WhiteLines

I just found out we have contract for a 3 month long Ulta remodel in Michigan. I reckon that'll be my new home for late summer. Sounds like the infamous Seattle job I ran in 2015 or '16 can't even remember now.

I second that. It's what I'm tryin' to do down here at least.

Getting familiar with consciousness again. I passed out into a death like comatose slumber just before daylight and no one was able to wake me until they threw a glass of cold water at me. Which was great, I been trying to convince her for years that if i was in a deep sleep that ruthless tactics were needed to wake me lol.

I think that may be true, I've got a hardwired "never say die" programming. I'll beat a dead horse back to life and keep on til I kill it again lol, I didn't know that was a trait associated with Pisces lol wtf.

It has been the weirdest two weeks I've lived thru for a long, long time indeed.

Holy crap! Thats crazy you said that. I don't ever talk in my sleep but we was sitting here around 3 or 4 in the morning and i started passing out for short few second intervals and muttering nonsense like i was at work. At on point we were in the middle of talking then i lost consciousness and shouted "Bring me the 8 footer over here" talkin' about fiberglass stepladder lol. I was sayin' all kinda crap this mornin'

$h¡† just be all sorta weird and bizarre, i pierce thru the veil of reality or somethin? Am i real, is any of this real?

Oh yeah one more bizarre coincidental oddball set of events. These are the last 3 emails I received from some marriage/relationship BS app that we used for a brief time last year (she used it a brief time, i kept using it a few more months after she had stopped bothering to complete any of the thingamajigs along with me then i finally said fμ¢k it all and quit paying the subscription and deleted it all) The dang emails are Healing Toxic Conflict Letting Go of Unhealthy Relationships and some BS about cheatin' ass mufμ¢kah's The universe truely is an expert at irony lol

I can add some details that make it all worse but I'm shamefully keeping silent on some points. And she's done this in every place we've ever lived. Ive cleaned up after them all along and just quit this year, no one's learning anything with me coming in to fix everything, no one has to face any accountability or fx¢k¡n nothin at all. Just now got last kid in bed, surely she let Laura stay up so damn late to attempt deterring me from resuming our talk from a week and a half ago when i had to leave for the road. Its møthafμ¢k¡n' Zero Dark Thirty up in here y'all, so ya prob won't hear back from me til tomorrow 😕

They're used to it and they're used to me popping in out of the breeze and cleaning it all up in one big say or two event every so often (strangely very similar pattern to my last relationship) they have lesrned from watching mom one your done with stomething you just throw it down or leave it wherever its at. I got tired of it over and over and 6 months ago i told um all theyre goona start cleaning it themselves. This is the first time i ever seen a room get mostly cleaned up tho. Somebodys worried about finishing what we was engaged in talking about the final hour that i was here a week and a half ago, looks that way at least. I gotta wait for kids to go to bed tho, i dont like them getting front row seats to this kinda crap.

Red sky at morning, traveller take warning.

That is when it looks better than average, you can imagine when it's worse.

So I thought I should post up an example for reference. This is my latest collage which I titled: "Whitetrash Whitehouse 2022"

Omg I just thought of this while we been waitin' to hit the road home, it'll flip y'all's wigs. Yesterday I received out of the blue... A photo of my living room. Cleaned up. I say it was cleant all tha hell up, ya herd? Does it look to y'all like someone (who has been avoiding finishing the very serious conversation we were in the midst of in the very last hour before i left home a week and a half ago) is getting awful worried since obviously thats the first conversation there'll be when i get back home? Have I shared any of my photos the last few months showin how bad the mess is there? I can't recall whether i only showed um to my ol' Discord peeps or not. Lol

About to wrap up this TSC store remodel a whole 3/4 of a day early and head on homeward. Unfortunately one of our stores next week has been postponed until August so we may end up off work at home for a whole week instead of just 3 days. Told Bossman if any odds and ends BS projects came up between now and then to come get me the hell out of there lol. The crew now more or less knows what I'm dealing with.

How this one for strange ominous signs of doom the universe posts in front of you on the road. A picture of the remains of the wedding ring that got shattered in the summer of 2021 i think. This may have been the 5th or 6th I'd been thru. No matter the ring, something would happen to it. I guess that sign was trying to tell me that here wasn't a union there at all and I aughta move on lol. Slow learner.

Okay, i finally got back up. Now I'm eatin' yogurt with a hunting knife. Every tool is a hammer. I mean, I don't have any silverware.

Thankful that we got done workin 5 hours early tonight. Ive been workin' at like 8x time faster than average ever since we left out on this run a week or so ago. Im so beat all to hell and back i been sitting here an hour and half and still can't get back up. I usually sleep in hotel chairs, a year ago i started making a habit of not sleeping in beds except for the times when I'm at home

Well when i first found the Discord server that I settled on as my home base it seemed all three the main ppl, my friend Straaya, her friend Taco, myself, everybody had tragedy strike at near similar times. Out here its only been a few weeks since Bossman's wife packed all his shit and when we came home from work told him to GTFO lol. Then ironically mine ends in a way fully unrelated to his situation. What are the odds I'd stumble onto what I did right now? I think the universe is very mechanical and craps predestine to happen. And if youre listening close enough you can hear the sound of its engine running lol.

I hate those weird ominous sensations the universe sends you sometime. I was standing outside work a couple months ago and suddenly felt the most overwhelming sense of dread, like nothing ive ever felt. Like thousands of voice cried out in fear and betrayal then were suddenly silenced. Immediately after my phone goes off with an email from the marraige counseling app we used to use. The email was "Is You or Someone You Know Considering Divorce" i felt 10 times worse lol

I think the rest of my crew accurately defined what the haircut pattern i shaved my head in must be, they said it's a version of the "landing strip" ppl shave on their nether-regions lmfao. All of us was laughin our asses off, I say "yeah y'all motha F'ers, that's to guide tha poontietang in for a landing... on mah face, wtf?!" I really just done it for bein' crazy and not givin' a f#¢% tho lol.

For real y'all, as soon as I end up close enoughto the area for someone to kidnap my @$$

Holy $h¡† skittles, my dysfunctional relationship issue is codependent knight in shining armor that gets dragged under the water over and over until finally drowning. Oh yeah, that plus assuming that my attempting to be as open and honest as i can would mean everybody else must be honest too. I learned a whooole lot this two years, thats why I said it felt like it was destined. Thats how it felt when we met, signs everywhere. Now the signs say it is to be consumed by fire. The universe meant for me to go thru this crappy bullsnot so i wouldn't go build a monument to disaster a forth time... Or because I'm about to pass on and it needed me to resolve the issue before my next life lol.

Eat lunch hopefully. I'm 'bout ta die die die dieee.