, I grew up in an Irish family surrounded by farms so I can't really help that. lol. Thank you both for the ideas. If it does seem to get worse, I will seek a doctor to do a sleep study. I am just not a big fan of doctors most of the time. They seem to over medicate at times. I would probably try the medical weed before taking sleeping pills though. Seems like a safer option in the long run.

Hello. Hopefully you find some good topics to join in on.

Thankfully my motorcycle is out of the shop, finally, and I will be riding it back here from central PA on next Monday. Let me know if anyone wants to go for a ride. Longer days means more time on 2 wheels.

I have always had trouble shutting my mind off so sleep has always been an issue for me. I have been averaging only about 3 or 4 hours a night since I was a teenager. The problem always gets worse when depression or stress are involved. Recently I have noticed a very disturbing bout of erratic sleep. I will be unable to sleep for days and then spend a day where I sleep off and on for about an hour at a time. The most disturbing part is that I don't have any warning about the "nap" coming on. I just sort of pass out randomly while doing something and then wake up an hour later. I don't even feel tired before it happens. I am guessing that the not sleeping is caused by my stress and depression and the crashes are simply exhaustion but it is still unnerving. Has, or is, there anyone else dealing with similar issues? I wouldn't mind any advice if anyone has any as well.

Don't take that as an insult Simon. Vikings and Klingons both rock. I just want to know if I should bring you meed or blood wine.

This has me asking a very important question. Are you a Viking or a Klingon? lol

I am sorry to hear about your mother. My family also has a long history of cancer and other horrible medical issues.

I have been living vicariously through this site lately as well. Since I don't know anyone in this area at all yet, this has sort of become my only form of social interaction. I am sure that I will get to meet some people someday at shows or just out and about once I get a little more comfortable with the area. There does seem to be a plague of bad time going around lately. I am here if anyone needs to chat with an outsider.

I don't think I even try to act like a dad though. Since he is already 21, I try to act like he is just one of the guys when he visits. He lives with his father in PA and we didn't even see him that much before we moved.

With fathers' day coming soon, I thought it would be a good time to talk about things in your life that might make you feel awkward. The reason this came to my mind is that fathers' day always makes me uncomfortable. I never really had much of a relationship with my father growing up and we still don't really talk much. We aren't on bad terms or anything, just never connected in any way shape or form. He actually has stated that he never wanted to have kids in the first place so I guess that explains a bit. My stepfather has been pretty cool and tried to teach me some things mainly because he never had a son. We struggle a bit because I was already an adult and married when he married my mother, at least he tries and is always there to offer help or advice when I need it though. Another odd thing is that my girlfriend's son has made it a point to say "Happy Father's day" to me and I have only known him for 3 years. This may not sound like a big deal but he is 21 years old and I am actually only 10 years older than him, my girlfriend being 12 years older than me does cause odd moments. lol. I understand that a lot of the awkward feeling is just me caused by deep seeded psychological scaring. I am divorced and never had children, we tried but she couldn't have children due to medical issues. My lack of a real connection with my parents doesn't help either. I almost feel like I would be a terrible father because of the way I grew up. I simply wouldn't know what to do as a parent. I have have tried to gracious when her son calls me and I do make sure to call both my father and my stepfather. I just can't help but feel almost uneasy or out of place though. Any thoughts?

I get that message all the time. I have to refresh a few times or close the browser and reopen.

I dropped it out of my pocket while going 120 on my motorcycle once. Went back and picked it up, called my girlfriend to tell her I was running late. It still works. lol. Dropped it in a deep fryer I was doing a boil out on at work once too. That was a funny one. lol

I am feeling like an idiot. I have had a perfect record of handling snakes since I was 5 years old, 26 years now, without a single bite. My record was broken tonight when I was overconfident while handling a my rainbow boa who I rescued a year ago from a neglectful home. I know he is skiddish and that I have to keep an eye on him at all times but I didn't. He only stuck my arm once and didn't cause any major damage but I still feel stupid and sort of bad that I scared him enough to strike. I put him back in his cage where he is comfy and cleaned up the few drops of blood from the bite. This just goes to show that being to comfortable and confident is a sure fire way to get yourself in trouble. I am just lucky that it happened with such a small snake.

My phone is actually better than my computer. That is probably due to the fact that I am using a hand me down laptop that my girlfriend's son got sick of after he dropped it off an entertainment center. I am just a bit of a cheap skate when it comes to buying things for myself. My father got me an awesome phone that is designed for military use so it is rated for 100 feet under salt water and super hardened but still works on 4g.

Currently we have 3 red eared sliders, 2 ball pythons, 1 Brazilian rainbow boa, 1 jeweled lacerta, 1 crested gecko, 1 desert gecko, and 2 dogs. All are rescues. I had to rehome a 20 gallon fresh water tank with several topical fish and a 35 gallon salt water tank that I saved from a dumpster during the winter with living fish in it, and my cat went to my mother's house. My great uncle was a snake milker for the Florida zoo and I used to help him during the summer. At my worst I had 150 snakes, 32 tarantulas, 26 scorpions, 8 dogs, 14 cats, 3 fish tanks, and 5 rabbits. They were all rescues because the local shelters would call me when they didn't know how to handle them. I have even had the police call me to remove illegal venomous snakes from frat houses near the local college.

I think we should be at least slightly self absorbed. Even though we should experience as much as we can, working has become a necessity in our society. I tend to go between making workaholics cringe and making bums call me lazy. I have never been able to find a good balance. The plus side is that I end up banking money when I work which is then used to fund my crazy adventures when I am being lazy.

You pretty much have the concept. My personal ideas on it get slightly more complex but this was just the basic start of my theory. I guess you can also look at it as us all being a single line in a super complex computer program. Each line seems insignificant but the calculations in each line are important no matter how small and insignificant they seem.

Glad it's back up now. I have been checking to see if it was back up all day. lol