BadKitty

I'm about to go haunt the kitchen for a no-effort dinner. Cereal may win

I'm thinking how quiet it is in here. No TV on, just the humming of the computer and the swish of a kitty tail across my desktop

Contemplating what I'm going to do. House is clean, and I'm alone for the next three nights. I have custody of the remote!

I would like a card as well, thank you

I'm thinking that I want a new book, but I don't know what ... I'll find something!

No, definitely not. Squirrels in the house are a royal pain in the ass. Right now I'm hungry and tired. And cold, even though I have a space heater blowing on me. My monitor is dying... it blinks to black screen/no signal, and then back. Sometimes it takes several minutes before it does it, sometimes it blinks like a strobe light. Luckily a new one will be delivered tomorrow. Oh.. and I'm SICK of lawyers.

Big Boy's slim jim... as soon as it gets here!

My 5th diet coke of the day... followed by water with dinner

Waiting for dinner to be delivered. I do not feel like cooking, and the Gathering is tonight so I'm hoping I can be on the call

Old episodes of MasterChef on YouTube, specifically Canada, Australia, and the kid version

Nope, it's not. It's the Halftime, on Ecorse and Mortenview, sort of across the road from the 7-11. Red building. Husband and I used to be regulars starting in around 2007, but a lot has changed. Different staff, among other things. But still a lot of the same patrons on a Saturday night, from what I remember - it's been more than a year. They are open for business and do have karaoke on Friday and Saturday, but the singing is one of the easiest ways to spread covid (unless masked) and I'm not stepping foot in there.

I'll be SO glad when the stupid bowl is DONE. I'm sick and tired of football but I'm even more tired of football FANS.

Old episodes of MasterChef on YouTube

I don't know whether that counts as cheating or just lucky LOL. There's a local hole-in-the-wall bar that we go to in Taylor for karaoke. They have 95 cent cheeseburgers (really good) and about 85% of the singers are really good, but the rest are spectacularly bad. Always a lot of fun.

Their normal meeting place is at a catholic church, and they won't allow the meetings to be held there. If it were Zoom, Jeff wouldn't participate in it. He needs the "in person." I've attended the in person meetings with him, and I see the benefit with him. As for rehab, he went to inpatient rehab in the fall of 2018. He was there from the day after Labor Day, until October 14th. The total cost of rehab was over $46,000, which my insurance paid 100%. That was my previous employer. The current employer/insurance will only pay 75% after I reach my deductible, and we can't afford for that. As for church, that is NEVER an option. Atheist and church just doesn't go together. That's one reason he went with SMART Recovery instead of one of the 12 step models. Covid has made everything that much worse. Not only because of the lack of in-person meetings, but also the distractions and activities he used to combat cravings just aren't really possible right now. Add in winter weather, and it cuts that list down even more. So, right now it's a day at a time.

I'm just about at this point. A few days ago we had what is commonly referred to as a "come to Jesus" talk. I made it clear that the lines in the sand are gone and are now written in a way that cannot be erased or moved. ONE more instance of him using, no matter how much or how little, and he's out the door. It will be HIS choice. He can have his crack, or he can have me. But he cannot have both. The biggest issue is, I think, that he doesn't think he deserves better... and with covid, his meetings aren't happening. SMART Recovery's only live meeting is Saturday mornings and it's held in a part of Hines Park - outside. Just not an option. But I told him that I can't see it as not being supportive, because I have been. I'm at a point where I have to set healthy boundaries and stick to them, for my own sake. @TronRP thanks for the offer, but no need for the resources. I've got my own via the Family and Friends network with SMART Recovery, as well as people I know who have gone through this. He has to make the choice to stop, or not. I can't control it or him, I can only control my reaction to it.

I miss karaoke

Diet coke right now, and as soon as this can is empty.. water!

Mushroom, steak and cheese sub from Tubby's

I've been emotionally and mentally exhausted lately. Things with my husband aren't going well and I suspect that's deliberate on his part. I typed out a long saga and then erased it. None of it really matters, I guess. But if things don't change drastically, and soon, I don't see us together by the end of the year. And who knows? I might even be happier if we weren't.

Amazon.com There's my list. It's updated about 3 times a week, though.. so it's always current.

I should probably clean my home office. There's cat hair like tumbleweeds in here, and I should dust my desk and go through the baskets and reorganize. Meh... I'll do it this weekend.

I'm talking to @Troy Spiral on Facebook, checking email, and waiting on dinner to be delivered

I'm SO glad it's Friday. I'm sick of lawyers, sick of snow, sick of early mornings, and I have the weekend to clean my home office, get a few errands taken care of, and do laundry... and then RELAX and be a sloth. Binge watch TV, read, take naps, whatever. But I'm free from now until 0500 on Monday.. not a moment too soon.

I like a lot of her videos. She's the type of mortician who does "natural" burials. No embalming or other body preservation more than refrigeration. No fancy caskets or other trappings. Natural decomposition. She discusses a wide range of topics, and it's very interesting. Her channel has been around for about 10 years.